Toward Simplicity


Kevin Dooley

When we want to gather our thoughts, or gain some perspective, we usually take a break from the normal and find a place of quiet and/or solitude. And with good reason: it is difficult to sort everything out when we are in the whirlwind of events. But we have that instinct to go and find a quiet place precisely because that’s when our higher connections and guidance can reach us: they can’t get through to us when we are in the spin of our external obligations, and internal moods and emotions. And, as this excellent dream scenario shows, our journey is trying to bring that quiet state into our everyday life – so that our guidance can always be with us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, I had one dream with two parts, and in one part of the dream a male cousin I haven’t seen for many years, that I really like, has come to town and I want to spend time with him.

And, at the same time, there’s a family get together at a restaurant I think we’re maybe both going to go to. But I find out I can’t spend time with my cousin because I guess he has a boyfriend that he’s going to go spend the afternoon with, so I’m kind of disappointed in that. But he’ll still be at the family luncheon for part of the time, but I’d hoped to go with him and then spend some more private time with him.

But I head off to the luncheon on my own. He’s there briefly, and the luncheon seems to move from this café that’s near the water to a second place where people are picnicking near the water, and then they seem to kind of go up into the mountains a bit to a third place.

Then we’ve left. He had left early; I think he left after the first place to go meet his friend. And everyone else has left, and I’m on my way back home, when I realize that I’ve left my purse somewhere. So I start to go back to the three places I’ve been before looking for the purse.

I go to the first one and there’s still some family there. They haven’t seen my purse, and then so I’m thinking in my mind about walking to the other two places. And then I remember that I’m also concerned because I have some taxes to pay and I can’t remember where I’m supposed to pay the taxes. That’s on my mind, so I’m trying to sort two things out at once now, besides the third thing of being disappointed that I couldn’t get together with my cousin. For some reason I feel like if he were along that it would be easier to sort all this out.

I finally realize that I probably am going to have to backtrack to all three places and make sure that my purse isn’t there and, at the same time, I’m feeling this pull to go home because I left my phone in my purse so if anybody found the phone and everything, and tried to phone my home I won’t be there. Since I don’t have a phone on me I can’t receive any calls, but it feels like I have to backtrack first and ask, and then I can go to my house.

Then I remember that all the taxes get paid at an office there. So at least now I know where to go. It’s like I’ve remembered what I need to do about the taxes. That seems to take a certain pressure off me, or create a relief, but I still have to go see if I can find the purse.

John: Yeah, the energetic last night was such that there were all these complexities that kind of threw the situation around, and it all had to do with something astir that is meant to be astir at this point in time – in terms of throwing a curveball at the issue of identity, or way of being.

Your dream is loaded with symbolism. First of all you have the cousin, who is gay, who you can’t spend much time with, representing something that is anew, like another level of things, a way of being in terms of something. There’s no judgement about what this is. It’s just that something anew is trying to be at hand, but can’t quite come through, and it’s meant to come through in terms of your overall beingness which means a beingness that has all of the relatives, or all of the parts of yourself, getting together.

And yet this part only flickers. It is only barely there and, as a consequence of something like this affecting the scenario of things, everything gets shifted. In other words, the restaurant that had been at a place along the water, gets shifted what, into the mountains.

See, in the town there’s all kinds of clutter and complexity. Things are not simple, and so even though you have a water setting, which is supposed to inflect an emptiness, you have a scenario that still has a heck of a lot going on.

So then when it shifts to a place in the country you have the simplicity of the setting, and you don’t have a lot of pressure hitting you. And then when it shifts to the mountains; each of things is building to a letting go, to an emptiness. So as you become more empty, the third image then is that you’re able to handle more complexities that are there to hit you, because going up into the mountains with the setting is to be able to survive ordeals, to work through ordeals, solve obstacles.

But then your dream proceeds to tell you how the one, two, and three like that works. In the first instance, it is something trying to come in, like the issue with your cousin, who you’re not able to spend the time that you need to spend with because of the fact that he prior commitments, or complexities, in other words. So that’s the first example.

And then, in the second example, the simplicity, that you might say corresponds with the country setting along water, enables you to recognize that there are obligations outstanding that have to be taken out of the equation.

In the third, where you hit an emptiness able to solve barriers and obstacles, to penetrate barriers and obstacles, that’s also when you don’t carry any kind of separate identity. And when you don’t carry any kind of separate identity, where you don’t have something else going on with you, like an internal dialogue or projection of some sort that you conjure up on your own as something that has to be done or is meaningful, when you’re able to be blank like this, or totally empty, that’s when you know how and where to deal with whatever comes along that still digs at you – like the idea of having to pay taxes.

When you go to the countryside, where there’s the lake, where all the parts of yourself come together in that kind of a scenario and you don’t have the outer complexity, you have the simplicity, you’re able to recognize unfinished business, taxes and stuff, that need to be paid – but you’re not empty enough yet; you don’t know quite how to contend with that.

When you go into the mountains, meaning that somewhere along the way of this whole journey you have lost your purse, you’ve lost your identity, when you become kind of blank like that, then you kind of know things naturally, in terms of the overall whole, that you’re able to feel.

In other words, you have made a journey that’s able to go from an innerness, the water represents an inner flow, you’re able to go from an inner flow that is not quite very viable in the city of complexities and peculiarities, in which you can have inklings of something coming anew, another level of yourself coming into the family, but flickering, not able to completely come through because there’s something different going on yet, so many different things going on, that as it progresses the energetic of that comes through, as a part of yourself having awoken energetically. That energetic that is needed there as part of you comes through, but you can’t put your finger on it in terms of quite how that transpired because it occurred as you were unfolding, or developing, and becoming more empty.

And along with that losing of identity which may have, on one level of the outer way of looking at things, been very disconcerting, on an inner level of things enabled you to access what was needed to be accessed, that was trying to come through, and simultaneously such an access gave you the ability to contend with things that on the first image you weren’t even recognizing or noticing yet.

In the second image there was still an amnesia a bit. On the third image you went through the obstacles sufficiently enough so as to be empty with no identity and, therefore, having in a knowingness that just was naturally there.

Isn’t that a complicated dream? So the secret to a dream like that is to recognize the process as an unfolding inner process, and then also be able to look at how this is an ongoing thing in terms of the outer unfoldment of things. Because what is happening on an inner level like this, it’s easy to try to stay with that as if one’s looking at this and trying to gather personal information in terms of what is going on. The way that the dreaming is also pointing to is what is different and what is happening in relationship to the inner into outer flow.

And so you have this inner waking up that is leading to a quality of a letting go where you drop the identities of yourself and become very simplistic. You can contend with things that complicate your life with responsibilities that are outer, such as the taxes. You eventually get to where you can release that sort of thing rather than put it into the heart as a characteristic that then veils you from being able to function according to how it is that you really are.

When you are contending with the taxes you have an identity that, if it’s in terms of having a responsibility, an obligation, a pressure in that way, when you set that aside, you can become more blank, and therefore more open and more receptive to yourself in an overall whole.

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Pointing Outward

oeaThis dream has a frightening premise to its imagery, but it is speaking of an issue that almost everyone on the planet is dealing with: we seek solutions to inner problems in the outside world around us. What does that look like? An inner pain makes us want to become rich and powerful, or an inner pain makes us want to eat sweets, or an inner pain makes us obsessive about sex, or cleanliness, or just about anything. And this dream points out that inner pain requires inner solutions, and that begins with knowing that we all have a purpose greater than anything this culture can offer us, and that the universe wants us no matter what. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in this dream, when it starts out, I feel like I’ve seen a man take a little boy, who’s wearing blue, and he’s buried him, or hidden him, and I’m afraid he’s abused him. But he’s hidden him away, so I have to go find the little boy.

And I feel like he’s hidden him in a locker in this room where he’s hidden him somewhere underground, so I am going through these rooms, on an underground level, searching for this boy. And it feels like there’s a servant in the background that I feel sometimes helps me.

So I keep looking for the little boy and, of course, the person who had the little boy even denies that he exists, or is not helping me find him. And sometimes I have to dig through mud, or I’m looking through cupboards where I feel like maybe he’s stuffed him in a cupboard.

And, at one point, my search leads me above ground almost to like a village square area, and then some of the villagers seem to show me this large structure that I kind of roll along the ground; I don’t know, it’s some kind of just a frame with things on it, and they show me where to plant it, or at least, you know, make it stable.

And then it feels like I start digging underground there, because now I’ve realized that there’s more than just a little boy that I think has been spirited away. And the little boy wears blue all the time, but there’s also some little kids with bright yellow hair – and some of the people searching for them have this really bright yellow hair, too – so I’m beginning to figure some of this out.

And I go to where they showed me how to stabilize this frame I was rolling along and I start digging there in the mud, and I suddenly reveal, down a level, the floor of a room and the wall of a room, and I see I can drop down underneath, and then there’s a whole underground structure there. I’m going to go searching for the kids there, and find them.

And now I have found that there’s something about the hair color, like whether have blue hair, or you have yellow hair, and touching your head in a certain way, and it can help me maybe locate these kids because I seem really intent on doing that. I’m not going to give up. That’s the whole dream.

John: So, what’s abused is something on the inner. And the attempt to hide is an energetic that is attempting to do something in an outwardly designed way.

And so whenever there is something that is conducting itself in an outward way, as opposed to an inner recognition way, it’s an absconding energy, in other words, it’s an energy like in your dream in which something has gotten lost and can’t be found.

An approach that has an outer design to it, corrupts. It has to acknowledge, or recognize, the inner in order for it to be valid. When it doesn’t recognize the inner, and has found a certain kind of dexterity in terms of trying to create a relative understanding of things in an outer capacity, it is working with the color of blue because blue engages the intellect, or the clarity, that one has in relationship to their surroundings.

It’s a higher-self color, but it can’t go anywhere, it can’t advance any, and eventually gets all caught up in going around and around trying to constantly figure out variables because the access of that is like a type of penetration into the lower levels of the higher-self – an access in that capacity is a trying to reach up in an outer capacity way. And it attempts to solicit and commission energetics that have an inner aspect to them.

The reason why it seeks to have energetics to have an inner aspect to them is because it knows something is missing, but what that sort of thing does is that energy that has an inner aspect to it is yellow, and what it does is it contaminates that, it absconds that energy. It doesn’t take the energy, that sort of energy, and figure out how to function in an inner capacity way. It takes that kind of energy and tries to turn it around to its outer capacity obsession. And something like that then affects the value of what needs to unfold, in that it is not breaking through. It is instead continuing to spiral, and spin, almost in a spellbinding way.

You can hear inner, but it cannot take that in in a capacity that touches a knowingness of freedom for itself. Whatever freedom it feels is a subrogation of that energy to serve, and function, and be reflected and point outwardly again – as opposed to accepting, and surrendering, to the inner flow.

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Staying the Course

t182Timing is an important factor in life, and in dreams. We often may find that we feel ready for a change, and we’ll become impatient for that change to happen – even to the point where we might force things that shouldn’t be forced – just to speed things up. In such situations, if we’re paying attention, we might get a dream something like this one, where the dreamer has the desire to leave, but every direction she turns seems to point to her staying. That doesn’t mean forever, it may just be for the time being. Sometimes there’s still something left for us to learn, before the next phase begins. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I really just remember one dream that went on a long time. In this dream, I’m living in a house with other people and, at one point, I go to visit a boyfriend who has his own apartment that’s down the street and up some stairs, and spend the night with him.

Then I come back and I’m thinking about moving out of the house to live with him, but then I become aware that the lady that’s in charge of the house has also been with this boyfriend and thinks that she’s going to move in with him. Well, this is kind of a surprise to me, so now I can’t move in with him because obviously he has this other girlfriend, too.

At the same time what this has done is thrown the whole issue of who’s living in the house into a bit of chaos. Because she believes that she’s moving out of the house now, she begins showing me parts of the house I hadn’t seen. So she shows me all the rooms, including the inner room where she lives, as though I’m going to take over the house when she leaves.

But I realize though I had been planning on leaving myself, and although I won’t leave to go live with the boyfriend now, that I don’t really want to be taking over this house that she was renting out, or that someone else owned and she was in charge of. I’m not sure how it worked, actually.

Meanwhile there’s other people that rent there, so I’m looking at their rooms or at them, too. And then there’s a family with two young girls that seems to have moved in. And these girls are really mischievous and are kind of trying to cause some problems. And, at one point, I leave the inner room and I go open a door and the girls immediately like bow down on the floor as though they’re in a mosque or something, but I know that they’re really up to some kind of mischief so I tell the kids that actually I have secret cameras all around the house and I’ve been filming exactly what they do to show to their parents – so to not try to pull all these pranks.

And that seems to stop the pranks because I don’t seem to see the kids anymore in the dream. But now I’m trying to figure out what to do because I realize, you know, from leaving the house sometimes and visiting people and then coming back, I realize that if I stay in the house you have this whole house and yard and everything to run, and I had been planning on moving out and I wanted to simplify.

And I think the lady that had been running the house was thinking that if she moved out, I would just move in. But since that’s not going to happen, I have a feeling we may all have to be leaving the house because we’re having some discussions and it feels to me like no one really wants to take over running the house the way that she did. Most of us are trying to simplify. On the other hand, that may mean that we have no one to run the house and, as I look around, I’m not sure that it’s an easy situation out in the world anymore to just go rent a space that works either. So I’m trying to figure out what it is that will work. I think that’s when I wake up.

John: Your dream has one simple theme that runs through it, and that simple theme is to “hold the course.” In other words, there’s nothing to be found in terms of going out the place, or moving out or, in other words, trying to extend into the outer. There’s nothing to be gained by doing that.

That instead you’re being kind of told, shown, caused to feel, that in spite of all of the ideas about this, or that, that the catching up or revealing comes from taking and having an overall presence in the place where you’re at.

In other words, you already know a certain degree of what is going on within the place, and that you are realizing, by the way circumstances seem to be, that there’s more to the place than meets the eye. But in realizing that there is also an uneasiness, in terms of having to sort out all of the complexities within the place, and so you can get caught in that, and trying to figure out ways to pedal that or to spin it off even. Thinking that by spinning it off that will ameliorate the uneasiness that you feel – but it won’t.

In other words, the latent driving force of wanting to make a transition, or to move out, or to shift somewhere else, that vibration is just not being supported in that it’s a want, or an interest even, so to speak, but the position you find yourself in seems to require the need to stay the course – because there are more rooms there than you realize, and things aren’t done yet, things are still in the process of balancing out. And there’s still a revealing that needs to occur.

You can’t pretend to see what you don’t see. You can feel the imbalance, but you can take it another step, in terms of your presence there, so that somehow it can resonate. So it’s kind of a dream telling you you’re situated the way you’re situated, and have to contend with what you have to contend with and, in doing so, you’ll find whatever you find, if anything. That sounds kind of dull.

Jeane: It was.

John: But the other, which seems more glamorous, in other words, the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence kind of thing, is…

Jeane: An illusion.

John: Yeah, it’s only going to get you more disoriented, because if you can’t handle where you’re at, how are you going to handle where this other is? You’ve got to have that base figured out first, and you haven’t fully owned your own space where you’re at yet.

And so it’s kind of a dream that I guess has a question behind it in terms of this, that, and the other and, as you look around, you don’t find any supporting evidence for making the transition. Your inner world does not give you any supporting evidence. It just shows you that there is still more to be revealed, and that you’re perspective about things is maybe right, and maybe wrong. I mean probably somewhat right, but you also carry a responsibility to everything that’s in this place and just because you can have an inkling about what’s going on doesn’t mean that that goes anywhere.

In other words, it does you no good to pretend, with the prankish side of yourself, that you see where it’s going and what it’s doing as if that’s going to cause something to change. It won’t change, especially not if you’re planning on leaving the house. And you’re pretending that you have an idea of what it’s about, while at the same time carrying in the back of your head this idea of being able to go somewhere else, eventually go somewhere else. In other words, you’re not accepting where you’re at, kind of having a dream that keeps going around and around to which, when you look at the facts, seems to suggest that you need to stay the course.

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