Perception at Play

What if we were to categorize energies the way we do drugs? We might say a particular relationship or type of experience is like ecstasy. And another set of people or experiences were more of a downer. Or, I’m not at my best when I take that medicine/act that way. But with any drug or medication, we understand that it will eventually wear off and we’ll be back to our everyday status quo. The point here is that all our emotional upheavals are just like this – but knowing that they will be naturally processed out of us can add to the speed, and efficiency, of the process itself. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I only had a few images from dreams I had. I remember, in one image, going into my dad’s department store at night, and looking around and seeing people milling around in there and thinking that people had just come in, and were like shopping, but that nobody was running the store. 

And then I finally spot some women that do appear to be manning the counters – so that makes me feel a little better. And I even find some people in the store I know, that I talk to, that are shopping. And that was one scene.

And then another scene, I remember, is I was observing this house, and in this house, which was fairly elaborate, there was a woman guest that had come to stay, a young woman. And she had a very nice bedroom. But there was almost like a saloon door that went into the wall of her bedroom, and up a half a flight. And that was where the teenage son of the household was staying. And I think I did something which locked the doors between the room, but since it’s like a saloon door, you couldn’t lock it all the way. 

As I travel somewhere else in the house, I talk to a daughter in the family and explain to her that that particular room arrangement is kind of a recipe for disaster with this kind of wild woman next door, and this confused teenage boy – with not a good door between the two rooms. And then I know I just kept having more elaborate dreams like that, but I didn’t remember the details.

John: So what you’re doing is, you’re caught in the reverb of projection. If you could just let go of the projection, and let it all be absorbed, it would cause something different to occur. 

Your dream just reports where you’re at in relationship to how it is that you’re able to take something in. For example, as it starts off with you being in your dad’s department store, and it’s night, and that there are things going on in this depth of the department store which has an unfathomable quality to it, in order for you to handle this, you have to make those things that are there recognizable in some fashion. And that then makes it palpable for your consciousness that needs to have identification – that makes it palpable. 

In the other dream in which there is this wild-woman quality that has a connection to something so much more, that it is like a son. But the son is also in a kind of identifiable haywire mode, but the two seem to be even cut off from each other, so there’s no way of sorting that out. That, too, is an image in which there is a perception that is in play, and in place. And such perceptions always carry a delirium, because those are perceptions that have to do with a projective imagery. 

So you’re having to take this sort of thing into account, as exaggerated almost kind of nightmarish images, as a continuation from a pattern that was first introduced the night before. And, in this pattern, there was a dilemma in figuring out how to work with intensity. Intensity in terms of a spaciality.

You’re having to understand how to scope with the spaciality. And you can’t scope with the spaciality because everything has to have a Kundalini vibratory loudness to it as part of how you seek to perceive things around you. In other words, this is the news that you find important yet, in terms of your way of functioning in a projective, projected, modality. You’re not able to let it all go, which means that you have to somehow hold on to an aspect for visibility purposes. 

And this sort of doingness keeps you from just scoping into the depth of something that absorbs it all. You don’t have a proper access. You have to take all this deranged action, the woman in her way creates the son that you don’t even have proper access to, it’s on the other side of a door, causes it to have its deranged mode. 

But if you can let go of all of that, it’ll just go and go and go and go, it’ll all just absorb and get sucked right up as if it was never really real. Not really there. But you aren’t letting go of it, so you’re sitting caught in the scoped-out projection, the telescoped projection of it all, in kind of a outer sense. And even your access to something that’s a little on the inner is still contaminated with a kind of outer demeanor. 

This is a nightmare thing. This is the kind of way of dreaming of someone who does hallucinogenics or something that intoxicates them to the point where there is a deliriousness instead of a letting-go quality that goes into a stillness and a oneness.

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A Sound from Within

Awakening can be a simple subtle shift within us, and we don’t awaken all the way, all at once. It is a gradual process that can move in small increments, or sometimes by great expansions, but only by as much as we are ready for or can handle. In this dream it is a sound that triggers the realization that there is more to the dreamer than his normal perspective. And that’s how it goes, little by little we expand ourselves into the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now, that reminds me of the second dream, because in the second dream that I had there is a corporation that I identify with whose stock is misunderstood. It seems kind of dormant and asleep; in other words, there’s just no action about it, it’s just stale. 

So as I look at the company, I’m trying to determine if there is any movement, whatsoever, for me to be able to make something out of it. And, as I look, I have a stock register that shows the trades over a sequence of time. And it has columns coming down, so I’m going back, and then this, and this, and this, and all of a sudden there is a current point in time in which I notice that there’s movement in the company.  

And I’m actually kind of surprised to see the movement, and I’m trying to determine to what degree now because in the register it says the first half and second half. So what does that mean, first half and second half? Is that a lot of movement, or a little movement, or just the start of something? 

So I study this to try to learn more about it, and determine if such activity is meaningful, or to what degree it’s meaningful. After a long history of nothing happening, whatever is going on now strikes me as something I need to catch up with, because this is an action that is still discrete, but isn’t actually below the radar screen anymore. 

And the meaning is, there is a movement from within that suggests hope, or a meaningfulness, is astir. The dream causes me to feel this as being a kind of pent-up energetic in my chest that I’m carrying in a kind of suspense. But that suspense could change; in other words, something could just break loose. 

I don’t yet know what to make out of this as I don’t have enough information to understand any parameters; just a sense that one has. In the meditation dream, I notice that I am looking at myself from a position that is removed, or I’m somehow separate from what is going on. In other words, whatever’s going on I’m separate from it – and I’m looking at myself. 

What I’m looking at is how am I going to react in the outer with regard to a projection? In looking at myself, I’m seeing myself as a projection. And what am I going to make out of this projection? In other words, I’m in the flow of the projection, it’s not like I can break the projection. And I’m just looking at this projection. 

And suddenly I hear something from another place. In other words, like something within, like a sound. And this jolts me. That is when I notice that in the outer body frame of reference, the outer of myself, which is the projective part of myself, that’s when I’m observing that that was just a projection. Until I heard that sound, I was identifying with that outer aspect. And when I heard that sound, it caused me to notice that there is a distinction of something removed from that projection.

Until I heard the sound, I believed that what I’m looking at, and what was going on in the outer, as being where I’m at. To realize that the image was but a projection, shocked me. I was caught in that hook, line, and sinker as kind of an unfoldment flow. Well I’m just amazed to see what jerked me back, because I was convinced that I was the projection. And what I notice is that – in terms of hearing this inner sound – is that it breaks me out of a kind of stupor, or trance, because I was convinced I was the image, and that that image and what was going on was what was real – and had to acted out based upon the projection. 

So by hearing an inner sound, I am noticing that this sound intervenes and interrupts the projection. So what is going on is I’m observing how I am the doer behind everything that has an actionableness about it in the outer. If I am able to stop, and let go, and take a step back into a stillness of my being, I notice that isn’t anything that’s going on, that’s just kind of a projection. 

In other words, it’s as if I have dreamt all this up. And I’m noticing that the other scenario that circumambulates is but a dream that has me, somehow or another, in its clutches. So the punchline is that in a stillness there is no projection. And when I come out of this stillness, I enter the plane of existence where projections are acted out. To act out a self-imposed projection, because I am not able to let go of an illusory sense, causes me to manufacture what isn’t real, and is out of touch with who I really am deep within. And so, I’m out of touch with who I am, where I am, and what I am.

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A Kind of Harmony

We are all guilty of getting in a mood and wallowing in it, or letting an emotion run through us for days – somehow feeling we are entitled to these detours. Sometimes we even like it. But, part of our journey is to remake ourselves in the image of the universe, and let our own life be reflective of universal processes. And what the universe would do would be to find balance again, which often means adding something to the mix from the opposite side of the extreme that is playing out – balancing emotion with reason, or elation with groundedness. It’s a useful pattern for us to develop in ourselves, consciously. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I wish I pulled this dream out better. I’m in a setting that feels like a school building. And we’re trying to do some kind of a shift, and a whole series of shifts, and it feels like with each shift maybe you can claim some property in the school. 

And so there’s a series of us, and there’s a whole line of shifts that we can make. But, it’s like, right now the energy around the shifts is what’s called a negative energy. So we have to time it right in order to make the shift and get something. And if one of those negatives turns to a positive, and then we try to shift, it can change the whole deal. 

So there’s actually an advantage in when it’s a negative as opposed to a positive. But it means that you have to wait and time it right, too, and then try to make all the deals so that the property comes together. And if you’re seeing the negative turn to a positive, then I think there’s something you can do to make it turn back to a negative, but it means you also have to wait, you can’t do it right away. 

So I’m trying to wait for the right sequence of moves so that we can get this property and not have these forces that are against us take it. That’s the best way I can describe the dream. 

John: What you’re describing energetically is that, from the overallness of yourself, there’s something that is making itself known, that, in order to catch up with it’s timing, you have to look at how the ebb and flow is, from within.

It’s like you’re looking at the seed thought of something coming into fruition. And there’s a positive aspect and a negative aspect. But what you’re looking at is the positive aspect is something that just will happen on its own, so to speak, that isn’t where you need to put your attention, you need to put your attention on what you consider the negative aspects, because the grasping and the understanding of that is what determines what can or can’t be. 

So it’s a dream about a quality of something needing to come into fruition, in terms of a wholeness of your nature, a quality of your being. And you’re looking at what it is that holds things in check, or makes the difference in terms of what can be – because it’s a timing thing, it’s an out-breath, it’s considered kind of a masculine way of catching up, and having a grasp, an in-depth grasp of what is going on within yourself

Now, I suppose you could say, as a scenario that yesterday you felt like you were a little out of sync, or functioning in a capacity in which things were coming out of you that weren’t in a balance, that you recognize, in terms of a balance and a flow that carries a kind of harmony through things. And that part of what was going on, that felt good to you, that had a breakthrough component to it, it was almost as if behind that was something that was over the top, or needed a better understanding, in terms of how it could be from a standpoint of timing. 

And you are experiencing this quality of something shifting and moving around inside of yourself as something that had a meaningfulness to it, but also it had to be done in a way that fit in terms of a sequence of unfoldment, or the timing. So you were doing this in an outer way yesterday, and so then you took this into the dream world, and you were looking at how to catch up with, or be at a schematic of reference inside of yourself that is conducive to an unfoldment that is coming through you, and that it needs to come through in a way that is able to be received without creating a disturbance that negates a quality behind it that is important.

And so you know that there’s something behind it that is important. And you note that when it comes out in an over the top gushing way that it can’t continue like that. It can’t continue like that because there’s something about it that isn’t quite conscious, properly conscious, and when you settle back you come to notice the flickering of the timing aspect – as if that is something that is important in terms of the transmittive whole.

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