Your Place or Mine?

dmttrIt seems to make us happy, and give us settlement, to put things in their place; to categorize them, or to label them. But a spiritual journey is not like that. We can’t say that only this is the path, and that is not the path. The only path is within us. And, if we are on that path, it hardly matters where we are or what we are doing. It’s an important point: the only thing that matters is that we are doing it, that we are living our spirituality when we make tea, do the laundry, or cook dinner. Every moment is the right time for us to be with it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, in my dream, I seem to be somewhere in the mountains, almost like at some kind of a camp, because there are a whole bunch of us in the mountains and we all have our own cabins, or we share some cabins with other people. They have kind of like screen doors, or screened-in porches.

Anyway, at whatever we’re all there for, there’s a man who I usually feel is a little too complex to want to get very involved with, but I seem really pulled to him this time. So he and I are trying to find some place to be alone, and make love, and it’s like I think we try his cabin, I think it’s his cabin, first.

We go there and suddenly a whole bunch of people come in, just kind of fill the room. And it’s like I’m doing my best to get rid of them, even being rude. While I’m doing this, he suddenly also seems somewhat preoccupied with things that I’ve drawn, from the past, so that he’s looking at pieces of like art paper on which there’s drawings or scenes from things that may even go way back in the past. And he’s interested in that, something that I’m showing him.

Then I feel like we maybe have finally gotten rid of everybody, but there’s a young woman there, someone I’ve known from high school, that I can’t seem to get rid of. She just won’t leave the room.

So we kind of give up on having any privacy there, and I guess then we’re going to go over either to his place or my place, but we end up outside. And, as we’re walking somewhere, then he starts to want to make love on the sidewalk, which I consider too out in the open. Plus he keeps talking about something, which I find kind of a distraction because it seems to me like we’re just not really finding the right place to be together.

And then I wake up. And then when it feels like I fall back into the dream, and I look around, I’m looking around for him or something and then a woman comes up and gets out of this Bentley and so she says that she had found that the Bentley is a place where you can be. There’s maybe a whole row of Bentleys or something. Instead of trying to be in a cabin, or a house, the place to be was in one of these Bentleys if you wanted to get together. That’s all I remember.

John: Well you did this dream a little different than how I was looking at it, because I was looking at the theme as being something that is not limited to something that is transcendent, or in another loci or, in other words, outside of this plane of existence, on high, or however you want to say it. I was looking at the theme as being the recognition that there is that, but there’s also the importance of creation.

And the way you approached the subject matter is you indicated that, whether it was your house, or his house, there’s too much that was still going on. And even if you were to eliminate all of the activity, which would be the case if it was more his house, then it would be more like your house and there would be the young girl, or the quality of manifestation vibration, that’s there. And that no matter what you did, you wouldn’t be able to quite capture what was necessary, or needed, in terms of what you’re trying to do in either area.

And so you ended up finding out that it happened on the path. In other words, you go outside and it was on the sidewalk, it’s on the path, it’s not in one place or the other. The energetic comes together on the path. And what’s the path? The path is where things go up and down, or like the breath, up and down, between the two places.

In other words, it’s outside. The image is you’re trying to make it your place, you’re trying to make it happen in his place, you can’t tell which is what. Outside on the path it seems to be something that is able to occur. You kind of wake up from that.

When you go back into it you realize that it’s in the journey, it’s in the Bentleys, it’s in something that travels. So what you’re kind of saying is, where I’m sitting in the theme of this dreaming looking at the importance of manifestation almost as a reactive counterbalance to the schematic of going to heaven, or some other place within, as if I’m doing a pro and con or something.

What you’re basically doing is, rather than getting into the details, or the conundrums, you’re indicating that what is working in your dream, or seems to be the only availability that will make sense – because you can’t be in your place, which is in manifestation, or in his house which is on high – it has to be in the unfoldment, which is the path, and when you come back to take another look it’s in the transmission process, the Bentleys, the vehicles that go back and forth. Interesting.

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It’s Not Me

BBTH100ZIt may seem an impossibility to not take our lives personally; after all, everything we experience happens to us, or around us. But the understanding is more about not imposing our view on life, in terms of what the outcome looks like. We don’t resist what happens, we adapt to it.  It’s really the only approach that lessens the stress of living, anyway. Like in a dream, what unfolds around us has information and guidance for what we need to understand and grow from. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, to have this experience like this, when I went to bed, you know, it was like having watched a whole day of football. It was kind of a speeded up element that one carried. It was kind of like something that moved about, that drifted about. You were kind of swept up in the momentousness of it all.

And I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to meditate being like that and, I realized that, in order to meditate, I had to let go of that; that that was something that I look forward to experiencing and seeing where that would go and whatnot, and yet having experienced that that then had some sort of peculiar effect upon me and, in order to go somewhere in a deeper level other than just have kind of a mind wandering around or something, I had to just let go of that energetic. And I wasn’t sure that it could happen, or would happen.

And then suddenly it did. And when it did the significance, then, is I am awakening in this meditation dream to come to know a result, an inner result, to what is unfolding. The common thread to all three steps is a closeness that opens up more and more and enables me to have a greater and greater net effect upon the awakening process that seems to be evolving.

Now you don’t see that as like that to begin with. In other words, to begin with you just are kind of confused looking down, seeing this dynamic going on, and it’s going back and forth that seems to be about some object or something. And then when you come down you realize you’re the object, and then as the object having to open itself back up to the whole, you come to realize that you’re caught in this vibratory tug-o-war. And now how do you let go of all of this so it all goes back to a stillness? Or, in other words, a letting go occurs, in what is a fourth step, so that the net effect results and there being no projective aspect one way or another in terms of the process.

In other words, there’s no unfolding that is defined in a specifically designed way, in which a given result has to be aspected in manifestation, or the outer. In other words, you come to recognize that you don’t want to be left in some sort of trance, or some sort of defined overall effect, that is supported by outer cause and effect.

And so you learn to contend with those extenuating circumstances by knowing how to just let go of them. And when you do this leads, or becomes, still in terms of an emptiness and silence, and when that is able to happen it’s like the last step in what had been a fairly intense process.

So to kind of recap, looking for kind of like instead of making these statements about it, looking for like how to say it as a meaning, the journey I am describing starts from far away, becomes close, and eventually so close that the energetic vibration itself is like the creator. When I am able to let go of defined, and specifically designed, correspondence that I have, in terms of my idea of a beingness, that is when I am able to know the soul.

Until then I am unfolding as portrayed above, in the symbolic dream, through the various stages of an awakening unfoldment in which there is the pretentions of somewhere to be, and somehow to be, and something to appreciate, and something to enjoy, and things that one chooses to indulge in. And yet then it all becomes something so much more when you quit all of the indulgences and are able to suddenly experience a total space of letting go.

Then I take and I go ahead and have a dream that does that. So in the dream everyone has left the place that I own. I am left with the hay in the field that needs to be cut and, as I take and I stare at that, then my attention goes back to the yard. And then there is a person who’s packing things up and they are being careful to leave the tools and equipment behind that don’t belong to them.

In other words, there’s like a total letting go, which means I can do whatever I like with this, but there’s nothing I want to do. I do not know what to make of my state of being, in which I am unable to take what is in the outer that is before me, seriously. I’m not used to having to contend with that which has no meaningful importance to me; especially that which might have been something that I went to great effort to put together and whatnot, but then come to realize that it isn’t me.

And the sensation of the scenario is I can’t bring myself to contending with that which is released for me to use. In other words, it’s there. It’s like an outer thing. It all belongs to me, but then in the dream I can’t buy into such physical conditions, or find inside myself a frame of reference to do so.

And so I guess the meaning is it’s indicating that I am not in a frame of reference which holds onto the past. I have let go of the synaptic impressions within that had me bound. I am freed up, but for what?

It was kind of a hard dream to remember because it didn’t have the intentionality of a dream content, in other words a dream content that grabs a hold of you, in terms of its seriousness, or something.

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The Obstruction

5Funny thing about a spiritual journey: we are both the problem and the solution. We are the problem because the psychologies and identity issues we have developed – by being born into a world detached from human purpose – prevent us from being our natural selves. And we are the solution because the totality of our design wants us to respond to our purpose. There are many paths and ways to do this, but those are just pointers along a path that each person will have to pioneer for themselves, because we all have different hurdles to overcome. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream I went through a process in which the effect of that process within causes one to reach this kind of letting go, or inability to indulge, like I am accustomed, or had been accustomed, to doing in the past. And, as a result, my time is more freed up because I am not so construed to contending with outer features and factors – as if they have some sort of control, or ownership, or effect over my state of being.

They’re there, but I’m not sure just what to make out of them anymore, especially in relationship to the fact, in a certain confusing way, where once upon a time that sort of thing would have held me in its grip, or in a kind of trance. And so I have a dream in which it portrays things like what you were doing in terms of a demeanor that I have towards what there is, that is somehow or another a demeanor of a type of letting go that has me somewhat surprised.

But before having this dream I had the meditation dream and, in the process of the meditation dream, it was as if I was catching up with the whole idea of what it’s like to let go, and how the letting go opens something up and is what is important in terms of awakening.

So there’s a number of steps that I seem to go through in order to kind of fall into this space, this inner expansive, or letting go, space.

So in the meditation dream I start with an image of being able to look, from above, down upon a playing field; and there’s a game going on. It’s like a football game or something. Two sides are going at it, and each side has to factor in the presence of something that is holding its attention or, in other words, an obstructive aspect.

So that’s the dynamic. It starts off not yet coming fully down into life, able to look down at something and see that there’s this whole thing going on, all having to do with something, and of course, if you were to ponder what it’s all having to do with, you’d ponder it from the standpoint of, well, I guess it’s the football and they’re going at it this way and that way in order to move this obstructive object around, or aspect, which is the football.

And then the image shifts, and there is a progressing to a state of being in which the free flow comes real close. And to come real close, then I come into the dynamic of being the obstructive object that is used as the principle object of the game. So now I am the football.

And then the whole thing shifts, the access shifts, again and what I do is with the slightest little affect, in other words, in this shift I have to be careful of the slightest little effect because it can throw things out of a balance, and could cause an indulgence.

And so I find myself having to transform that somehow or another in the outer, so that as the football is in relationship to the whole playing field, and I have this closeness, that you don’t have this whole intensity there that causes misconstruances of attention that go this way, or that way, and break up a continuity.

So what is going on is I am seeing what it is like to be in manifestation, having to live under set rules of engagement, that must be put off. They have to be set aside in order for the players of the game of manifestation to get over some outer effect that would predominate over their attention.

And so then in the next aspect of awakening, it’s as if whatever that was that had one indulgence, there’s a letting go and I am deemed to be the aspect itself, that is in play on the field, causing a back and forth dynamic. And then finally a suspense is able to be lifted, and the challenge transcended, as I am able to shift from that inner effect with ease, and affect, in the outer, an unfoldment process.

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