The Routine

AljjIn this dream image there is much to deal with: the break-up of a relationship, family members with various issues, and the desire to hold things together – somehow. And this is an image that reflects how we go about our days, trying to manage all the different scenarios that arise, and then tie them with a bow by the end of the day. But what is most important, in this image and in our daily life, is how we are within any given scenario. It is better for us to bring our spiritual alignment and location into everything we do, rather than to change ourselves to adapt to what is happening. Our real strength and power comes from our ability to manage ourselves – emotions, thoughts, intentions – in any scenario, rather than to try to manage external events. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in this dream, I seem to have gone to live with a boyfriend I have, on some property that I think his mother owns – because she lives somewhere else on the property. He has a handicapped brother that lives on the property, and a sister that has some kind of issues, too, that lives there.

And there’s this really good physical education teacher that has us working out in classes, he and I, anyway, that we go to. I really like the routine with the classes. I seem to go from where I live to this cabin room where the classes take part, and we do that. And then we lock the room and we leave.

But something happens, in the middle of all this, where the guy and I break up. So I’ve gone to some other room on the property to stay, and I think I share the room with his sister, then. And I’m kind of studying how she’s coping.

And then I’m also thinking about his brother, who’s handicapped, and will the brother come to the classes or not? But it’s like the brother’s maybe supposed to go to some classes, like some kind of workshop classes, but he doesn’t seem to want to go. And I’m assessing the sister to see whether she would be able to go, or not, because I can’t quite tell.

And I remember going back to the room where we have the exercise classes and there’s a lock on the door, and I could probably pick the lock, but I’m not sure whether I’m supposed to go to those classes anymore now, or not, if we’re broken up. I think we could go there and workout together, but I’m not sure. You know, we just wouldn’t be staying together. We’d just focus on the working out.

I think I’ve sorted out that his brother doesn’t want to, but I’m thinking his sister might be well enough to go to classes, in town, where she could do some work. And I’m just trying to sort all that out. That’s all I remember of the dream.

John: Well, what you’re working with is a variable, inside yourself, that is putting you at some sort of pitch that’s imbalanced. I guess the dream is reporting on a scenario in which how it is that you’re conducting yourself is following an energetic that, when you let go of that energetic, when you’re able to just let go of the energetic – instead of the energetic not letting go of you – that you come to look at things in a whole other light.

And when you stop following, and functioning, under a particular energetic, then the way you may have been, or had been, tends to fall away, or lose its significance, because it was based upon this whole other mannerism.

And so what this dream is doing is it’s causing you to be able to step back, and be still, and in the stillness determine what is needed, or important, and what isn’t in terms of a flow. And that you cannot determine that if you’re overly indulgent in some manner or another.

Now, I don’t see how you’re overindulgent unless it’s a reciprocal to how I had been, yesterday, kind of in some sort of energetic craze that I couldn’t seem to shake. And that when one is in that kind of craze, then they’re not able to adhere to something more about themselves that is behind the scenes of everything going on, that is, from this behind the scenes state, able to remain quiet, invisible, and not be abstracted in one way or another with one’s attention and time skewered.

And, therefore, more likely to be in a kind of balanced kind of mannerism, knowing that what is important, you can’t take and see everything in terms of that, and so you have to be able to function from a level of the heart which is something that you can know.

When you’re zipping this way, and that way, you never can catch up with that. And so there’s no way of being able to appreciate, and accept, whatever it is, and however it is, that unfolds.

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Taking the Lead


Louise Taylor

When we come to understand the real work involved in making a spiritual journey, we may ask the universe: why? And the answer lies in the fact that we have been given a special gift that no other form of life enjoys: freedom of choice. With such a freedom is great possibility, and great danger (as we see every day). From the universal perspective, we need to prove that we can be trusted to choose on behalf of higher purposes, rather than on behalf of lower desires. Our journey is a process of being surer and surer of the choices we make, and why.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the dreaming, it takes a lot of attention to be able to go to a deeper and deeper level inside myself. In other words, this is deep in the dream, and what’s going on is I have the whole sensation of a traveling in which there is two things. There is something that is there and then I have to catch it, and then there’s something that is there and I have to catch it, and I have to catch it, I have to catch it. And when I get up near the top it actually seems to level off a little bit, but still there is the attempt to catch it.

And, like I say, the sensation is like going up, and the direction is like that, within, in terms of the within, in terms of dream imagery. The sense is that of being drawn further and further and, as I said, there is even a leveling out in which it can seem slow at times because I can see myself waver at times. I could see myself look back. I could see myself see my physical condition when I waver; but even though I waver, I still keep going deeper and deeper.

And then eventually I reach a status quo, which is like the top of the in-breath, and what may have been difficult, such as my physical well being as I went deeper and deeper because when I glance back my physical well being may not be very good, I’ve reached a point where everything has stabilized and sound. So I’ve reached the top of an innerness. So there are no conditions, or order, or parts of self to glance back at anymore.

But then, all of a sudden, having gotten there, it switches. Now you start the out-breath, and so now it’s time to come back down into life from this inner depth. And the sensation is quite difficult because you’re doing it differently. Before you had the sensation of being pulled, or guided, or however you’d say, ascending. Now the sensation is different in that I seem to be a beingness that takes the lead, like the ego coming down. And, when I take the lead, it’s like I have to be careful, which means it’s like holding the hand of something on the deeper innerness.

I don’t just come completely down in some sort of helter skelter. So I’m coming back. Like I say, it’s different, it’s like having a hand to hold onto as I descend. And it is like something else is taking the lead – meaning my ego is taking the lead. Something else that was different in the ascent was more like the higher self, and now it’s like something is coming back into life which is more like a quality of ego now.

So when before it’s like being guided and pulled deeper and deeper as an upward sensation, and in coming down it’s different because you could come down in a way that isn’t paying proper attention. So in the coming down you have to be careful that you don’t, as a force of nature, disturb. Or, as I saw in the dream, I could come down and, if I’m not watching my step closely, I can set off a landslide right in front of me. But I am careful, and so if I do set off a landslide I don’t get caught in it. But I look and it could be a close call, but I’m holding the hand of something – so I’m careful.

So by holding onto the hand, of the inner, I see the devastation that my presence in a vibrational energetic is able to set off, in other words, my force of nature development, that is a force of nature because of the innerness that I am able to hold the hand of. But I do not get caught in it because I stay attentive.

In other words, you want to be invisible when you come into the outer. You don’t want to be out there loud and carrying on, and goofy again, because you’re going to get lost again. So the attempt is to proceed with as much care as possible so as to not cause too much, like I say, of the force of nature, and respect my whereabouts, and hereabouts, and thereabouts in terms of this motion back into life.

So I’m having to say that I was there. In other words, you could say that I can look now and can tell that I’m there when breakdowns occur, but I don’t get caught in it, and I was unaffected because I remained attentive to the unfoldment process from within – instead of its affect upon the outer.

The meaning is that I am shown the dynamic of going deeper and deeper with an inner awakening travel sensation, which is a letting go process in which I am taken. The difficulty in that is in the looking back when I should be letting go, there’s like step backs in my physical condition, and those step backs can be seen as in a state of duress because it isn’t accustomed to such a letting go and being taken somewhere deep within, that being what it’s about.

So when I come back into life after having done that, with the out-breath, it’s more consciously because I am coming from such an inner depth. I’m leaving the power and force of this inner depth, so I don’t just blank it out completely, so I watch my step. I’m careful. I have an honoring of that.

So the coming back is something that, when I’m attentive, I know about the inner consciousness, instead of just the outer, and so I know when things are fraught with danger, in terms of the outer, because everything’s changeable, can be affected.

So it is in coming back, if I am not in the proper frame of reference, in terms of the inner beingness from above, that is in the coming back kind of a type of guidance, or a type of knowingness, I will be a force in nature, a force in nature that can be harmful to myself. I may be a force of nature, anyway, whether I like it or not. I may set off landslides as it is.

So the ego can act as if this is okay, if it’s just irresponsible. And the ego, as far as the ego side of things goes, can just flick off such an effect, and the ego aspect of one’s self that one doesn’t buy into, and isn’t lost in, can let go, can step back at the right moment in time and save itself from over indulgence thanks to the hand of an inner guidance that it is able to adhere to.

So why did I have this dream? I had this dream to reach a recognition of inner into outer responsibility. It appears in this dream I am able to see and respect what there is in the outer and, therefore, have a handle on what could be, as long as I realize where I am, how I am, who is guiding me, and I follow what is necessary to tell that story, energetically, if nothing else.

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A Deeper Story

behind-veilOften in dreams we look at the action taking place in the sequence of images and assume that they are telling us specifically about the subjects they describe, whether it involves some people we know, or it is happening in places we go. But that’s not necessarily the point of the dream. And we can apply this same criteria to our daily life: is what is unfolding about the specific things we see happening before our eyes? Or is what is happening pointing us to a much greater, and deeper, meaning? The answer to these questions will make all the difference. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In this dream there are two things that happen that are somewhat overlapping. And, initially, it’s like I’m contacted by someone I had dated in the past, that had left, and he was from another country. It was like people had tried to keep us apart on some level, too, but then he disappeared.

Well he comes back into my life; then I think he disappears again. And someone else that I had gone out with, from another country, shows up and wants to get serious. And he’s left for awhile, and then I see a woman that I used to work with that led seminars and things, and she’s in town leading a seminar. I just see her. We kind of make eye contact, and then she’s gone.

And I’ve gone into a room, and as I go into the room and I look at the far end of the room where there’s windows, I notice some people who have kind of almost hung upside down so I’ll see them looking through the window. They must be up on the roof, but can turn around and look. I go over to see what it is that they’re looking at me for, and one of them must stand up, or they break away, and they come around and they come into the room where I am and they hand me a flyer that the lady I had seen go by, she’s coming back into town to do a one-day seminar, and she wants make contact with me.

And then another woman that was involved with leading seminars comes, and she has me come over to her house, and I see she and her husband have just come into town like they have their luggage. And she wants me to meet with her and she tells me she’s designing a seminar, all about cocaine, actually, maybe how to help people not use cocaine or whatever. She already has 300 and some points written down, but she wants my feedback on some thoughts about what to put in the seminar.

And then she suddenly changes the subject and wants to know what I’m doing about these relationships. And I explain to her that one of them is someone I had gone out with a long time ago, but then they just disappeared in the dream world, but the other one has come back but I’m not sure anybody wants me to be involved with him because my family probably wouldn’t like me leaving, you know, not stay in the country.

John: The dream is easy to understand, but you have to let go of all of that back and forth-ism, and all of the dynamics of that back and forth-ism, in a literal sense, because that is very dumbed down and external, and not what is going on in terms of the vibration within that is trying to wake up with inside of you.

First of all, you have a sense of something, but a sense of something that’s like being pulled forward, something that you awaken up to, something that is more like an in-breath, and so there’s vague memory and such of that.

But at some particular point in time, that journey switches, and then there’s the out-breath where there’s the coming down into life, and how that needs to awaken. You do this over and over again, trying to catch up with something that you can’t remember except in an inner way. And then in an attempt to bring it through or bring it back into something that you can put your fingers on, or sink your teeth into. And you repeat this three or four times in your dream, this kind of reverb. It’s a vibrational thing, and it has this imagery that’s like dream things that are going on – but it’s the imagery that you could dwell on that can keep you from catching up with the energetic that is behind it.

Now why is this energetic, that is behind it, important? Well, it has to do with how things awaken. The energetic is used differently, or functions in a slightly different way, up and down functions slightly differently. An up sensation of vibration is where something is pulling you to a deeper depth within, and in that being pulled to a deeper depth within, you have to contend with amnesia, and something of the past, and how do you remember it and what does that mean.

And then when you bring the energy back into life, instead of something pulling you up, you now are holding the hand of that and coming down into life. And as you’re coming down into life you’re creating noticeability. And so, how do you do that?

Whenever you come down into life, which is now like the out-breath of something, from the past, of an energetic that you rose up into in terms of a kind of inner consciousness. Now when you bring that back down into life you, now have to contend with what that is about, and great care has to be taken to do that process because you’re now coming down. Instead, you were going up, and therefore being guided up, and going into another zone in terms of the going up – to which that’s got a sensation of being a forgotten memory, or in the past or something. But then when you’re coming down into life, it’s like you’re now facing it again, maybe not that issue per se, because again that’s what creates the confusion in terms of the dream.

Those issues are not the issues. It’s the vibrational movement of energy that is what is being described here. So when you’re coming down into life again, it’s almost as if you, in terms of a structure of being of self, is coming with a kind of ego quality or something that is held maybe by the innerness, but is still taking the steps.

So you have to kind of look at it a little bit like this: When you’re going in a consciousness you have a guidance that’s like pulling you along. And so you’re going into a depth that lacks a memory. That’s the in-breath. When you’re coming down into the consciousness, back into the consciousness, returning back into the world, having to contend with things that have to be sorted out and dealt with, and that it is your nature to have to sort this out and to deal with it, it’s like you have to hold the hand of the innerness, but you are now leading the way with a quality of ego or nature that is coming down. And so you do this over and over and over again, three or four times in your dream. That’s the flow of energy.

It’s really easy to get caught in the storyline, and think that you need to make something out of the storyline. But, no, the storyline is just there to cause you to kind of come to grips with what lies behind the storyline, which is a dynamic, and to understand and zoom in on this dynamic, in other words, how it is that you’re to experience the innerness, and how that innerness affects you. And then how it is that you’re to experience the coming down into the outer, which has kind of an ego quality, or an effect upon things that are in the outer, and how it is that you have to hold the hand of something to keep the collateral damage, or to keep what is taking place in some sort of semblance. So when you’re coming into an outer there’s a semblance. When you’re going into the inner, there’s a letting go.

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