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Inner Divine

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Thomas Barwick

Why do we dream? Well, first in answering that it’s interesting to realize that almost anything we can study will have a sleep phase (or a dormant phase). And that those sleep phases allow for a renewed energy in the waking phase – not even so different from the dormancy of winter and the bursting of growth in spring. And in the human, dreams help us sort out what we are processing energetically during the day, so we can awaken clean and fresh in a new start tomorrow. At our deepest levels, dreams also help us see where we are in relation to our purpose and direction in life, because our unconscious is connected to, and in touch with, our inner possibility. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: When you’re trying to look at what’s going on behind the dream, the vibration behind the dream, and you’re kind of like asking the question: what’s really going on here? And what is that soul element, or whatever it is, that’s trying to come into the light of day?

Initially, when you have a dream, it’s important to do as much honor and justice as you can to the vibration. And the dream itself helps you to hold the vibration or, otherwise, it would be too transcendent. And when you pull the vibration down and through, you’re not just catching up with your light, you’re catching up with the light of the world – and you’re permeating that into the atmosphere around you. And you’re developing more auric space and everything else.

And then that energy that is you then can drop certain defensivenesses that are a heaviness upon the heart and, when you drop that, then you find yourself putting the world into your heart, or you put everything into your heart. And your heart is that big. It puts the universe in, and that’s how it heals. That’s how it’s really affecting things; that’s how it catches up with the innerness.

And what makes the dream and stuff awkward for people is, most people, when they have a dream, they tend to want to associate it with a bad experience that’s triggered it, they tend to associate it with something in the outer. And so then they try to look at the dream in terms of an outer projection and, when they do that, they shut the dream process down because they’re not dancing with that inner divine.

And when you reverse that, and start dancing with the inner divine, then that gets excited and you’ll have a tendency to want to dream, or some part of yourself will throw this stuff more at you – almost, can you shut it off kind of thing, it can get that bad. And you’re protected to a certain degree from that as a kind of affliction, when you have moods, when you have a kind of amnesia.

But you start breaking the amnesia, and you start seeing what’s going on behind the equation of things, that’s when you’re actually changing who you really are. You’re getting to the point where you’re no longer affected by the synapses in your nature, so much, as something has gotten so subtle that it is picking up the vibratory wave action of the universe.

And we need these Aesop type dreams to be able to kind of catch up with it, to be able to inflect with, because the actual transcendent vibrations that just goes away. You have an experience of it, you can write it up, you can even have some insight, it can be kind of profound, but then when that state lifts then it doesn’t make any sense to you. But the dreams still do have something more to them.

And to whatever degree that one looks at a dream, and you’ll notice that however you look at a dream there’s always many, many, many more dimensions to it than what is portrayed. And what also is interesting is, first you take and you bring it into something like a depth with inside of yourself, as if you are catching up with your own light. And then ultimately you come to know that your light is also the light of the world, and ultimately then you come to recognize then that everything that reflects around you is correlated. And then you can then reach to the scenarios around you – but only after you have gotten to the point where you’re doing justice to the inner.

When you tell a dream, and as you touch something that’s behind that, then you’ll know where that’s coming from. And then at some particular point, depending on the quality and the nature of the dream, one could then probe at what the scenario is of the outer. All outer projections are limited by the depth of one’s faculties, you know their sense perception and how that equates into a certain mind – as opposed to a mindfulness that includes the whole in an intertwined way. But I know that in the greatest equation of it all the inner and the outer come together.

It’s just this really, really strange dance in terms of the veils that exist. The closest I’ve been able to come to seeing that is to get to a quietness in which there’s a sound of the universe, and yet that sound cannot be heard if there is a mind that’s still inflecting off of say vibrations off of your synapses or something. There actually is a sound in the universe, and I was shocked to find that out that; there is a subtler sound than a person is normally capable of hearing because they make a louder sound that takes center stage by their thoughts and stuff like that getting in the way.

And I was really surprised to see that. And that is the oneness to everything that they talk about because that then puts you in touch with the language of things around you, helps you to note that you’re part of a whole. You’re not somehow separate. It isn’t about you, it’s about the whole, and hones you to recognizing that because you can hear it.

And what you’re really hearing, if you could sort out what all is inside of all of that that you hear, what you’re hearing is the vibration so to speak of how everything is created. In other words, because it was created out of sound,, and you can kind of hear a sound, and then you know you’re intertwined with that because that’s you, and it’s in everything.

That’s the oneness; that’s more or less, then, manifestation. And then there’s even other levels of stillness.

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A Need to Know

creationdBeing on a planet, we are as far from our creator as we can get. And we are designed to awaken to the journey back. But our creator will never hit us with a lightning bolt to get us to pay attention to that fact. (Even if that happens, the message won’t be: Wake up! But it may cause a person to listen to themselves more intently.) We are meant to choose the journey because, in that choice, we are offering ourselves in service to what our creator is intending for the whole. But we are neither slaves nor robots, so it is our freedom of choice. And this causes the subtle urgings inside of us to get drowned out by louder things. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The thing that I have been noticing is how things open up, and open up, and open up on levels. And then there is a quality in which everything has an aliveness about it. And you come to know that aliveness on all of these different levels, and then you come to start to see yourself as different, in that you’re used to trying to see yourself as having a name, and being such and so, and having a particular personality that everybody knows you under.

They know that you do this, and you do that, and you act this way, and you act that way, because that’s who you are. And so that becomes a definition that you’re caught in, collectively. Plus we have all of the collective stuff that we put on ourself, in that we function and go around and we see the world through our senses: there’s a picture on the wall over there, and that there’s four walls in the room I’m in, there’s a bed here, and there’s this and there’s that – and all of that seems separate, all of it seems different and unique.

And so, as a consequence, that becomes a level of being. And so, as a result, other things that are going on don’t catch your attention because your definition of aliveness now has a modality about it. And you’re going to have a hard time breaking any modality that you have come to adopt because everyone else sees you as that way, and so and so good luck then, in terms of a greater wholeness, or a greater oneness, catching up with that in terms of you reaching the higher side of yourself. How do you break that?

All of a sudden a light bulb went on: that direct flow coming from inner into outer comes from another higher-in-the-light place. On this path, deep down inside of myself, to try to figure this out, to try to understand this as if there is a sacred math and geometry and everything else into a flow that can be applied to where you can catch up with the God principle, so to speak, as it is in play in manifestation.

Now because I have adopted this mannerism, or this motif, all of a sudden I’m having dreams that are helping me in this area, adding and giving me information in this area. It wasn’t until maybe last night that I started to realize, aha, this is what’s going on.

Let me give you an example of how we’re influenced by this dynamic of something coming from inner into outer, that we veil ourselves away from, in order to function as so-called adults. You probably remember as a kid where you used to have this little heebie jeebie about the boogeyman. And you could even get into the imagination where you could create a whole sense that there was something like that that existed; as a kid that was very real.

As an adult, you got rid of the childish game. What if that was real? Real in the following way: that deep inside of us we really do know that everything about ourselves, the way we conduct ourselves in the outer, the way we have our nuances, the way we bicycle around things as if they’re all separate, we know that that’s all an illusion. So what would happen if you penetrated, or broke, that illusion?

Well, great fear would come in because you need that illusion. That’s when something’s coming after you, and you’re falling, and you’re going to crash, and you’re going to be destroyed. You never do hit the ground, of course, but you’re falling. That’s where you get those strange sensations. Where they’re coming from is they’re coming from a part of you that is everything, and so the fact that you’re trying to hold onto something is running a defiance against how you really know yourself to be.

And so, every now and then, you slip up. You ease up a little bit, you forget to make sure that that hammer is my hammer, and that painting is my painting, and this house is my house. You slip up a little bit and, when you let down your guard, this other slips in.

And it does one of two things to you. For the average person, when their ordered nature is disrupted, it drives them crazy, makes them very fearful. And then there are those, and we’re meant to be those, who suddenly realize that there is an aliveness about everything, there is a process that supersedes how it is that we’ve pigeonholed ourselves, that takes and directs us, and guides us, in a way that is an inner coming into outer. It’s not something that functions the other way around where we dictate what goes on.

And when it’s like that there actually really is a principle behind it all, and that you really can catch up with it. So as you start to catch up with that, then one thing leads to another and the next thing you know is you’re starting to ponder the molecular makeup of things.

Well, you notice for example that your body is kept alive by eating food, and you need to have a little greens, and a little this and a little that, a little protein, and that makes for a healthy body. And somehow or another the body refines and excretes from all of that; it gets what it needs out of that

And so on a scientific level inside of yourself you can be looking at how to go through the molecular just to the direct vibrational energy of the food that it is that you really need, instead of just eating in a dense way, and some part of you grabbing it in a way that’s very, very subconscious to yourself, and that keeps the body going with what it needs, and you don’t know how that’s done of course. And the rest of it’s discharged because you’re in a dense realm.

But I now am dreaming about how to try to understand and look at the vibration behind everything that is the direct food, without any roughage, in other words pure on pure. When you then take and you do that, and of course you’ve got to understand the first part had to do with being able to understand what’s coming and going, trying to understand the future a little bit in terms of the God principle.

And then in this next phase you’re coming to recognize that you are keeping yourself under these trances because if you didn’t stay under these trances you scare the bejesus out of yourself because you need these trances, or otherwise nothing exists, and you don’t know how to function in a mode in which nothing exists.

And so then if you can accept that maybe nothing exists, because something inside of you knows different and better and is outside of the veils, then all of a sudden, if nothing exists, then you don’t want to be taking something that’s dense and throwing that into your stomach so to speak. You want to go and get directly to the molecular and just get the pure essence. Let’s skip that step.

And so then when you skip that step, you then come full turn then back to the fact that you are held in a trance based upon the schematic that you live in. Now let’s say that the schematic you live in is you have a house, and outside the house is a tree, and this tree is leaning towards the house. And you sit there and you just spend all of your time worrying about what can happen if this tree were to fall onto the house.

Until you let go of that idea you can’t shift to another level, because that idea that that tree could fall on the house is going to victimize you. So you’re now under the spell of the tree energy. In other words, it’s like the tree played a game on you, and it has got you in its trance, that it’s going to fall on the house. And now your whole consciousness is based upon an intelligence that can’t get beyond the tree mentality.

And so I wrote up a reason behind all of this is something like this: If a person is on a mission to understand the process of how life unfolds, you know, and what’s going to happen in the future and things like that, where you find yourself having to break through the veils of things around you to let go, in other words, to catch up with the God principle, then it naturally follows then why wouldn’t you also then start to consider the molecular structure of all of life in terms of trying to get to just the pure energy?

And then, if you’re doing that, and then you realize that both animate and inanimate objects are in some way bifurcated away from the all-pervasive aliveness that is who we are, that you then start to realize that the atmospheres and such that you’re in, and the things that are affecting that atmosphere, are also steering you into a consciousness that has a control over you.

So how can you catch up with the aliveness that’s a wholeness? When in manifestation they see things separately, when experientially all of that in manifestation needs to correlate to the oneness. And so you get down to the crux of this, is to what does the word “we” really mean? And so there’s an old saying: “We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”

And so the letting go really is a letting go. It’s a letting go into that something that is the beyond of the beyond. And that we have to go through this smaller than small, a fumbling about with limited faculties, that somehow or another run their course. And when they run their course they run their course by us becoming frustrated, us realizing that we can no longer feed ourself in that way.

And so when we can no longer feed ourself in that way, we reach to a need, and that need takes us outside of ourself. And as you advance according to this need, opening up from within, where you’re getting the answers from within, everything about you starts to change, too. You require different food to take in. You can’t eat the same dense food anymore. It becomes subtler and subtler. You are already getting more and more refined molecularly, energetically.

And so the key is can you read the signs of this unfolding? You have an intuition. You have a sense about you that knows, that just naturally knows, there’s something so, so, so much more. And when you really get that sense there’s something so, so, so much more, that’s when you’re ready to actually have the inner experiences, that come through, that we call the higher self.

Until then, we stay and we satisfy ourselves with our conceptualizations, in terms of lower-self motifs, and identities, and pigeonholings and all of that sort of stuff, until we just can’t stand it any longer.And you have to get to the point where you can’t stand it any longer. As long as you can stand it, then it’s going to keep happening. You only rise to that other denominator of yourself on a need-to-know basis.

And so that’s why it seems to be such a long around and around and around process because you have to get to the point where it isn’t a matter of creating a better widget way, it’s a matter of actually totally completely letting go so that something more of who and what we really are, that is everything there is, that’s the nothingness, so that that can actually come through, take hold.

That emptiness is scary. And now you’re falling, or there’s something chasing you and it’s going to get you, it’s going to do you in. Those dreams give way to not being able to find where you’re at.

Eventually that has to give way, too, to where you’re able to be comfortable with nothing – without having to have a particular definition.

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A Supported Process

555gesIt might be safe to say that we rarely, if ever, understand what is going on. And that is because our perspective is usually personal, so everything is filtered through that lens. Yet what is happening in the universe, and here on Earth, is a part of a much bigger outplay whose purposes are mostly unknown to us. That’s why it is a matter of common sense to align ourselves with the greater unfoldment, rather than the local (personal) unfoldment, because those are the processes that are governed by the laws of life, and we are meant to thrive within the connection of that.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And, in the next dream, I help myself to something in a jar and, when it comes to putting the cap back on, the various jar caps that are available to me, and there’s like four or five, I just keep seeing different ones, they all look the same but they don’t fit.

It gets embarrassing that it takes so long to get it right, like some of them have threads on them. They all look the same, yet something just is… this is another image in which, like this, I am not on the right track or able to make things fit. There’s something amiss, in terms of a focus and attention, in terms of making things fit.

As a meaning, the inner into outer process is a matter of alignment. First there is an awakening of an inner unfolding process that is designed – and designed for me. I do not realize this because the process has to be impersonal, i.e., for the benefit of the whole, or it won’t flow. And even when it does flow it still needs to be seen and heard properly. In other words, when at the end result you don’t go back and take credit or something. And so when an unfoldment is seen and heard, properly, the grounded earthy focus is ready to flow.

And so, in the very last dream, I’m at a football game. I’m sitting up in the stands, and on the very last play of the game the opposing team, which is behind 14 to 7, throws a Hail-Mary pass that goes almost the length of the field, gets intercepted in the back of the end zone by the opposing team – and here I am in the stands watching this happen. I’m kind of a neutral party.

The player who intercepts the pass comes from the back of the end zone, runs along the back of it, runs up along the sidelines, and takes the thing back for a touchdown, for what would be then a final score of 21 to 7, instead of the team winning 14 to 7.

The game is played in the winning team’s stadium. I yell out from the stands that the runner stepped out three times in running the ball back. I mean he just sashayed around in such a way. It didn’t matter whether he stepped out or not, and the final score of 21 to 7 versus 14 to 7 didn’t matter because the game was basically already won. And the local official, which is the official in the home team’s stadium, called it a touchdown.

And so as a matter of fairness I point out, yell out, that he stepped out three times. And the official doesn’t, of course, reverse the call. I’m not an official. Who am I? I indicate that for him to be that way, when he knows better, makes him a chump.

The next thing I know is a big guy is summoned by the official, who is insulted, to beat me up. No one comes to my defense or objects, although everyone in the stadium knows what is going on.

Meaning: In the meditation dream there is a result that occurs in which, in the journey, there was a lot of lucky breaks. In other words, I let go in the middle phase. And so then it kind of can cause a result to happen.

That’s why I’ve mentioned if you have the right attitude, and the right focus, you can do things that they’re not creating resistances because, in the focus and attention, you let go of things that undermine. A really proper focus and attention doesn’t necessarily invoke the personal, as much as when one is constantly struggling. And so a person who has a mood, and the wrong attitude, or whatnot, even if they had the right attention is not going to have things work out because they don’t finesse the ethers with the proper letting go, or a proper freedom.

So as a result, in the middle process, you generally don’t have the means to go very far because there’s generally plenty of opportunity to waver – where you stop and take notice of what takes place in the middle, or your focus and attention takes on a bit of personal, or whatever.

But in this dream, one has taken and gone from a beginning to an end, but it’s a tenuous end. First of all, it’s rare to go from beginning to an end because the personal level is likely to make itself felt somewhere along the way, or get in the path, and thus a karmic effect will prevail. But in the event you’re able to set it aside, and yet you do so maybe whereby you have a letting go during the middle phase, but like the end result you take notice when it happens that way, it is tenuous because the consciousness does not support the effect on a personal level.

In other words, you have to almost throw everything that unfolds behind yourself or otherwise you get caught even in the beginning and end. However, when the personal is taken out, and a true letting go occurs, this kind of freedom is allowed, it’s supported, as a process that is like magic because the ego isn’t sucked up at the last moment, the whole thing made vain again, and thus easily disposed of.

And then in a middle dream what is done does not come together with balance because the correlation between inner and outer has gotten lost. In other words, you might have the right focus and attention but got lost in what you were trying to do. This is when it is not possible to match proper lid to jar, in which something was taken out without holding the overallness properly.

And, in this dream, what unfolds in the outer, in other words in this dream I just recounted. In this dream what unfolds in the outer does so for a reason, to pooh-pooh that result, even if right, does not resolve anything. To be a spoil sport is inviting trouble.

Significance: The process of letting go to an inner design flow requires a human being who is a party to the effect to totally let go, not second guess the result, in order to uphold through them the divine unfoldment. It is best to do so in a quiet way, applied discreetly, as to be meaningful in a way that draws no attention. Otherwise, you know, people question or challenge you. It’s just human nature to not get it, and so that’s why things happen better when they happen more invisibly so that no stigma can slip in.

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