The Refresh

956572A wise person once described the spiritual journey as being something like a rocket trip to the moon: it’s basically off-course every second, but with minute and incremental adjustments every step of the way, it reaches its destination in the end. This is how we develop and proceed, by refining how we are in our spiritual journey, by becoming better and better at it. In the process, who we were when we began slowly fades away, and where it is possible for us to go has expanded and changed completely. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now my meditation dream is a bit different. In the meditation dream, I can see a place where I’m going in my inner mind’s eye. In other words, as I’m sleeping, this is all happening in terms of kind of a lucid way of dreaming within, so as I’m dreaming within I can look and I can see something that is an outline of where something can be and how it can be.

It’s almost like on a distant landscape, and you could see this on this distant landscape way, way, way far away, as if you’re able to introspect, freeze-frame introspect, into a depth of yourself. So you can see that, but even in my sleep now the dilemma is to reach this place. So the fact that I see it there is something that compels me to try to reach this place, like an inner process is invoked by the fact that I know that there is such a place. And that such a place is something that I need to come closer, or to reach, or want to come closer to and reach.

But I have my mannerisms, and my bifurcations, or something, that affect that clearness. In other words, it’s clear to me what I see, but the vibration coming back is not as succinct. In other words, maybe there is a bit that shoots back and through, but it’s very subtle. It’s not as distinct as the seeing of what it is that I am seeing.

So the vibration that comes back is such that it’s so dumbed down, or subtle, that I’m still able to try to direct things this way or that way, in terms of how it is that I am. And in that directing of it this way and that way, I never do seem to catch up with this place. I always seem to be going around and around about things, always caught into some multiplicity of things.

However, the fact that I saw something, even if it’s a grayish image, you know, that is a freeze-frame of something, the fact that I saw that as a once upon a time maybe even, the fact that I saw that means that there is still something that must triculate a little bit to me, because I find myself in a modality that it continues to try to get there – even though the way that I am trying to get there will never get there. It’s still trying to do it with some sense of ideation, as opposed to letting go.

And so suddenly there’s like a shift. I can’t explain what caused all of that. It’s like a total letting go and just like the spinning or something, where something just drops away, and it’s more than just the distance between this and that. And so suddenly, in my awareness, this whole thing takes on a light and a coloration, which is like a light, and a newness compared to what was a dullness.

And that’s when I realize that what it was that I was proceeding towards, or looking at, or had an inflection of, as a consequence of the way that I have become wayward, my sense of that is more in keeping with a type of spiritual illusion. So, it’s as if that spiritual illusion had some sway nevertheless, because I adhered and held to that spiritual illusion as a form of controlled steerage as I proceeded with my own wayward mannerisms simultaneously to this subtle inflection that was one of internalized belief.

And so not being able to close the difference between this shadow image that I see, that is important somewhere out beyond where I am at, and how it is that I am going this way and that way is a frustration in the present. I can’t seem to tune out that frustration in the present because it has a loudness that holds my attention, where I nuance this way and that way, in terms of it, as opposed to just adhere to, or hold, something that is really kind of clear. But the clarity is compromised by my manneristic nature.

So there I sit, trying to sort things out, and as long as I am trying to sort things out a waywardness exists. Somehow something happens, and what I see in my mind’s eye changes. It becomes modernized. It just takes on a whole different, exciting appearance. It like gets really freshened up, as if some sort of energetic bifurcation got dropped so that the image comes across more deeply, and more succinctly.

And that’s how I come to know that the degree of a closeness to something is based upon having to get aligned in a way so that the loudness of my ideas and approach has to end. You’ve just got to suddenly let go of it. You’ve just got to drop it.

So that’s what that is here, suddenly a shift within, where I seem to make a big letting go step, and am suddenly able to recognize this place as being a wholeness that is refreshed and anew. It is similar to what I held in my mind’s eye as the place I needed to reach, but it had gotten discolored. It had gotten set in a particular defined way, because this letting go shift brightens and electrifies what is imaged, so that it’s not the same anymore.

So then I wake up, and the meaning is, there is a way of vying for the heart that comes from within as a subtleness that remains. Even if the best you can do with that faint, faint memory is not really true. Even it is an illusory way of looking at things.

So the connection is so quiet, meaning that the vibratoriness doesn’t come through; so it’s so quiet that the loudness of what you do in the outer causes you to mess with it by way of a blurriness that leads to an outer place defined with conceptualizations of the ideal.

So when I stop a waywardness that I deem important, I refresh to a connection that doesn’t have skewered, misappropriated images in a set time and space that I imagine. The distinction is like taking an inner faded black-and-white imagery, that is a freeze-frame inflection, adding color and light to it, thus renovating to modern times. Such a change is a night and day transformation of a preset imagination.

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A Greater Speed

radiate-energyWhat does it mean to exude an energy? In simple terms, we can understand that a lion exudes the essence of a lion, or that a mother can exude the essence of motherhood, or that a nurse can exude the essence of care. For a human, to exude means that the energy of something lives with that person, so when they express themselves, the energy is radiated out from them. And, as humans, we can choose what we want to radiate into life. Then, through years of thoughts, actions, and intentions, that energy can come to be with us. That energy can then be transferred to others through us, as a service into life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the sleep dream, it’s like I’m standing there near Dean. Dean is standing, and he is saying something. And he is saying something to everybody, which is like a group that’s standing off, in kind of like almost like a listening student-teacher mode, but I happen to be standing near him.

And so Dean has apparently said something that has a kind of, what you could say, an epiphany aspect to it, and then he throws in a laughter, a joyousness, that exudes it as he says it. And, as he says it, he then takes his arm out and, just like I was holding my arm over you, he then extends his arm over my waist. I suddenly, spontaneously, as he does this, to keep from being knocked around, take my hands down over his arm, and he then spins me off the ground in a circle – as he is continuing, almost without paying any attention to what he’s doing. It’s just his exuding. As he is continuing to have his focus on the group, there is this aside motion in which I am spun off the ground.

So in being spun off the ground, you know as an image, then as I am continuing to sleep is when I came to see what this was about. I’m still in my sleep. I don’t wake up to this. It’s still in my sleep, and I come to realize, I come to see, I come to wander almost in a kind of mindfulness in my sleep, and realize that there is an energetic that comes from a focus and attention that may have something that is said, in an outer capacity way, but behind what is said in an outer capacity way is a whole other depth. And to catch up with that depth is to be spun, and not sit there and contend, or noodle, with that in some sort of in-between capacity mannerism, or way, which means that all questions just automatically have to simultaneously fall away – as if there is just a complete, total letting go – which is akin to what laughter is like.

And that is why, if you look at this in a lesser octave way, that is why if you are capable of sitting before such an energy and let your questions sit in the etheric, as opposed to articulating them, because in the articulation there is kind of a doubt, or a barrier, that has to be punched through. That’s why it’s a question. It’s something that’s missed in the acuity of the energetic. If you’re able to sit, they just get flecked away. It’s almost as if they get answered.

But if you were to just sit, and totally sit, and then take this to a greater and greater speed, what’s really going on is you’re just being spun into that vibration; not the ideas behind it that are the building blocks that tweak you towards a closer, and better, and clearer insight about something. No, that’s the capacity of still working with the mind, in relationship to how the mind is always having to sort something out. That’s still a sorting out in relationship to where you stand in relationship to this. You have to just completely let go so that what is said is of no significance, and no importance.

It’s like talking about having recorded the teacher one day, thinking that what she was saying was so profound that he could then stop and have it translated into a way of looking at it that you could then, by slowing it down, you could go and you can maybe see and catch up with some of the profoundness of what she was saying – as if what she was saying is profound.

But what you were experiencing that was profound was the energetic, because then when you stopped, and took down, and looked at what she said you found out that maybe she was just talking about the weather the whole time. And, yet, through all of that was the energetic.

So that’s what you were doing when you were looking at the this over here that was deemed to be profound, and that that over there is deemed to again to be something significant, but what is the distinction between this and that? To what degree do they comport, and that comporting has to drop to a spinning.

That’s a profoundness. Instead of continuing to have the machinations about this, and machinations about that, it just suddenly goes “poof,” and it all melts away. Very deep vibratory realization and, of course, that’s how I did it in my sleep dream to catch up to being able to see what you were doing in terms of your vibratoriness.

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In the Spin

spinning-95We know from science fiction movies that when we reach warp speed, everything blurs into a oneness. As humans, we are in the physical realms, which is much slower than warp speed; that’s why everything appears separate. Still, energetically, things are always in a oneness. In our development we begin to operate at higher speeds, with higher energies. As this process occurs, we begin to be back inside the oneness. But this is not just a mental choice, it’s a process of dealing with higher energies. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just remember my last dream. In this dream, I seem to be working someplace where we work, and then we kind of go up a level, and go into a room, an open room, but it’s just up a few feet from the rest of the room that’s like a dining room. We all sit around a rectangular table.

When we sit around the table initially there seems to be a lot of tensions going on, and then one of the young women there reveals that she’s gay. And after a few minutes it’s like another young woman there, who I think is like the daughter of someone who owns this place, suddenly comes to the realization that she’s gay, too.

And, during all of this, it’s like some stuff got spilled on the table, and she’s wondering if this is us being upset with her, the reason things got spilled or mixed around, and I make a comment that, no, it’s about the tension from everybody trying to not reveal what was so, as opposed to the upset being about having what has been revealed. Although I realize that her father who’s not there, that maybe is one of the owners of the restaurants or something, might have trouble with the whole issue, particularly because she’s kind of taken time from when she should be working right now to stay at the table because she wants to sort this out with all of us sitting there.

And, at the same time, I’m realizing that whereas with the other girl she was very aware of how she was, with this one who’s her close friend this is more of just like revelation to her, too, and that we need to take a few minutes to kind of reassure her. At the same time this is causing some tension because she’s supposed to be back at work. That was the dream.

John: What you have to do in this dream is you have to take out the action of the appearance of the dream, and look at the transition, vibrationally, that is behind what is a sequence of outer appearances, or mannerisms.

And, when you do, you realize that what you’re perceiving, and what you’re seeing in front of you, is a far cry from the way that there is this inner state that is spinning you. And so it’s like, can you catch up with how this just spins you?

In other words, you can take and you can look at and have an epiphany over here of an insight, and then all of a sudden that leads to another epiphany over there as an insight, and you could see that this epiphany of an insight is different than the depths of the epiphany of the insight over here. And so you could easily have a sense of how this works as an importance, and as a flow, or you can suddenly drop even that spaciousness of pulling those two together. You can even drop that spaciousness and fall into the recognition that the whole thing is being spun, and that in the spinning of this over here, and that over there, you end up with something that just melts together.

I mean there’s an old image story of something that gets spun into butter or something; and I can’t remember how it goes, I just suddenly saw that, where something gets spun and all of a sudden it changes. And this is what this is like, only it’s on a vibrational level. And that you could take and notice, you have the recognition inside of yourself, that it’s more than this and that, and then all it requires then is another little letting go kind of subtle drop and you’re able to have those two areas, those two places, in which there is some question, or bifurcation, or nuance, or aspect in terms of reaching between this and that. It just spins, and the whole thing becomes one orientation.

Not an orientation over here that is kind of interesting, and then an orientation over there that’s more profound, and that you sort out this which is interesting from that which is profound, and come up with the difference as to why this is to that, and that is to that, as if you’re able to schematicize the unfoldment.

Instead, rather than trying to steer, or schematicize, or to control, or to have a piece of the way you hold onto the unfoldment – as if holding onto the unfoldment is where it’s at – you just suddenly allow yourself to be spun, and then when you’re spun it’s like you’re spun into something, and it’s no longer visible in the form that it had been, and goes into something else. It spins itself into nonexistence, or it spins itself into something that is like butter.

As it’s spun, all the features fall away, and it becomes something else that is just there – but no features anymore. That’s the vibration behind what you’re dreaming, that you suddenly catch or fall into in one fell swoop. If you catch up with it, if you feel it, if it comes across in a way that is still having to sort something out, or to recognize the distinction between this place and that place, then you’re not really quite letting go. You’re still trying to put the whole thing into your own personal cognition.

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