Clearing Space

Jeane: It feels like my folks have moved.  I have visited the new house and I have even left a number of things there because I will be moving back, or visiting, or living with them part or all of the time. I have left the house and gone somewhere. I cannot piece together all of the dream, but along the way I keep crossing paths with two little girls (8 and 9) years old.  They are sisters.  At some point I realize that they actually are orphans and they have been hiding it from everyone. I am in a house where a man, it feels like he is a politician, goes over to them and starts to lead them away. I have the sense that he will take advantage of them, so I speak up and say to the girls, “You are orphans aren’t you? You are alone?”  They nod and then I say, “OK, come on, you are coming with me.”  I am taking them home with me, and on the way to my parent’s house I cross a ravine and there is another man, a neighbor across the ravine, who hollers at me and I am indignant at this. I holler back across that I don’t see how he could be so mean after I had visited his grandmother.

I get home with the girls and at this point I have a whole entourage of people with me. When I look around I realize I have unpacked a lot of stuff at home, but it is all cluttered and dusty. I am thinking it will have to be cleaned up, but it is morning and the group I am with wants to sit around a table and share dreams. Then there is this huge search, one man has a tape recorder, I have a tape recorder, so we are on a search for tapes that do not have anything on them, and this takes me through the whole house and I see that it is in disarray, neglected, and dirty everywhere. We cannot find the tape.  Meanwhile I am distracted by all the things I have there – all these different colored bras hanging on one wall and I am going to have to go through and get rid of some things, plus I remember that I am trying to find the tape, and I am half dressed and trying to clean areas up. Then I am thinking that one area of the house is larger, and I could let the girls live there. Suddenly I realize that I only have 15 minutes before I have to leave to go back to Denver or Kansas or somewhere.  So I am running around still trying to find my clothes, and now I notice the house is getting cleaned up, but it is my mess. I know it will be a few minutes before I can get dressed, clean up, and leave the house.

John: So this dream starts off with you holding a certain comfort in terms of what you see and recognize as a relationship inside yourself. In other words, you can go to the house of your parents, even though it is new, and move right in. And the problem here is that this is a subtle holding on that you are leaning on, and you even see yourself as having a right to do that. It seems totally normal, but it is a kind of indulgence. The problem with this kind of indulgence is that it orphans you from qualities inside yourself that have a whole other depth to them, that you have not come to form a relationship with, or come to know. As you take the girls with you, you are acknowledging that they are part of you, and so you take them home, in a manner of speaking. The fact that you do that causes you to realize that changes need to be made, in terms of getting rid of unnecessary clutter, and wanting to create more space for these orphans to live in. They can only find a home in you if they have room to move, and are not put in amongst the items you already have a familiarity and comfort with in terms of your life up to this point. And so these images are trying to wake you up. Overall, the consequences of accepting these “orphans” into your “home” is a dramatic change in the equation in which you live.

You can also see how this dream relates to the previous one – they work together. In the first you are learning that something has to come from the inner into the outer, and in the second dream you are shown that, in the process, something has been inadvertently orphaned.

Manifesting Your Life

Here is a beautiful example of how a seemingly straightforward dream opens up to unveil one of the great truths.

Jeane: I’m lying next to you in bed and there are a bunch of file folders resting on your abdomen. Inside one of these folders are little plastic cassette cases that are filled with silver, or can be filled with silver, almost like silver bars. I know the folders are there and I am aware of the one folder with the silver in it, and I have the feeling that most people would be content with that knowledge. But I feel the need to make sure we know which folder the silver cassettes are in, and how to open them up, because initially I do not.

I feel compelled to open up the folder and lay the little linked cassette cases out, and then somehow the silver gets poured into them and really becomes solid. I am not content until I can do that. At first I struggle to do it but when I finally succeed I end up with all these little, plastic cassette cases, with the tops open, and they are filled with silver that will harden. There are links or bars connecting the cases together. Once the folder on your abdomen is open and the cases are all linked from there in a straight line – it stretches out some distance – and are filled with silver, only then do I feel that things are okay. I still am not feeling completely satisfied, but it will do. It was definitely not okay until I got that figured out.

John: The interesting thing about the image is that you are taking what you sense inside, and you are bringing it into the outer. The file folders are actually laying on me. They are like me, or a vibration of me. In a way, any energy that is put out into the world is karmic: It is not a question of it being good or bad, it is just something that comes into manifestation. Once it is out there it has to manifest.

I, too, have been sensing that whatever it is that one takes on in their nature, it plays through them in a way; it has a certain karmic unfolding. It is like adding a catalytic quality to something that may be otherwise inert. And thus, it is very important to be aware of what you allow to manifest, very aware of how you allow things to touch and move you. Because we are formless in a way, and when we respond and become attentive to feelings or energies that are filtering through us, the attitude we have toward them is an energy we generate and that will ultimately manifest. If you are feeling something weird, then the formless quality creates a karmic effect in just that weird way. If you are feeling something sweet and deep and tender, then that is what will emerge. That is the nature of the human being – they are mirror for the things they process.

The key to something like this is in recognizing the process of taking what is an inner echo, and then bringing it through to the outer and turning it into something catalytic, like silver, or ultimately even gold (which is a completeness). Here you are dealing with silver, something that is transitional in an evolution to something else, to another state.

It’s important to recognize that as a human being you are surrounded by choices and potentialities and, depending on what you give your attention to, you can manifest meaningfulness inside you of your own choosing. Your choices can lead to denser qualities of the egocentric life experience, or you can take what is emerging inside you and shine it up – transform it. That is the natural process; it’s simply the way life works.

It’s like the teacher has said, there comes a point in your life where you have to be careful what you think about. Another way of saying it is that you should have an awareness of the energetics you connect to and identify with because that is what will then manifest around you. There is freedom of choice in that, and a responsibility.

Surrender and Liberation

John: In this dream, I remember looking for a certain vibration, and I found that we were living in a time when this vibration’s light had gotten so faint that even its memory as a word had faded. I could hear the word, and look at the word and it was kind of faint, but I knew it was not even spelled correctly, let alone anyone understanding its meaning. So this vibration I am looking for was once a connection that could make one feel complete and happy and content if you could find it. You did not need anything else to rely upon. It was a vibration that was taken for granted for so long, that instead of its importance being valued, it could no longer be found as a proper memory.

I fumbled to re-identify with it, to identify it inside myself, as a need, which is a required presence of light. I am in a city, and there is an announcement: “As of this moment, the electricity is to be turned off.” Then the city goes dark. The announcer goes on to say that those who do not like what is taking place can voice their opinion at 4:30pm today, and names the place where this is to occur. As I look in the direction of the announcer, I notice that what I see looks like a tank. I also feel the futility that is pervasive in my surroundings. It seems that everyone is feeling so submissive that achieving a reaction of outrage is no longer possible. The effect seems to find everyone living in a state of anesthetization.

I note this condition as being all around me in life by glancing in the direction of my body double – a reactive shadow that is in the physical world (normally my shadow would be reactive, but it is not reacting). That is the physical world part of oneself. The shadow of what I am meant to be as a complete person (my idea, anyway, of how I should be as a person in the physical world), is already considering how it can get by under the new circumstances. Sensing this, I know that the will to resist or to vent outrage has gone from within me as well. I see myself in everyone else, surrendering, as if this is now how it is meant to be. This surrendering is to a state wherein what had been is no more, and I must now make do, on a moment-by-moment basis, with what there is in life that gets one by. I have lost a huge crutch in the external and so has everyone else in the world.

However, I am able to cope because deep down it doesn’t seem to matter. I can find a way of being that may seem on the physical level to be debilitating, but when there is no reaction, on another level, it is actually liberating. If you were to think about this it would seem rather bizarre, even perverse, that one can simply be stripped like this without the typical outrage. Apparently this is possible, because at the core of who we are there is a place that is reachable, where a human being is able to reside, when all is taken away. I seem to be reaching for that place, rather than for the creature comforts of the mind. What is unusual is that it seems to me that all of life has gotten to the point of needing to do the same, or fall into a deep despair, because there doesn’t seem to be an alternative that could keep things going on like “business as usual.”

So the curiosity that I seem to embody is “what is next?” What had been is no more. How are people going to reconcile the external physical reality of what had been their surroundings, with a much more deeply rooted inner need? Will they find it or are they going to fall apart? Do they have the energy to look within instead of to the comforts of the outer? If so, humanity will find an inner answer. Despair and hopelessness is not meant to be the end result of a society that has been dumbed-down so much that it is unable to function. Something new is emerging upon which a connection that guides is able to come into manifestation.

Jeane: I remember hearing about some places, in Germany and elsewhere in Europe, where the towns have taken out their stoplights and traffic signals. They feel like this is forcing people to slow down and to be aware and decide for themselves what they need to do, instead of them just zipping through thoughtlessly. So the people are having figure out what is safe and appropriate. They don’t have signals telling them what to do anymore. They are going to have to feel for the flow.

John: It will teach them how to relate to everything in life. That is very interesting, and it looks like we may be coming to that. That we can all live together in a fashion that works if we don’t have the ordinariness that we have come to expect.

Is my dream a foreboding, or is this a dream of… You know the wayfarer always makes the journey and more or less brings in the images of what has to be, so is this something that is being brought in as a “has to be” image? If this is what is going to happen, it means that humanity is going to have to snap out of its dependency and its way of taking everything for granted. We have gone on for so long in this way, we’ll actually fight for our right to take things for granted!

But the dream shows that even the desire to fight to maintain the status quo is being stripped away. We are going to have to reach a deeper core inside ourselves as a way of feeling okay about things. I guess we can do that. I guess that, ultimately, is the journey that one must make, rather than struggling to become more and more dependent upon modern society and all its outer comforts.