Archive for March, 2010

In the first part of this dream (Feminine Rising), we traced the discomfort that Jeane experienced in the scene as it unfolded, and how that discomfort led to a feminine aspect within her attempting to make the situation right, to smooth out the wrinkles in a way. As the dream sequence changes, Jeane is still trying to handle uncomfortable situations, but in doing so she sacrifices her connection to the flow of events, and that allows an unresolved issue to surface.

Jeane: Then the dream shifts, and you and I leave the area to visit my family. It turns out that they are at my grandmother’s house. When we start out, we are initially at the top of a hill and as I look down I realize it’s more of a deep canyon. The highway below runs to the left, perpendicular to where we are. I notice a corner near the intersection of the highway where cars whiz by without warning. There are also people walking and some riding bikes. I feel that if we drive down the hill and try to pull out into that road it would be too dangerous: the cars zooming by could really clip us. This does not seem like a good idea to me.

I find a broken-down bicycle and have the idea that we could make the trip if I ride the bike and you walk alongside. Initially we consider a little bike trail on the side of the mountain, but I realize it’s kind of narrow and rutted. I talk you out of that. I think we need to go down the hill and up the road everyone else is on, and I will ride on the bike and you will walk and we will make it, even though I don’t ride the bike too well yet.

Perhaps because I’m riding the bike I get to my grandmother’s house a bit ahead of you. I get the sense that my mom is further on. I pause and walk over the lawn, through an orchard to where she has stopped. However, as I look at the lawn, I notice little pieces of what look like pills scattered in different places. This disturbs me; I really don’t know how they got there. It throws me off a little, but I continue on. I glance back at the house and see a light on in the window and think you have arrived. I look into the kitchen window and at first I think it is you, but then it looks like my ex. So I pause and go into the house for a minute. Then it feels like the man has become you again, and you ask me something about my ex and he shows up and I have to introduce you to each other.

John: Initially, something in you recognized the vibration from the earlier part of the dream. You intuited something and it raised your acuity level. You took into account many levels of awareness instead of having to pause and examine each different aspect. This level of acuity is a kind of speeding up, where you can see everything in one fell swoop. It’s a place of knowing that carries a quality of wholeness with it. As a result, you have at your disposal your entire lineage, represented by your parents and grandmother.

However, you are at a roadway and the cars are going by too fast. It would be better for you to be going at that same pace, but you feel the need to progress more slowly. The faster pace left you a bit overwhelmed, shown by your fear of entering the roadway in the car. You haven’t fully accepted that faster vibration, so you go back and drug yourself (the pills on the lawn), and you have to get out of the car and ride the bike instead. So then in the dream you are revisiting everything in slower motion.

So you are going back and using your entire lineage, all those aspects of yourself that are there at your disposal, but in a very laborious way. And your feminine (riding the bike) is at least a little faster than your masculine, which is still walking. You see the pills scattered around, and you aren’t sure what is going on, which is a big hint that there is really something stewing here. It’s a very different state compared to the essence of the dream at the very beginning, where you saw everything with much more detachment and clarity.

So by slowing everything down, you’ve lost your overview. Whenever you slow down like that, it is because you are carrying inside yourself a type of wound; something that is unresolved. At the faster speed, you could have jumped right over it and not let it effect you, and that wound or unresolved issue wouldn’t become a characteristic of the scene. But it is still there, and because of it you basically have thrown an anchor out the window in terms of slowing down the energetic.

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Jeane: The next dream involves you. Initially you are running a business, and it has a showroom in front, and a hanger-like building where others work off to the left, and an empty lot in back. You and I are sitting in the front seat of your car in the lot. I am leaning into you and have a book I am writing notes in. There is a tall, attractive man with whom you have just completed a transaction. He left, but now he has come back. He wants to talk again and you want him to come over to the car. You are telling me something and I can see in my mind’s eye that he has a wife who seems overly concerned with appearances. She wanted her husband to negotiate a better or a different deal, and you tell me that you had given him a trip to Vegas for the two of them instead of giving him the financial discount he wanted. That was your deal, which he had accepted. But now he is coming back because of the influence from his wife who is unhappy with the deal.

John: So what we see here is that your dream is saying that everything is completed in terms of a transaction, but it still carries a reverberation into life and you are picking up on that and looking at the consequences. You are examining the decision and noticing the way something was faced or confronted. There may have been one way of handling it that was acceptable to a certain aspect of yourself (me in your dream), but then there is another aspect within you that recognizes that it could have been different. So nothing is final, everything is in an ongoing state in relationship to how it is framed or packaged. Whatever the situation was, you are just observing it like a movie. As in your earlier dream, you again have the notebook and you are making entries. And, as before, you are seeing the energy flow, first it goes a little this way and then gets directed or cut off, and then you see it open up in another way, becoming more inclusive. Then you recognize that as that opened up, there was something even more required to facilitate yet a further opening.

To begin with, what seems to be occurring is that a quality of the feminine nature is rising to have input into the situation, an aspect that was not there to begin with. It became an aspect because somehow what initially felt okay began to feel not quite okay, i.e., perhaps the trip to Vegas felt a little bit over the top. Now the feminine part inside of you feels that vibration of something not being quite right and realizes that some grounding needs to occur. So your feminine nature wants to have input in order to make the situation balanced, in order to make it whole again.

Okay, what happens next?

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We are exploring the concept of secondary causes, in a continuation of the discussion we began yesterday (Behind the Veil). Secondary causes can be understood as a deeper truth behind the “illusion” that we experience, both in everyday life and in the outer world reality created in dreams. We left off asking the question: How does one gain access to this deeper truth?

John: When we meditate, or can in some way attain a state where the ego-mind is quieted, we can better understand the energetic vibrations that cause what we see and experience. Normally, our experience of the physical world is ruled by our five senses, and we are used to seeing the world laid out in a particular manner. We are too familiar with it, so we stop looking. When our experience is ruled by the ego-mind, everything is happening at a much slower speed, so it doesn’t have the insight and acuity of our divine center. (We’ve likely all had the experience of the slow process of trying to rationalize a decision, compared to the instantaneous knowing of our intuition.) As a result, what we experience through the ego-mind and record as data is only the tip of the iceberg of information that is available, information that can bring incredible clarity to us and isn’t so dependent on the duality of things, i.e., good or bad, yes or no, mine or yours.

Since we commonly base our thinking on this fraction of information, we tend to go along with things and pretty soon we are making accommodations for this and accommodations for that, and we become mired in what is before us – in what has been caused. This leaves us with almost no insight into why it was caused or even what caused it. All these accommodations, or acceptances, of things gradually become part of our identity, and because that is a departure from how we are designed to be, it causes deep inner conflict.

If we want to be able to see behind this veil that our ego-mind applies to our experience, then we have to become aware of our own patterns and psychologies that interfere with our interpretations of the data we receive. We can do that by reconnecting to the inner guidance that is natural to our journey; we have the capability to make an instantaneous reading of every little aspect as it flickers in and out of life. And, ultimately, one way we are supposed move forward in life is to evaluate each flicker of energy as it is, seeing through it to what is more real, to what is opening up behind it. That opens us up to potentially vast amounts of information, yet also allows our daily experience to feel much simpler because we are in the natural flow of things.

When we operate from the ego-mindset, everything seems extremely complicated because it shrinks us down to a microscopic particle relative to the universe we live in. And we lose our sense of interconnectedness, and our understanding of how everything threads back to a common denominator. We make it very difficult for ourselves.

So that is why dying to oneself is important, critical even to reconnecting to all that is available to us. We have to let go of the ego-mind experience, let that veil fall away, and with it the literalness of our experience falls away as well. Of course, as your dream shows, letting go of the ego-mind is frightening – after all it has led the way for almost every moment of our lives.

So we want information, data in other words, but we don’t want to be smothered by the particularities; we don’t want to get lost in them. Another way of saying it is we don’t want to take everything personally, i.e., is it good for us, or bad for us, does it make us feel happy, or sad? So what your dream is basically telling you is that you are able to look at something that is unfolding – you can look at the journal entries, a book of life more or less – and be able to tell by looking at that where something is going, and what has been set in motion, and see where things have gone astray energetically.

You are able to do that because you are holding onto a quality inside of yourself that is free from all of that, that is closer to the nothingness than to the clutter of everythingness. If you have your own bias and opinion about things, then that is a disconnect. What I find interesting is that you are doing something that is very subjective (because that is difficult for most people). What usually happens is that we go off and do something that is a little different from our usual routine, but we still let our pre-formed opinions and conclusions dictate our experience. It’s like we place a veil of our own making between the world and ourselves, i.e., like rose-colored glasses, or the lens of our feelings of personal anger or unhappiness.

In your dream, you were free from the experiences of the ledger entries – you knew them and understood the vibrational aspect of them, but you didn’t take them on personally or allow them to cause a disconnect in you. You could absorb the information, yet didn’t allow it to become you. This is a very difficult idea to grasp for many people, because it sounds as though they would be cold and unfeeling. That’s not the case; it’s closer to being able to feel everything, yet maintaining a greatly expanded awareness of something’s true importance.

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