How Little We Know

John: This dream (Direct Route) has a way of opening things up that is similar to your dream (Self Healing). This dream is showing that a greater clarity is opening up. I am going from a general sense that has a kind of “blind” magnetic pull to it, to a deeper inflection that has kind of “sight” associated with it.

In doing so, I am able to take that which is okay generally, and bring it into a more precise and straightforward recognition. That sounds like a lot of words, so let me give an example. For instance, it’s easy for everyone to feel that things are a mess in the world today. There are wars ongoing, oil spills, the economy, earthquakes, volcanoes, all kinds of strange weather, etc. That is an overall sense people have of chaos happening around them. Yet they are still focused on what is happening in their immediate world – bills to pay, work, family issues and the rest. So they have a sense of the overall and are remotely affected by it, but because of all their other distractions it is background noise as part of the general disarray. There is no specific clarity; everyone may venture an opinion, but they know that they are just bellyaching a bit.

That sense is important, however, because ultimately it does lead to what needs to be realized. To begin with, it is like I say, just acting up. Then when you are able to see the issue inflectively, in other words, you are able to truly relate to it instead of seeing it as something that may or may not affect your personal affairs, then the delirium and bewilderment that has existed in life can fall away. It is then and only then that the person is able to responsibly take into account that which was heretofore unseeable (because of the focus on the personal) and is able to start now to note the more subtle distinctions.

When you are able to note the distinctions, this leads to a knowingness that is more than just a sense of it, and it is more than just a magnetic pull. You are now able to start catching up with the specificity of things. That is where you get into the statement “All is known and nothing is for sure.” On a general level and on a sense level, it is all known, but then on a level of specificity, as you pull something more, you actually are able to change the imagery. You are able to move about a little bit. You have a little more freedom. And you are able to help in some capacity.

To the degree to which you do help others is the degree to which you can cause light bulb moments or reflections to come through and something to be released. The releasing, of course, you perceive as something that helps others, but it is a releasing that actually is inside of you, because there is really only you going on in a dream, and that releasing then is something that goes back to a home inside. To begin with it is just light touching light. It is just the $5 (from Jeane’s dream).

The mistake that can be made is to think you actually understand something. What you should understand is that because this is an aspect of clarity that has opened up, and it is an aspect of the masculine properly aligned with the enormous, all-encompassing feminine nature that has the spirit energy more or less kept under wraps, what you come to realize is how little you really know.

You don’t just take the $5 and sweep it in (this is a tendency of the feminine to then preen over what it is that it thinks it has captured or caught up with). Instead you should sit in a state of awe with a sense of tremendous wonder, and realize how very little we really know after having caught up with this tiniest inkling – that we had no idea existed, that was just kind of the tip of the iceberg in the whole process. That is how the two dreams kind of integrate.

Direct Route

John: My dream starts off where all I know is that I’m to go to a place that I can sense inside. To begin with, it’s just an impulse; I don’t know where it actually is, so I only have a sense of how to get there. There is no rationality behind it. In other words, it is magnetic, it has a pulling effect on me, but it doesn’t identify any specific place. So I’m following that sense like a thread.

The prevailing opinion inside tells me that I have to go through Denver to get to wherever it is that I need to go. I am drawn to the idea of taking the journey based only on my sense of it. I am holding this idea and not asking any questions.

So how do you ask questions to a sense? Well, you follow it in a way, because there has to be trust. But suddenly, just before setting out, I realize that there is something irresponsible, something too general, in all of this. I feel like I have to ask a question, or take a closer look, or something. It wasn’t until this very last moment that the idea even came up that you can’t just go wandering about based upon a sense.

So I look inside to examine what I was about to do. What I discovered was that the ultimate destination was Los Angeles; yet I was going to Denver. That seemed a little out of the way. By now knowing that, I could be more responsible. Immediately there is the idea that there is a more direct route. Until then, the inner sense dictated. Now I could no longer function strictly off the magnetic pull inside.

Now I can automatically intuit a more direct track. I ask about it. Again, I am following something that is a trust inside, a thread that is opening up, and there is still the magnetic pull of it. This is all presented inside me. So I ask inside.

I am told that the route that is laid out for me is well established. It is a well established route and that what I am looking at is not clearly marked; it is kind of a secondary route. The route that is laid out for me is more of an interstate; you follow that and it may take you around and about, but you are not as apt to go wrong because there are no obstacles etc. What I am thinking about is a secondary road with two-way traffic that not much is known about. It is not clearly marked and I can’t be sure I can trust that.

So my question pointed out this difference of opinion inside. Now that I have an idea of what this is about, I get out a map. The printing on the map is difficult to read, but I am able to see that this fairly obscure little road is even marked “road to L.A.”  It is a little old back road but it says “road to L.A.” Not very well traveled, not very widely known, but it is more direct to get there. Then I go off to try and understand these various inflections inside with a little more honing.

The first thing that’s interesting is that the course of the dream takes me from a feeling to a realization. I was able to gain knowledge of the destination I am meant to reach. At the beginning it is just blind trust.

Second, upon knowing that, I am able to directly inflect the most direct route to that destination, and that inflection is more focused, more direct than the general route I had been following when I was going with my sense. Now the direct route is not as well defined because when I was working off the magnetic sense only, I lacked the focus to be able to hold onto something like this little narrow road.

Third, when the prevailing sense is questioned – which is me questioning the prevailing sense – I am able to find a greater specificity and see the more hidden as opposed to the generality.

All of that has become possible where it was not possible before, when I had no idea of the end point. When you don’t know where you are struggling to go, you can’t gain further detail or better information from which to act.

And fourth, the inflection of the smaller road proved to be more to my personal need and manner, because it was now precisely visualized. From this visualization I am able to see – even though to most it may have seemed obscure and uncommon – that this route is indeed a clearly established, although less traveled, way to L.A.

The Cycle of Opening Up

We have been looking at a single dream that was described in Self Healing and carried through in Part II and Part III. It’s worth delving into because it shows such a full view of the process. Where we left off we were talking about the act of taking a small step out of the delirium of the outer world, away from the illusion of life that we experience when we believe that the world revolves around us. It is then that things speed up internally, and we can actually handle much more in terms of higher energies than we could before.

John: So if you take a tiny step out of the bewilderment, it takes you out of the personal view of things where it seems that events in life are about you. That egocentric view is the smallest possible experience you can have of life – it’s incredibly limiting. The more you move away from that view, the more the universe can open up.

And in taking the tiny step away you get an inkling of the awe and majesty of life, and you become astounded by all that you don’t know. That opens up something and you are then able to give something back. That is the in-breath. That is the linkage of light rising up to light.

In this small way, what you have done is set in motion and defined, in one dream, the process and sequence of events, of the out-breath to the in-breath, down the chakras and up the chakras. You have defined a cycle of opening up and being able to catch up with the higher speed of what has been opened.

What is amazing is that what you gave back was insignificant – and you knew it was insignificant – it was $5. It was such a low number because deep down you realized how much more there is that you don’t know, suddenly revealed by having opened up this smallest of all connections. That is incredible dreaming, with all the little shifts.

The first shift was really hard to follow: Something was handed back to you that in the past would have been too much to handle – appearing as a cancer – and you were able to handle it. And all of a sudden you can experience all these dimensions of yourself.

But initially you took no responsibility – you were only visiting. Then all of a sudden, kaboom! You hit the launch pad and really speed up, now becoming able to do and say things that previously had not been possible. And you can even get beyond yourself and offer help into the general overallness. That is a very big step in speed.

It’s like a light bulb moment. Then from there it graduates to this tiny ability ($5) of being able to hand something back. It is as if the light rising up to touch the light is a labor, like everything in life results in producing a fruit or an end product. If you plant a seed in a garden, ultimately it results in a vegetable; that is the reason for having planted it and nurtured it – to be able to hand something back to itself. With the $5 you are doing that. And it is just the tiniest of beginnings that gets you to realize – it puts you in a state of awe.

Now you are working with the masculine energy, so that the masculine is not so overwhelming to you, and then you see how much you do not know and you are able to handle that which you do not know and you are able to handle it with a type of awe and majesty as you open up into more and more of a direct connection. That is an amazing journey, going from the delirium, to an inkling of inflection, then to a sense of fully honoring the awe and majesty of it all. That’s what makes the whole thing so exciting.

At the very end of the dream you describe the shift to the sister, which is some part of you that has been infected, in a good way, by this process. In other words, it is like leading by example. If there is some work to be done and everyone is standing around, you jump in and start to do it, and think nothing of it. And other people may seem surprised and say, “Do you see that?” And they can form their own opinion about whether this is something that makes sense or is right for them, but you are not doing it and at the same time shaking your finger at them in some judging way; you’re just doing it. When you have that openness and freedom inside, then others automatically catch on and plug in naturally. That ability to then relate to others and try to show them things causes your environment around you to catch on to that. That’s the way it should be and your sister is exemplifying that in your dream.