Fine Tuning

Jeane: Okay, I had a dream I think I really enjoyed, but then I lost most of it. There was something symbolic at the end and, as soon as I got into that, I couldn’t remember the other – which was really annoying.

So the symbolic dream: I am observing that I seem to be represented symbolically by a grouping of ten glasses. My ten glasses, if they were across the top of the bed, would be standing equidistant and sunk into the mattress, or into the ground, or whatever the base is.

Then there was another person, or another aspect of me, and eight glasses, not ten, represent that person. They had arranged them differently, in a semi-circle with the others balanced on top, or asymmetrically off at an angle. I’m looking at that and wondering “Can you do that?” And if you can do that, “Can you use a cell phone?” For some reason, I seem to have a rule that I can’t use a cell phone with my arrangement.

On the other hand, I have a sense that my arrangement has more freedom or development than the second arrangement. Yet the second arrangement does make me realize that I can re-arrange my glasses in a way that, on some level, represents me. And so I experiment a little re-arranging my glasses.

In doing so, I realize that my tendency really is to spread them out at equal distance, you know, the way I first had them. That is where I’m more comfortable. But just knowing that I can re-arrange them, and that it may incorporate certain other freedoms when I do – I find that interesting. Then I have a dream.

John: So far what you are doing is… I forget how you said it earlier. Something about “being there one minute, and not being there the next.” That quality is the result of you holding onto something as a perception. In other words, the reason you lost the earlier dream is that there was a deeper essence in the symbolic scene, a certain perception. I mean, that was a deeper faith that occurred there.

The result of that flickering essence was you continuing to try to connect into a greater sense of freedom, a sense of fullness in relationship to how something just naturally is. You had the 10 glasses versus the eight glasses and you were evaluating what the spatiality needed to be.

What’s going on there is that you’re measuring the way you want things to be, simply by using your sense of freedom. You are deciding to leave things alone. Now that’s a big subject: How does one leave things alone?

What we’re talking about here is the difference between the essence of something, and that same essence being weighed down by unnecessary baggage. If you can take the true measure of something, and sense the aspects that don’t belong to it, that are cluttering it up, how do you get rid of them so that only the essence remains?

So you are playing with this, and it’s like somewhere in this equation of the ten, the eight, and the proper spatiality and all of that, it’s like you’re trying to listen for something that’s like a tuning fork. It’s a tuning fork in the sense that you’re trying to hear or feel the perfect vibration. If the equation were set up just right, then it would be like a chord is struck, and it would resonate. The feeling would be, ah, I get it. If you hold onto the essence, everything else can fall away. That’s kind of what you’re doing. That’s the best I can describe it.

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