The Ego Behind the Ego

John: Now I want to define a little more the recent series of dreams (starting here, here, and here). But the question is, how do you further define something that you have just identified as an energetic, something that is beyond the beyond?  You have to keep the motif of the energetic up, otherwise you are departing from it. But before we do that, I want to add two more images to the mix from dreams that I had.

The first image is of sitting down at a table with others to have a meal. A meal is placed before us at the end of a table. Then it all disappears: the table, the food, even the image itself, to the point where the partaking of the food with the others is happening as an energetic only. You can’t even call it partaking anymore, it’s just an energetic in motion.

In other words, there is nothing being done; there is just an energetic presence, an inner realm without appearances. There is no way to know it other than by sensation. Even the sensation has to be imagined.

Next I have an image that is almost humorous or amusing to see; it is almost like seeing an ego behind the ego.

I see myself having to leave a place in which something has ended. You and I must stop everything and go outside. It is as though you are in a hurry or anxious to grab what is to be grabbed – to do what needs to be done, because you sense that we have to be in motion.

The dilemma of this urge to hurry has to do with everything that one knows being swept away. You make the suggestion that we use a particular kind of transportation service that is one of the last things that hasn’t yet been swept away. It’s very basic. Most things can’t be counted on anymore, but this service is one of the last things that we can count on to get us somewhere.

You make that suggestion, as a last-ditch option. Of course, if we hurry, that is. Because for you to suggest it involves a slowing down to consider this as something that could be done.

I automatically know that it’s already too late and that plan has to be dropped. So I say to you, “That was true a moment ago; let go of it, we cannot go if you don’t.” I do not know how it is that we are going. All I know is that there is an energetic pace that one must hold onto and this energetic cannot be explained and cannot be defined – you are just in the motion of it and this is how we are going to go.

So these two quick images can be related to my dream yesterday as well as the dreams you had earlier. What is common between them is an energetic taking on a kind of visibility. It is not a literal visibility, it is a visibility from the overallness that you have, and it’s able to reach out over the world and glance at something in existence. What you glance at in existence also sees you, and it is scared to death.

What you are able to glance at in existence is something that, if it sees you, then it realizes that there is something about the nature and mannerisms of you that causes a terror to Creation – to that which is in existence. So you cannot be visible.

So the overallness has allowed you a glimpse at an image-creating mechanism of life, seen in your dream as being put into the book of life, and the fact that something like this is recognized or seen in the outer, terrorizes what is known as Creation. From the perspective of the outer, it has to be obliterated. And it’s not because the outer sees that you are wrong or bad or anything, but just that the outer cannot let go into it.

The degree to which it cannot let go imposes something as a reaction, causing something like a rear-guard action to arise that is the outer fighting its own density. That’s why, in an overall sense of things, there has to be the strictest of confinements to keep all of this under wraps and hidden.

Because in the end, how close can you come to making something like this communicable into life, to the point where life actually gets it? If it truly gets it, it no longer sees that action as a horror movie, where you go just to be scared.

This is also reminiscent of the werewolf in your dream, because for you to take and portray something like this and set it out there into life, you cannot leave any trace of yourself. You can’t be part of it and part of physical existence at the same time; you cannot be in ego and still be part of Creation.

Creation cannot handle that. The rules of this strict confinement say that if you are going to communicate something by bringing it all the way through from the inner into the outer, there cannot be anything left for it to reach around and find in terms of where it’s coming from. Because if it can, that would be a huge problem.

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