Jeane: It felt like my dreams last night were really busy. As this one begins, I’m going to a house party and my adult daughter (who lives on her own) has joined me. As we approach, I become aware that everyone seems to have something they are supposed to do and I’m concerned that my daughter might not know how to do some things, and I might not be prepared either.
One thing is that when they serve dinner, they have 12 or 13 utensils at the place settings, and I’m not sure I’ve shown her how to use all of them, or whether I even know myself. Then it seems there will be some tricks or a type of contest at some weekend retreat we are all going to. It might involve tricks with marbles (again, 12 or 13 marbles).
One of the games might involve standing on a lawn and throwing something that looks like a big stubby pencil a certain distance through a doorway and into a target.
I’m aware of all this. I’ve gone back home (I live with other people – nothing happens alone in this dream). People come through the house all the time. At one point, two men are telling me that if we just hold out a few more days, and Canada doesn’t realize the paperwork is expiring, a small island off the coast will become a commonwealth of the U.S. and no longer be independent or part of Canada. I’m wondering why they are so interested in this, but I hear them saying that the people there live a really long time.
Meanwhile, I’ve gone out in the yard and I’m practicing trying to throw this stubby pencil. At first I can’t even get it off my hand – it has to be balanced in a certain way or it sticks to my fingers. After a few tries I actually get it to fly off. One goes through the door toward the target, and another falls short, but I feel that if I practice I could get it all the way there. Now, whenever I can, I’m looking for a chance to practice.
Meanwhile, people are trooping through and I’m wondering about the other things that have to be done that are in numbers of 12 or 13 and involve a trick. At one point I notice that some people do not have all the clothes they’ll need for where we are going, and someone brings in a rack of clothes. I recognize some sweaters and things that I gave away. I’m not even sure I have a sweater anymore; I may have to go shopping before this trip. It wouldn’t seem right to take back one of my old sweaters as I have given them away for others who might need them.
Next I see myself in a city, wondering whether I have time to go shopping. Maybe there is time to shop before the trip, but in the next scene I see – because a boyfriend seems to come in and out during this part – it felt like I was in a communal house.
We have not left on the trip yet. My boyfriend comes and gets in bed with me; it’s early in the morning. I realize that he thinks we are going to make love and we may have time for that, but I’m actually going to make him go out into the backyard and practice throwing the stubby-pencil object to see if I can get it through the doorway. That’s what I’m focused on.
John: That’s a very active dream! It begins with the information that everyone has something different to do. The dilemma, then, is how do you come into a situation like that where each person is carrying their personal bit, their part of the larger goings-on, but you can’t see or understand the whole of what is unfolding?
In the outer world it is like that: everyone has a certain specialization. There are plumbers, electricians, etc.; everyone has something that they bring to the group situation.
It’s like that on the inner levels, too – different aspects of the masculine and feminine, and different aspects of our inner psychology. So how does that all come together so it can relate and work as a whole?
Or, how do you get the 12 or 13 (the trick, or the magic thing) to sweep through as an overall vibration? If you are able to do that, then the island is no longer an island. Then the island becomes a possession. And that is a huge overallness – but who can grasp that huge overallness? Very few can.
Next time, we will explore how this dream points out the way to making that possible.