John: In the first dream I just have an image of something that will rise up if it’s not tied down. That’s all I need to say about it. The meaning: in order to grow in the broadest possible way, there can be no limitations set.
In this instance, I’m talking about the inclination most of us have to resist surrendering completely. By that I mean, as long as we hold on to one intellectual idea or another about the spiritual path, we’ll just be reflecting our own perceptions back and forth. It takes surrender to reach the state of nothingness.
I think this scenario was triggered in me by a dream told by someone else. The way they were looking at their dream, I felt that they were resisting the major breakthrough that the images were presenting, and grasping only one aspect of it for personal growth. In a way, I thought they were hearing only what they wanted to hear. On some level, they still weren’t ready for the big breakthrough.
So, by clinging to our own conceptions of things, we often find ourselves shut off from greater insights.
In the next dream, an effort to make a situation better has resulted in greater confusion and greater difficulty.
It has to do with constructing a house. There are two houses side by side, like a mirror of each other. Something has been said or done that, instead of helping, has resulted in the need for $600 in additional roofing material and $400 in additional labor to rectify.
These expenses wouldn’t have been necessary if the matter had been left alone, in terms of how the energy was presented. In other words, if it had just been looked at in the right way, this would not have occurred. But a deviation was caused when what needed to be seen, was not seen.
So, this furthers the trace of the earlier dream. It may have appeared to me as if something more needed to occur, yet each person needs what is appropriate for them in a given moment.
If we are not ready to hear, or face, something, we react in a way that creates a veil – it creates new expenses, if you will, incurred by the detour in our journey.
The veil is a defense mechanism that seeks to protect us in some fashion. It either keeps us in our density, or it keeps us from accessing the light that might be too much for us at that moment.
I’m beginning to see that when any communication creates a resistance, in me or in another, a veil is actually being created, almost as a way of slowing down. It creates a roadblock. Too much light can be as big an issue as too much density.
The solution is to become more connected from within, and then I will see what I don’t currently see. I’m still too much in my lower self to know the difference at this point. If I don’t know how to say or do something in such a way that it can be taken in by another, it can end up hurting. That’s the real nature of the hesitancy and reserve that I’ve been feeling for years. It has taken until now for me to see the problem face to face – for me to lift the veil.
I also had another dream to show me that I need to learn to be less presumptuous; I need to be able to adjust myself accordingly.
I’m on a volleyball team and we are the heavy favorites to win the game. I can feel in my bones that the other team doesn’t have what it takes; we’ve got this game won.
However, that’s not what happens. The ball is served from the other side, and it ricochets to someone on my side. I go for the ball, but my feet aren’t properly centered. I spin around trying to reach the ball, racing as hard as I can. But when I finally hit the ball, it goes off at an angle that’s out of play. This is the result of me being twisted around.
So the image is showing a blind side that I have. Because I’m not able to take in all the considerations, things come at me unexpectedly, which I’m then unable to handle. I presume I’ve got what it takes, but I’m blind to my weaknesses.
So I am being guided through this process of realization, where I can lift the veil and face these limitations I have set, or the veils I’ve put in place. This series of dreams is showing me that I need to listen to my heart with greater attention.
While I’m able to see my mistakes, I also feel that healing is possible. Had I not seen it, I may not have been able to forgive, on some inner level, and may have done more damage. This is one way we create suffering for others and ourselves.
In the volleyball game we blew it because of an over-the-top confidence – it took the team out of flow. As you begin to look at imbalances, you begin to see the clues around you. I’ve been guilty of a failure to trust that even when guidance appears in a way that seems a little disconcerting, it’s that way because of the bigger picture.
I need to become more aware of how much work I need to be able to take a vibration into myself. And how much I need to hold that vibration and shape it into further softening and surrender. And how I need to see that this note furthers the connection.
That was it.