Month: April 2011

Glass Fences

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Jeane: In the next image, I’m trying to get to my car. I’ve walked up to the local grade school, and I can see that my car is parked on the other side of the playground.

As I walk toward the car, I suddenly hit my head against a fence. I realize that, for some reason, there is a glass fence surrounding the school that I couldn’t see. I run right into it.

I realize that I’m going to have to walk around the block to get to my car because there is no shortcut across the playground.

John: Can you repeat that? (Jeane repeats the dream.)

Each of us has our own way of being that’s rooted in the environment that is before us – because we’re in creation. That means we have the realities of where we are born, whether we are male or female, and the aspects of our circumstances that we have to manage as we go through life.

All that is before us, so to speak. And it could be said that represents the playground we act within. Your car, on the other hand, represents the you-of-you – it is you as a thing in motion and traveling through this existence. It is your real home. The image of your dream shows you trying to navigate, or cross through, the playground of your life to reach the inner you.

That’s a great description of the spiritual journey, and the challenge of being on a spiritual path. Because this outer life shouldn’t be something that prevents us from reaching our inner self, but rather we should be in our inner self as we experience the playground of life.

So even though we must be participant in the goings on of life, we shouldn’t get too caught up in the drama of it. Because if we experience it as drama – meaning we take it too personally – then it tends to throw us off course. When we are thrown off course, we can visualize that as being pulled out of our “car”; we are no longer based in our inner self, but entangled in an outward identity.

The more we are entangled in an outward identity, the more the truth of the universe becomes veiled to us – the more we are sleepwalking through life, rather than being awake and conscious. What prevents us can seem like invisible forces (a glass fence) that keep these two realities separate.

What happens is that when we come to develop a bit of spiritual understanding, we begin to realize that it isn’t the external playground that is causing all the disturbances in our life, but it is our reaction to, and personal involvement in, what is occurring outside of ourselves.

We experience those disturbances as stress, anxiety, and fear, and we attribute them to the external events, but it’s closer to the truth to say that those disturbances arise because we are getting further and further away from our inner selves (the car).

The result is that we are no longer able to simply proceed, in a natural way, because we have surrounded ourselves with glass fences. Then our energy is spent in trying to figure out how to circumvent those barriers to our inner selves and, as the dream shows, we find that there are no shortcuts back.

However, the dream is trying to show you that this feeling of having to go the long way around isn’t natural. You are meant to be able to go straight toward the car – you can see it and recognize it, but it’s just out of reach.

So we are meant to transcend the playground of this life; in other words, glide over whatever barriers may arise. When we are centered in our inner selves, we are in the flow of things.

The images signify that you have become more aware that the outer is an abstraction to how you truly are on the inner. We (you) should be able to incorporate both places simultaneously, and be able to deal with all that occurs in the flow of the outer, without creating veils, or resistance, to our ability to catch up with the real car of ourself.

Dreaming of Angels

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Jeane: In this dream, I know you’re somewhere in the background, but my focus is on two, feminine, winged figures or entities. One’s quite large and standing there, and she has wings. The other one is similar is shape but smaller.

I’m just trying to bring them together. I’m trying to get these two angelic figures together in some way, by working with the breath. That was the first image.

John: There is the idea – long-held by many spiritual and religious belief systems – that we all carry in our nature a connection to guides – angelic or other energetic entities – that we’re able to bring close to us, both internally and externally, depending on how we are in our lives.

Such a connection has to do with a certain type of rootedness within Creation – meaning being more closely connected and aligned with the purposes of Creation, instead of the ego-based “purposes” of the human such as money and power.

In other words, these angels and entities are here for us, but in some ways our relationship with them is limited by our own thoughts and actions because an angelic essence can’t come close to us if our energy radiation is hostile to what it is.

By that I don’t mean whether we believe in them or not, it’s similar to the idea that none of us would go to a bad part of town, where we would feel uncomfortable or in danger. Who and what we are energetically determines how theses essences and connections can be with us.

Part of having a rootedness in Creation is to be able to give anchor to such guides and essences into life – into the world. That is part of the process that the human was designed to do. We need that rootedness as a safety from becoming swept away by energies that are too high for us to contain.

So, in your dream image, you are shown a larger effect and a lesser effect. You have to somehow consolidate these, bring them together, as powers or forces of your nature. Then you can effectively work with it (bring it into Creation), rather than just have it sweeping over you in an unconscious way.

The images are portraying the effort of bringing them together as an aspect of your lightbody, and as a realization of the significance of this in terms of how it reflects a masculine aspect of your self that gives access to it.

I’m actually not quite sure how to say it because the feminine carries the presence that’s able to bring it and hold it together in a state of completeness, as a container of one’s overall being, but there is something about the quality of the masculine that enables you to be able to sort this out and not get diffused by this energetic effect.

It can be a problem for many people when they gain a connection to these energetic forces (of a greater beingness of themselves), that they then don’t have the proper grounding to sustain it. In order to properly, or truly, realize a higher-self quality, it needs to be brought down and through, into Creation. When it is not properly grounded within, a person runs the risk of being overwhelmed by it.

That’s what you’re working with there. You’re trying to figure out how to take these guides, or these forces within, and make them a valid, sustainable inner aspect that you’re able to carry and embody as you go about in Creation.

To do that, you have to see how the large and small come together, how they work together, how they’re part of the overall that also takes into account the denser aspects in Creation. In other words, carry both the inner and the outer together, or you can’t actually carry either of them in their proper way.

Deeper Being

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John: I’m not sure I’m actually able to describe my dream from last night. I think it’s because I didn’t pull out the details and images clearly enough, and just kind of settled into the feeling of it.

It’s almost like I was meditating before I went to bed, because I was in a kind of inner state. The fact that I didn’t pull it out put me into a sense of malaise, even though I was able to denote that I was accepting of a place, or a space, while some other part of me knew that even that had a limitation to it.

So, I can say that the dream echoed the energetic way that I was carrying myself with a kind of connection to the heart. In other words, my way of holding on to something can be felt in the heart, but it’s still an in-between state – I can still recognize that it’s an abstraction representing something even greater.

What happens is that I’m rationalizing that I can hold this inner space, and even my mind is somewhat quieted from connecting to other vibrations that are denser and could throw me around or send me off on a tangent.

However, I could still understand that the vibration I was holding onto has something else to it – what I see is still limited. For me to experience the more of it would require something else I’m clinging to, to fall away.

Said another way, within the vibration is recognition that I have no right to embody it fully because that would actually create a separation. There is still an aspect that stands in the way of an inner nothingness. That aspect seems imperceptible but is, as far as I’m able to tell at this point, something that’s an inner magnetic.

What I’m describing is the reason why I didn’t get knocked around by this aspect as I usually might have been – in which case the dream could have run off on some deviation or detour like we’ve been talking about. Some part of me knew that the space I was holding was subtly better than what it would have been if I’d reacted in my normal way.

It also shows I was as conflicted by this feeling, as I sometimes can be. Of course I can’t stay in a state of contentment with it because nothing on this side of existence is content for very long. I’m able to notice that when a person is content, they become lazy and have a tendency to rationalize that it’s okay.

So it’s a subtle way of just feeling the energetics. The dream, however, or the vibration to the dream, touched enough that it created a subtle mocking of the space I was accepting. That caused a slight uneasiness in knowing that there was something more and that I was limiting myself from reaching it.

Consequently, I did not fully accept the vibrational limitation. If I had, I would have been able to pull out the dream imagery that was reaching further into something else. As you peel away those layers, you are infused with the knowingness behind the imagery of the dream itself – the symbolism, etc.

So the degree I am ready to confront it is up to me. If I don’t confront it, it won’t become something more. The underlying question that’s put before me is, “Am I able to feel the need inside, to the degree necessary, to penetrate and awaken to a subtler depth of inner beingness?”

If I am ready, and normally I am, to make that shift, that’s when the dream world is apt to sense that there is a process of letting go, and then will reveal more. As long as I am purposely holding on and accepting that as okay, I am stopping myself from acknowledging the deeper need.

It’s like I’m saying “No,” to what is more, and my choice is honored. Such choices always place my deeper beingness behind a defensive veil.