As I walk toward the car, I suddenly hit my head against a fence. I realize that, for some reason, there is a glass fence surrounding the school that I couldn’t see. I run right into it.
I realize that I’m going to have to walk around the block to get to my car because there is no shortcut across the playground.
John: Can you repeat that? (Jeane repeats the dream.)
Each of us has our own way of being that’s rooted in the environment that is before us – because we’re in creation. That means we have the realities of where we are born, whether we are male or female, and the aspects of our circumstances that we have to manage as we go through life.
All that is before us, so to speak. And it could be said that represents the playground we act within. Your car, on the other hand, represents the you-of-you – it is you as a thing in motion and traveling through this existence. It is your real home. The image of your dream shows you trying to navigate, or cross through, the playground of your life to reach the inner you.
That’s a great description of the spiritual journey, and the challenge of being on a spiritual path. Because this outer life shouldn’t be something that prevents us from reaching our inner self, but rather we should be in our inner self as we experience the playground of life.
So even though we must be participant in the goings on of life, we shouldn’t get too caught up in the drama of it. Because if we experience it as drama – meaning we take it too personally – then it tends to throw us off course. When we are thrown off course, we can visualize that as being pulled out of our “car”; we are no longer based in our inner self, but entangled in an outward identity.
The more we are entangled in an outward identity, the more the truth of the universe becomes veiled to us – the more we are sleepwalking through life, rather than being awake and conscious. What prevents us can seem like invisible forces (a glass fence) that keep these two realities separate.
What happens is that when we come to develop a bit of spiritual understanding, we begin to realize that it isn’t the external playground that is causing all the disturbances in our life, but it is our reaction to, and personal involvement in, what is occurring outside of ourselves.
We experience those disturbances as stress, anxiety, and fear, and we attribute them to the external events, but it’s closer to the truth to say that those disturbances arise because we are getting further and further away from our inner selves (the car).
The result is that we are no longer able to simply proceed, in a natural way, because we have surrounded ourselves with glass fences. Then our energy is spent in trying to figure out how to circumvent those barriers to our inner selves and, as the dream shows, we find that there are no shortcuts back.
However, the dream is trying to show you that this feeling of having to go the long way around isn’t natural. You are meant to be able to go straight toward the car – you can see it and recognize it, but it’s just out of reach.
So we are meant to transcend the playground of this life; in other words, glide over whatever barriers may arise. When we are centered in our inner selves, we are in the flow of things.
The images signify that you have become more aware that the outer is an abstraction to how you truly are on the inner. We (you) should be able to incorporate both places simultaneously, and be able to deal with all that occurs in the flow of the outer, without creating veils, or resistance, to our ability to catch up with the real car of ourself.