John: Yesterday I described, in the first dream, a type of perpetual motion boomerang that wouldn’t lose its force no matter where it went or what it came in contact with. Yet when I tried the process myself, with just energy, the strength of the energy diminished and became distorted.
As the second dream begins, I’m sleeping on a couch in the dining room. You’re sleeping in the bedroom on the other end of the house. Perhaps I’m only napping, but it’s evening.
While I’m deep asleep, I don’t notice that someone comes in the front door. Because no one is awake or aware, they take the rug that’s right in front of the door. I somehow sense that something has happened and I get up, in my groggy way. I look out the window in time to see a small car driving away.
I intuitively sense that something has been violated or stolen, though at this point I don’t know what has been done. In other words, I’m not awake enough to realize that the person in the car was the culprit.
Some part of me knows and registers it, but I’m slow to put the pieces together. Then I look around and realize what has happened. What I was sensing is suddenly confirmed when I notice, “Aha, the rug that’s supposed to be there is gone!”
I quickly look around and I’m relieved that the rug is all they took. They just did a quick snatch; they didn’t touch anything else.
I make an announcement, from where I’m standing, to you, as if you’re going to hear me from the bedroom. I make it as if you’re going to pop out of your sleep when you hear what I have to say – that we’ve been robbed while we were asleep.
Before there is any response (I haven’t gotten your attention yet), I realize even though I still am drowsy, I know that I can’t really ground my reaction, or realization, until I get your reaction. In other words, I’m reserving my reaction (masculine) because it still needs to go through you (feminine).
The way I wrote this on my note pad is this: “I’m holding back what to make out of this until I see your response. The only thing I fear is that, now that this has happened (and this is the protector, masculine way of something in a groundedness), the energy has perhaps been penetrated or pierced such that there could be a further violation if we don’t fix something about how we are.”
So the imagery of the first dream involves being trained, from within, to work in a new way in the outer – in my life. Yet when I attempt in the dream to go out on my own, to make an energetic projection into the universe, I fail to keep it from distorting and I suffer the blowback.
With the images from the second dream, I can see that I’m not realizing a type of vulnerability within me until after the fact. The image shows that I go somewhere – to sleep – and in doing so I let go of a linkage. That linkage is from the inner into the outer.
In other words, when I’m in a sleep state, I still need to be attentive all the way through. I struggle to keep up with the events that are transpiring around me when I go to sleep in this way. I am required, however, to hold both the inner and the outer simultaneously in my consciousness. Otherwise the rug can be pulled out from under me.
In the second dream, the way I work with this new energy suggests that I’m not as attentively rooted in creation as I need to be, and that makes me vulnerable to events that can blindside me.
Ultimately, the dreams are saying that I’m unable to sustain the essence of the inner – the connection to the inner – when I don’t keep it together in my outer life.