John: In my dream there is a grid of energetic squares that extend outward, into life. I can’t move in any direction without landing on some aspect of life that unfolds in terms of its visual outplay.
Each of these grids carries an aliveness, or pattern, or reflection that exists in outer life. That aliveness is awakened when that part of the grid is touched. I’m moving in various patterns around the grid and part of me believes that I’m eventually going to find the center, or something that feels vibrationally like the center.
Various scenarios play out based upon how I carry myself inside. It’s not the part of the grid I land on that matters, but what I feel about it. So I see myself moving at random, because this is how human beings are – we are moved, as a flow, in accordance with how we carry ourselves as an energetic being.
Therefore life treats us according to our energetic signature, and that is based on what we think about, what we do, and why we do what we do. As I move from grid to grid, I’m suddenly aware that I’m unable to be at ease in a way that seems to be important.
Again, I see myself go from one format to another and each time my attention is on how I feel about what takes place; the outer circumstances are unimportant in this dream. At least for me; for everybody else, the specific circumstances are important.
To me, the outer circumstances could be anything, but if I don’t carry the heartfulness, I don’t actually care what is happening. The only aspect that matters is, “Where is the note that I’m meant to be able to experience?”
This is what I wrote up in the morning: “This dream is sharing the idea that we create the world we are in to be in accordance with the note we feel inside. If we are unable to shake a particular mood, attitude, or vibration, it doesn’t matter how the outer conditions unfold. The vibrational mannerism will still predominate.”
So my attention is on my inability to break through the prevailing vibration that I feel inside. I draw in my higher self, which in my consciousness relates to a particular vibration. That’s where my attention is, no matter where I land on the grid of life. I know the outer variables will change if I’m able to change my inner awareness – if I can find that note and hold it.
The karma of the outer life will unfold in accordance with an inner note. That’s why some people seem to carry a quality that keeps them from having to experience life lessons that others are destined to go through. Such individuals have a soul that has already made that journey.
However they made it, they no longer dwell in it, or shape that reality upon themselves as an outer condition. They may find themselves in such a scenario, wherein others need to experience something over and over again, but they don’t have to be affected by it or pay that price of admission themselves anymore.
Such souls can carry a note that vibrates above whatever is unfolding in the octaves of all the variables of life that others bounce around in.
What would trigger a dream like this? Yesterday, for me, events pulled me into a particular energetic and I couldn’t get myself out of it. Therefore it pulled everything else down in terms of what could happen because there was, as I would call it, a type of neurosis or something that kept cycling around and I could not stop it.
At the same time, as you noted yesterday (see Protective Bubble), Las Vegas itself carries some particular energy that we have to keep our eyes on because it predominates out here. That doesn’t mean it has to control or affect us, but if we don’t hold the proper note inside, then we could suffer unnecessarily and, in that suffering, miss out on the bigger picture that is accessible for us to experience as a greater consciousness.