The Third Wheel

John: The next dream has more specific imagery and is tied in with the first dream (see Breaking Through).

This time I’m traveling somewhere with two other men. I’m not sure where we’re going. 

One of the other men has a presence about him – he just seems to know where things are going and I feel I can trust that. The other man is more impulsive. He gets impatient and pushes to keep moving forward.

I’m the third part of this trio. I like the pace of the first man, who creates an allowance that exists energetically. With him, everything seems to proceed smoothly, and there is time to catch up with one’s self.

But just when I reach a state where I almost get something, that’s when the other man gets impulsive, pushing for a shift, urging us to go forward. That unsettles me, throwing me off from my normal way of being present in the flow.

The first man is influenced by the urging of the impulsive man, yet he purposely tries to slow things down to give me a chance to catch up with what’s unfolding. 

For example, when we pause in the journey I would read a portion of a book, about heroines (the feminine), and there’s time provided for me to do this. But just when I’m nearly through with a particular chapter, the second man – almost as if he can sense that I’m nearly ready – begins to push for us to move forward, before I can fully digest what I’ve taken in. I really only need a tiny bit more time, but that’s when he pushes harder that we need to move on.

So I feel this pressure, as if I’m the third wheel in the flow, because I am not quite keeping up with what I’m trying to grasp. I’m getting information, but then I’m getting scattered by the disturbance of the impulsive man.

I’m under the impression that, if I’m able to pause and catch up with this matter, then I will know where we are going and what we are trying to do. The way things are going, I’m continually left feeling I’m still a little in the dark. 

It doesn’t work this way on the higher, more vibrant energetic level. This dream is describing the flow of things, and the feeling is one of being pushed and pulled a bit. All three men are aspects of me, and aspects that are trying to guide me. One part is connected and in the flow. A second part needs a pause to catch up, or consider where I’m going. The third man sees that the pause is causing me to become distracted and wants me to push onward – to stay on track.

It is my pausing that carries me back but, in this particular case, this pause has a double effect – as shown in the first dream (see Breaking Through) – in that it can carry me back to an imbalance of feeling. When I pause in the flow, I teeter between falling back into old patterns (the easy, familiar way), and being urged to keep pushing onward into new territory and growth.

That moment of pause is basically me letting go of the energetic I’m connected with, which can guide me to a greater state of knowing. It’s that energetic note that I want to resonate with. When I let go of that note, I fall into lower-self considerations, patterns, and idiosyncrasies that derail me from my journey.

At one point in the dream, as I’m reading the next chapter and the second guide is urging us onward, I come across a word I’ve never seen before. The word is “unpatented” woman. I ask the primary guide, “What is this?” He says, “It’s a woman who reaches the point where she can no longer say “No.” 

This has me dumbfounded, wondering what that means because I’m not reading some sort of soap opera drama, like a romance novel. It’s not like that at all.

So, how does this fit? I know that it’s about some other revelation, which we will explore tomorrow.

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