John: In this next dream I see an image where I’m standing on a busy street corner trying to determine in which direction I need to go. There are four directions, so I’m confused. I’m kind of out of it, actually imbalanced, standing there on the street.
In reality I am actually returning to a place where I was once at ease with everything around me. I have taken a job there, but a lot has changed since I was there last.
It starts off with that image and then I see myself back at the job I had a long, long time ago, trying to simplify. It’s an ancient memory inside of me that I feel I no longer need to do.
As before in this job, I am deemed a utility person, which means that everyone in the company recognizes that I naturally know what needs to be done. If I am shown everything, I can just free-flow in terms of what is important, directing others and doing things that they might not have the naturalness to do.
The last time I worked there I was left alone to do my work and I was promoted right to the top of the whole department. This time a lot seems the same, but I’m no longer producing something that’s deemed important. There is a different expression of it within the company, although the old supervisor is there and he is also doing the same thing.
The supervisor leaves me alone, even when there is nothing to do, because it’s known that whatever I determine needs to be done, will be done, and I don’t have to fake or pretend to work. Even though I feel like I should try to stay busy, he doesn’t feel that I need do that; from his standpoint, I’m always busy.
However, in this particular state, I have a conversation with him where I ask about the past and the owner of the company. I feel a little sorry for my boss, who’s someone who hasn’t gone anywhere and is still doing the same things. But times have changed and there isn’t all the attention on producing something special. It’s more general in its expression now.
Over the passage of time I describe to him the way it had been in the past. I say, “You know, back when I left I was a bit of an agitator. I reached a point where I couldn’t be like that anymore.”
Then I point out that there was some confusion over what needed to happen, which had to do with a special product that they were putting out. And that created confusion because there was a conflict as to how best to do that.
I had my idea, he had his idea, there was a third person with other ideas, and then there was the owner of the company. He was a really a nice guy who wasn’t overbearing because he trusted that things would come together. I was always supported in my work by the owner.
The owner’s approach was, perhaps, a bit casual, because I think there was more that he had to take into account than he was capable of. So I’ve come back and all of those other aspects have fallen away; the situation has sorted itself out.
In the past it had emerged with confusion, but now it’s just naturally understood. I guess the sense of the dreaming has a lot to do with knowing how to hear something in a space that has just emerged – just like you were doing from the standpoint of a container quality that was in a solidness, that could hear the space emerge from the setness (see Set in Motion).
This dream is showing me that I’m not able to see something directly, based upon feeling ease in the unfolding that guides me along. When I struggle, that’s when I go off on a tangent and get confused. I think I’m using this pattern in my dreams to help sort out this decision about moving to Las Vegas.
I’m being given a glimpse of the peacefulness and ease that is available to me if I’m in the flow of things. It’s when I see everything as a struggle that I get disconnected.
