Waiting for Godot

Jeane: I woke up at about 2:30am and I held this impression: You’re staring out into a space that looks as if you’re on the edge of the Brooklyn Bridge and looking towards the city. Behind you are some striped bars that form into two, different colored peaks.

Actually, they’re the colors of the new bedspread – black and blue.

John: Where are you in the dream?

Jeane: I’m standing a little bit behind you. The sensation I have is similar to that of watching a rodeo, in that it feels like something is going to happen at any moment. I want to be ready to help you dash out when that moment comes.

That’s the energy of it. Something is about to happen and I want to be right there to help you catch the energy of it.

I just got that glimpse of the imagery.

John: Okay, so this is an example of feeling apprehension in terms of something that’s meant to be. You sense it as an energetic, but it needs to be pulled through, or brought to some effect or result.

Whatever this result is, it’s something that you can sense – it’s not something rational. It’s not something you can put your finger on with specific detail. But it is something you know is meant to come, right?

Actually, it’s trying to build itself into occurring. When you sense qualities like this, they can seem confusing because the common reaction is to find the rationality of it, and it doesn’t make sense.

At the same time you have to stay in this irrational zone. If something sits there – if it wants to be there – even though you can’t grasp it rationally or see it or describe it …  In other words, it doesn’t have the linear context that you can identify. So that leaves you in a state of bewilderment.

Is there more?

Jeane: No. I had trouble getting back to sleep, but when I did I had this bit of a dream:

I seem to be in a large area with an old boyfriend and maybe two other couples, and we’re all engaged in some activity. As we go from place to place, at some point I become separated from the boyfriend. I want to say something to him to make it better, but when I turn around, he disappears and I can’t find him at all. 

Next I want to say something to the other couples but they’ve drifted off too, and I don’t really know what to say because I don’t know where my boyfriend’s gone.

Then I’m not sure in which direction I should go. Should I go back to where we all started, or should I go back to a room where there was a large group of people?

I think I go back to the large group in an auditorium – someone’s speaking. I stand inside the door a bit to grasp what’s going on. That’s all I really remember.

John: So you’re trying to sense where to stand?

Jeane: Yes, because I lost the connection with the guy I was with…

John: So you’re trying to establish where you belong, again based upon something that you sense inside. In other words, you’ve gone somewhere, but where you’ve gone doesn’t make sense?

Jeane: Yes.

John: So, you don’t know what’s going on because the masculine part has slipped away or is out of the equation in some fashion. You have to go back to where you started and wait, because there’s something brewing (as in the first fragment, see above). You haven’t let go of that. You still feel that there’s something brewing even though there are no details or specifics to back it up. You’re awaiting further instructions….

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