Touched by the Universe

John: I think it’s worth getting a little deeper into this discussion of flow from inner into outer from the last dream (see The Divine Plan). In that dream the imagery was showing me that a flow from right to left was okay, but that from left to right was not.

Part of me thought, “You’ve got to be kidding. What kind of bizarreness is that?” Then I realized that this is my symbolism for the process of the inner emerging into the outer. Well, then the question becomes: “What is an inner, and what is an outer?”

I mean, it might be easy to get as a concept, but how do we really understand it? What I came to sense is that there’s a quality of closeness that comes with the inner that isn’t there with the outer. It’s the feeling of being merged with something rather than being separate from it.

So even though we find ourselves in a physical body that appears to be separate from everything else, everything is really merged and intertwined. When we are connected to the flow of inner into outer, there is an integrity that holds it all together. It’s the experience of the Will of God, compared to the loneliness of our personal identification and definition of reality.

As humans, we are designed to catch up with the inner flowing into the outer, in a way that creates a linkage and merging and depth. We are designed to overcome our feelings of separateness and rejoin the wholeness, while we are in these bodies.

It’s a deep subject because we’re meant to hear this (through our listening center) – but not necessarily define it – and to just honor the flow. We really have no choice. We live in a world in which we can go outer towards inner, where we think the only things that are important are what we can see in front of us (everyday life). Or we can recognize that something universal is touching us and trying to come into life through us, and we need to honor and respect that urge.

When we don’t properly honor and respect it, we can feel our hearts close off. It’s really hard, because sometimes we can’t tell the difference until after the fact. That means we have to sometimes make decisions just to see the effect, in terms of how it comes back to us as a reflection. Does it leaves us feeling more free and open in our hearts, or does it seem to cause a disconnect? Our free choice is how we train ourselves to recognize how the inner into the outer actually works.

Here’s a little bit of what I put on paper after I woke up:

“I believe that the flow I’m meant to acknowledge is that which comes from inner into outer. Even though I may not understand where this is taking me, if I follow this kind of flow I’ll be okay. I may be tossed around a bit, but this effect leaves me karmically free because it’s not coming from my personal perspective.

“There is a plan and meaning behind this that may or may not reveal itself to me in the fullness of time. I just have to accept such flow as being connected to the Will of God and know that whatever that involvement is, it’s okay.

“The flow that others identify with is the result of responding to outer conditions (in a personal way). I can let go of that identity because I know that the inner-into-the-outer is all that’s meant to be. Everything else is some state of confusion.

“The distinction between the two flows requires a lot of discernment. The flow I’m meant to honor requires my undivided attention and unwavering trust. I could get confused and go off on some tangent (personal psychology). However, I must stay with the need of the flow and let go of my personal, outer desires. In time I will learn the distinction as this listening center quality matures.

“I’m acknowledging an inner flow that sweeps through life and touches everything. I am a facilitator of this process.

In the dream I felt this as a unique joy, in an otherworldly sense. I glimpsed other levels of being at play, which I could experience when I let go of my culturally- and personality-based conditioning.

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