The Pulse in the Desert

John: Our recent dreams have been reflecting that we are in a state of transition, triggered in part by our waking-life decision to move to Las Vegas. And if we consider our recent dreams (see  The Shift, and The Fairy Tale), we can see that we are making transitions that our dreams are helping prepare us for, and guide us through.

Over and over we have the sense that we need to follow our instincts into this new unknown, feeling sure that we will be safe and secure whatever arises. In the midst of this, we are also being shown that we should remain open to what is possible, and not try to nail down every detail of our life.

It is a common instinct to want to get settled quickly, to make the unknowns of a new place known. Yet our dreams are showing us that we don’t necessarily want to do that. We just want to connect to the new flow of the new space we find ourselves in, and go with it in a way that helps it evolve, through us. We don’t want to add all the limitations that humans tend to bring to unknown situations, through expectations and biases and judgments.

Even though it’s tempting to do everything to make this transition go smoothly, I still don’t want to force myself to hold onto anything too firmly, yet at the same time I’m apt to be in a state of pandemonium if I don’t come out of my stupor at some point.

Well, the problem is, when we try to define everything – to put our finger on it – we can kill the magic. Because there is magic here (in Las Vegas), and it’s meant to be left in its aloneness. It can only be supported if it’s left in the unknown. If it’s made known, or defined in some way, those limitations get in the way. That’s why in my dream it’s a secret – it has to be kept as a type of hiddenness.

Of course, it’s not a hiddenness on a higher-self level, only from a lower-self level view. The higher self knows, the lower self thinks it knows. The lower self urge to always talk about it, look at it, try to understand it, at a certain level only gets in our way. But on a higher-self level, it’s totally known and supported.

In your dream, all the relatives, the whole lineage, have their say. It all works somehow, even though it looks chaotic. Every aspect of the relatives who came to visit, who naturally come to “visit” when you make this kind of connection, that all carries something.

What is carried is a communication. Maybe it’s an aspect of a thought of God that wouldn’t be there if things were clearly defined and understood. It’s not fluid enough. Yet here, in the unknown of it, it can have its play.

I mean, there’s a part of my heart that already feels like I’ve compromised it to a certain degree by over describing what I’m guessing it is. It’s like I’ve reached a point where now I can only do damage. It’s at a point where one should just make the shift and to heck with any further explanations.

This is difficult to explain, because even people you might describe this process to will try to nail it down to its mechanical parts. That, then, invites judgments from them, which are like spells. That’s why it’s difficult to describe this to someone who has a black-and-white attitude toward information. It’s like the response that comes back communicates a wound, and in a roundabout way, that’s how it is with everybody.

Human beings are trying to hear inside themselves. They’re listening for what it is that they’re meant to do. If it’s something that goes off in a surprising or unusual way, they have to explain it and rationalize it to others as best they can. When they haven’t really caught up with themselves, they act like they’re still trying to find the missing piece in the puzzle. That can put a stigma on it and to some degree that can rub off on you.

The thing that makes a place like Vegas magical is you leave it alone. Everything it is doing just needs to be supported and honored. Even though it’s often called “Sin City,” that element really hasn’t affected the energy here. There’s still a great light about it, which brings new ideas and new energetics.

As a place it seems to withstand all of the lower energy qualities in people. But what’s underlying all that surface excitement is important and vital. It’s a type of kundalini energy that is vital in terms of a bigger picture. That’s how it appears, like there’s something more to it.

It makes me think of Chartres Cathedral, which carries the presence of an ancient spiritual energy that looks after the place, yet that most people don’t understand. They don’t realize that the refracted light coming through the stained glass enhances consciousness. There’s a presence in that space that’s protected.

And what exists in Vegas energetically is huge, and yet no one notices it. Most people don’t get close enough to feel the pulse, which just keeps vibrating out in spite of everything in the environment, but it’s something that we have responded to and have chosen to be with.

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