John: I remember once (in my waking life) when I was at a spiritual program in another country and I was in great shape physically. I was playing ping-pong and there was a person there who wouldn’t accept defeat. He needed to step aside for the others waiting to play, but instead he says, “New game.”
He’d lost so I just reach back and serve the ping-pong ball so hard that it just whisked right by him. He didn’t even have a chance to swing it went by him so fast. I remember wondering, for a split second, whether the teacher was standing somewhere behind him watching because my serve was so amazing.
I mean, I could try that serve 100 times and I doubt that I would hit it so perfectly more than once. It had an amazing feeling to it. Well, actually, it was too bright for me. It lifted me energetically inside, but it wasn’t a sustainable energy, so I had a big let down. Then I was in a mood – a really weird state – and I couldn’t shake it.
So I walked around in this weird state, in a delirium where I avoided everyone. It was in the evening and it just so happened that I walked into an area where other people in the program were getting snacks.
I walked in, not looking left or right or seeing anything, and it happened that the teacher and one of the leaders of the group were sitting there. The teacher had his back to me. I see them and I turn to walk out because I don’t want to be seen in the condition I’m in. As soon as I turn, I feel myself healed. Something was just lifted and taken away.
I never forgot that. I thought it was amazing. The teacher felt it and knew it without turning to look. Whatever spell I was under was completely lifted.
Well, I think this is how one is compelled to live. That’s why you hear statements saying that when a person is bewildered, or can’t figure out what’s going on, that’s when they tend to be more real, or more conscious. That’s when they’re actually catching up with what is going on, because they’re in an open enough state where something more can be accessed, and in a spiritual journey it can often come through the teacher.
We then can get just what we need so that what is meant to transpire can transpire. If we were to look at it in a more mundane way, from the brain’s perspective, it would seem like an over-the-top idea, i.e., that it couldn’t possibly be that way.
But this guidance comes from another place – from outside of us, or through us. It’s in this sense that the human being can be understood as a co-creator. The need is invoked, and the guidance is compelled to turn up because of our linkage or connection to our higher selves and the universe.
Your dream (see The Big Screen) looked at the container quality of this, where you carry this great depth – the 20 or 30 monitors – but they only open up in relationship to what is compelled at a given point in time to open up. The need compels that which is given.
The feminine, which is naturally complete, has to somehow put herself within the greater depth (capacity), through which her need to accommodate it all invokes a touching (masculine) that can trigger even more of the depth to open up, i.e., more screens with more images can be handled.
We can see how this process is working in our lives. A few months ago I had a crazy idea that we ought to leave this state because the government is making it harder to stay. With some of the recent changes, I was feeling enough is enough – we should move.
Then I realize that it’s an insane idea because nothing has really happened yet. However, you took the idea in and weren’t swayed when I began to have second thoughts. And you began to almost obsess on the possibilities for moving. What happened was the “need” opened up a greater screening quality inside of you that enabled you to scan all the possibilities of us moving to Las Vegas.