Archive for September, 2011

John: I remember once (in my waking life) when I was at a spiritual program in another country and I was in great shape physically. I was playing ping-pong and there was a person there who wouldn’t accept defeat. He needed to step aside for the others waiting to play, but instead he says, “New game.”

He’d lost so I just reach back and serve the ping-pong ball so hard that it just whisked right by him. He didn’t even have a chance to swing it went by him so fast. I remember wondering, for a split second, whether the teacher was standing somewhere behind him watching because my serve was so amazing.

I mean, I could try that serve 100 times and I doubt that I would hit it so perfectly more than once. It had an amazing feeling to it. Well, actually, it was too bright for me. It lifted me energetically inside, but it wasn’t a sustainable energy, so I had a big let down. Then I was in a mood – a really weird state – and I couldn’t shake it.

So I walked around in this weird state, in a delirium where I avoided everyone. It was in the evening and it just so happened that I walked into an area where other people in the program were getting snacks.

I walked in, not looking left or right or seeing anything, and it happened that the teacher and one of the leaders of the group were sitting there. The teacher had his back to me. I see them and I turn to walk out because I don’t want to be seen in the condition I’m in. As soon as I turn, I feel myself healed. Something was just lifted and taken away.

I never forgot that. I thought it was amazing. The teacher felt it and knew it without turning to look. Whatever spell I was under was completely lifted.

Well, I think this is how one is compelled to live. That’s why you hear statements saying that when a person is bewildered, or can’t figure out what’s going on, that’s when they tend to be more real, or more conscious. That’s when they’re actually catching up with what is going on, because they’re in an open enough state where something more can be accessed, and in a spiritual journey it can often come through the teacher.

We then can get just what we need so that what is meant to transpire can transpire. If we were to look at it in a more mundane way, from the brain’s perspective, it would seem like an over-the-top idea, i.e., that it couldn’t possibly be that way.

But this guidance comes from another place – from outside of us, or through us. It’s in this sense that the human being can be understood as a co-creator. The need is invoked, and the guidance is compelled to turn up because of our linkage or connection to our higher selves and the universe.

Your dream (see The Big Screen) looked at the container quality of this, where you carry this great depth – the 20 or 30 monitors – but they only open up in relationship to what is compelled at a given point in time to open up. The need compels that which is given.

The feminine, which is naturally complete, has to somehow put herself within the greater depth (capacity), through which her need to accommodate it all invokes a touching (masculine) that can trigger even more of the depth to open up, i.e., more screens with more images can be handled.

We can see how this process is working in our lives. A few months ago I had a crazy idea that we ought to leave this state because the government is making it harder to stay. With some of the recent changes, I was feeling enough is enough – we should move.

Then I realize that it’s an insane idea because nothing has really happened yet. However, you took the idea in and weren’t swayed when I began to have second thoughts. And you began to almost obsess on the possibilities for moving. What happened was the “need” opened up a greater screening quality inside of you that enabled you to scan all the possibilities of us moving to Las Vegas.

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John: Last time (see The Big Screen) we spoke of an idea that came from the mystic Bhai Sahib, where he says that a person needs to be put into a state of disturbance in order to reach more deeply within themselves.

And this idea seems to have triggered your dream. In it there is the disturbance of too many video screens – more input than you can handle. The dream depicts you trying to manage this overload.

In our lives, when disturbances arise, we are meant to handle the process with dignity, in a way that leaves us open to get guidance on how to proceed from within. However, mostly we just crack from the strain. We go off and pout. We get into a certain a mood. We get angry. We cast blame.

Unfortunately, the world around us supports these behaviors, thinking they are a normal part of life. But they aren’t. They are a type of avoidance or denial of a very natural process. The result is that we keep ourselves sick with our own poisons, instead of intuitively finding our way to the best answer and evolving ourselves forward.

In your imagery you’re shown that if you’re able to allow yourself to fall back within, you have a depth and capacity inside that’s huge. But you have a limit, and that is what creates your “need to know,” which is what can help bring the guidance through.

There’s another statement from Bhai Sahib where he speaks about a human being conducting their lives in such a way to compel the teacher to always give them the next thing they need in order to cope.

That’s why spiritual journeys are often done as a part of a tradition: it prevents us from having to have all the answers ourselves – which, of course, we don’t. When we need to figure out something new – in a challenging or difficult situation – we compel further guidance to come to us. That can be in the form of a statement from a stranger, an inner knowing, or a direct recommendation from the teacher.

If we don’t put ourselves in the situation of needing the next thing, we won’t get it. When we do, we can have the ability to act in ways that are different from the norm, i.e., getting angry or upset.

So we have to have the audacity to put ourselves on the edge of the unknown. It may appear to others that we are being “unruly,” but that’s where the magic is. That’s what’s needed to reach the depth.

That’s why when something strange happens, when we do something outside the normal, the teacher can hear that. The teacher is aligned with the student more than the student ever realizes. The teacher knows and has the wisdom to see what is required.

Each human being is created in the image of God, and whether we have amnesia to it or not, we all have the innate potential to make these connections. When we form such linkages, they then become the vehicle upon which something is set in motion between the inner self and the outer self.

The student is inclined to think that this is a form of awakening consciousness, as if they’re going somewhere. Yet they’re not going anywhere, they’re just reaching a state where the inner potential awakens. That potential then sends a signal to receive what is the necessary next step.

In your dream, where you see the array of monitors, you are witnessing your vast capacity to hold, sustain, and maintain a kind of depth. But what portion of that depth are you able to realize?

Said another way, to what degree can you give to, and integrate, the masculine? Because it’s a type of forgiveness, or letting go, that you must do that will give, to the masculine in you, what it needs to open more screens up. On some level you are compelling what you need to cope to come through.

This can lead to further breakthroughs in which the teacher begins to see that the student has their own particular capacity, or thought-of-God quality. The teacher looks at the student and wonders how the student can best be used – because the teacher is bound to the student in an amazing way.

So the outer world of the student is changed and finessed and altered for this growth, and the teacher absorbs certain neuroses that stand in their way, feeding them back to the student at the appropriate time to keep the “letting go” controlled and safe. It is all a dance to get the student to a point where they can reach over the edge of themselves, and leave themselves on that edge, with the teacher available as a rescuing conduit if needed.

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Jeane: In this dream I’m in a mall and moving around a lot. Sometimes I’m even riding on a Segway.

You’re somewhere off to my right. As I move, I’m looking up at a multiple monitor display – it must have 20 or 30 monitors on it, each one showing something different. What I’m trying to figure out is how to shut down the monitors and maybe even reboot one or two to see if I can then control what comes up on the screens.

I don’t necessarily want to control the information, but the theme. I can’t quite get the hang of it. I’m able to play around a bit with reconfiguring and changing how the screens relate to each other, but I can’t quite figure out how to reboot it and just have certain content come up. Maybe I can influence one or two screens but that seems to be about it.

John: You’re dream is telling you that you’ve gone independent of the masculine somehow. It’s like an experience where you’re given a glimpse of the depth that the feminine can take in as part of its overallness, or at least the potential of it, represented by this large array of screens with different images.

All those images portray the huge overall awareness of a spatiality that you’re able to handle. However, you can only incorporate it, or encompass it, as a container, which is invoked in the environment you’re in – a huge mall.

So there is a dichotomy in you: you are shown that you have a huge inner capacity to deal with a greater overallness, represented symbolically as dozens of TV screens. You carry that capacity, which is an aspect of the feminine, as a fullness, or as a wholeness.

However, you can’t access all of it. You can’t bring all of that to the surface, or make it useable, except when that’s made possible by a need of the masculine. We see this in your attempt to limit what is shown on the screens or to cut the number of screens that are turned on to just a few.

The masculine brings in the “need-to-know input” from somewhere, and the feminine has the spatiality to be able to take all of that in and hold it. In this case, you’re limited by the disconnection from masculine that, if you had it, would allow you access to the full array of screens.

If the masculine doesn’t bring in the seed thought or doesn’t trigger what’s possible, then your access to the full spectrum of things is limited.

So, what triggered such a dream? Well, I think it was the statement by the famous Sikh, Bhai Sahib, which I came across in the book I was reading last night. You took the statement and went to another depth to understand it.

The statement was something to the effect that a human being has to be put in a state of disturbance in order to reach deeply inside of themselves. This journey enables them to seek answers, which ultimately should bring resolution. That result is then carried within the person and the process repeats. It’s the inner struggle that matters, not what is occurring in the outer life.

In other words, most human beings don’t respond naturally to the disturbances and struggles they encounter. When people get stressed they get moody, they get mad, they get irritable, they blame something in the outer. They go around and around in circles.

As a consequence, they don’t come to any realizations. What has been offered as an access point to something new is shut and closed before any new information is able to enter. For the most part, humans just don’t realize how this life process is meant to work.

When we are thrown into the challenge of having to face a dilemma, we are meant to remain open within the struggle – in the sense of seeking new answers. If instead, we resort to what we already know, we can only end up with an old answer refitted to a new situation. Or, as shown in your dream, we limit ourselves to one or two video screens, rather than a wall full of monitors.

Humans are designed to access new information as needed. It comes from the intelligence of the universe, but it’s accessed, by us, from deeper within. But we must be open to it and not filter it for the answer we think we need. Instead we must listen for the answer that is the most appropriate, and that can come to us as a knowing.

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