John: Your dream yesterday actually makes a deeper statement in terms of how the kundalini works (see Recognizing What We Already Know). We spoke about the idea of sensing a gap, or having the perception that something is askew, and thinking that you need to be subordinated to this thing because you sense it as being separate. But when you come to recognize the linkage, the distance between you and the teacher disappears because you have found it in yourself.
The part that’s hard to describe is how the feminine, which craves a particular kundalini sexuality, craves it more hungrily when there is the association of something having to come from outside of herself to bring about an awakening. When there’s that sense of dependency, it’s always coupled with anger because no one likes to be reliant on things out of their control.
That viewpoint, that sense of something having to be found, or reached, or sought outside of one’s self as if that somehow or other completes or satisfies what’s needed – when you actually find the solidness of that masculine inside you, you transcend that illusion because you then become wired internally to reach what had been missing and find it inside of you.
The first part of your dream has to do with the part that’s fine and solid in part of you, and the other male figures that are passing through are the part that’s still reaching, and has a hunger, and is still caught under the misconception that somehow this lies outside of you. The part of you that’s content and solid, in and of itself, knows better and knows that it has taken in and taken on and discovered all that there is to discover in this regard.
And thus the teacher, or the go-between, is no longer visible, as if there’s something askew or separate. It’s almost as if the feminine, in its dormancy – carrying a completeness in and of itself – can only think in terms of trying to awaken, can only think that, to begin with, that it has to do with a certain magnetic connection being formed. Until it’s formed, by way of a relationship or something from the outer, until that takes place, there’s a gap.
But when it has caught up or learned to take this on for itself, that’s when it moves to a point where it’s no longer dependent upon the teacher to create the inflection. Because that’s the point where you have already gotten the memo, so to speak, or that masculine part has opened up and become part of you, so that there’s nothing reachable or touchable in terms of an outer capacity any more. It’s a very deep dream.
The theme of the dream is one of catching up with something that’s already within you, but you don’t know it. That’s the theme of the dream and yet we make this journey, and we go through this maze of the outer life in an illusion, or in a state of amnesia in terms of recognizing that we actually, at the depths of who we are, already carry it as complete.
Generally speaking, we just aren’t able to have that recognition in the physical world because we’re not able to stop long enough to see that it’s naturally so. Instead we see ourselves as proceeding in some regard or way and, when we see ourselves as proceeding in some regard or way then we have dreams that have to do with something haunting us or chasing us, or that we’re finding new things in new rooms, or that we’re jumping from this place to that place.
What we’re doing is circling that part of ourselves that, in a flash, when it awakens, means that all of that illusion drops away, because the time and the space in the outer illusion then goes into that vacuum of nonexistence. While you’re Traveling Toward God, or even Traveling In God, you still perceive that there’s an aspect of linkage, or interconnection, that needs to come together.