John: In your last two dreams, both from the same night, you were looking at a connection to the wholeness within you (signified by the journey toward your home) on a vibratory level. What you discovered was a distance, or disconnection, between you and this vibration (the distractions on your way home). You then examined this distance or disconnection at two different levels, appearing first as shame (in the presence of the teacher) and then as grief (at the funeral). (For the previous threads in this sequence see, in order, Thick as a Brick, The Teacher Inside, and The Procession.)
What’s actually occurring in terms of “going home,” is you’re traveling to a greater inner depth. In other words, you’re at an inner threshold, the precursor to your inner light rising up to touch the greater light, and you are prevented from that connection (represented by guilt followed by grief; not much difference there).
Yet in Creation it’s the inner longing that opens up the light rising up to touch the light that makes the difference. You’re considered to be Traveling Toward God when the spirit energy is coming down as if to awaken you, or to align you, or to cause you to let go of things in life. But you don’t start Traveling In God until your light rises up to touch the light.
So you’re seeing that, within you, these two primary qualities still stand in the way – the grief and the guilt, or the guilt for grief. Being a woman, this is the feminine approach. The masculine approach to this same dilemma of disconnection is slightly different, because the masculine acts as if it has to work with the details or the specifics: the seed thought behind it all.
At the deepest depth of the masculine there is a naturalness that just knows this stuff. However, the masculine, over time, has gotten out of touch with that, or, as the teacher would say, has gotten off the ground. As a consequence, the seed thoughts don’t complete the loop. They don’t come down and touch something and then rise up as light rising up… as something rising up.
All of the good intentions, no matter what they are, of the masculine – he’s the bearer of the seed thought of the Divine Will – are for naught until this wholeness is invoked (this light rising up to touch light).
Everything else is a precursor to that. Yes it can help a bit, it can create a different sense of balance when there is communion in working toward this awakening (as opposed to one being left floundering on their own), but nothing of any real consequence takes place that’s effective in life until we have our light rising up to touch light.
Until then we’re simply rearranging things, i.e., trading one distraction for another. But this describes a coming together between a human and Creation. It completes the loop, so there is a completion in Creation rather than just a one-way transmission.
The reason I wanted to revisit this process is because I had a dream with a similar distraction, or disconnection. It starts where yours starts in terms of wholeness and overallness; you start off knowing how to go home to your mother. I start off with a sense of something having been naturally given to me that’s already complete, but what unfolds and takes place in that natural completeness is very revealing of what is preventing the light in me rising to touch the light.
You struggled with the deviation where part of you created a situation from which you needed to be rescued, but, because you we’re already on the path (home), it was enough to allow something to reach you and touch you and help you get back on track.
In my particular case, it’s like that in that there’s an intent in what I’m doing, but it’s all for naught. The intent may appear in some minute way to set the stage for something that’s destined to happen, but it would have happened anyway.
So this discussion is a precursor in itself, because I will get into the description of my dream tomorrow.