Lost Connections

John: In your dream Breaking Free, you saw the image of the dancer in high heels, and that portrayed a freer vibration in you that was trying to come across. That vibration, that mannerism, was a way of flowing with one’s self so that you can stand above the burdens of the day.

It’s not that the dancing was exactly the right expression, but what was behind it was an aspect of inner focus. It requires attention to hold that note, that freedom, in the midst of the outer world, and most people aren’t able to do that.
But then we saw that in your next dream (An Uneasy Feeling), you lost that vibration – you couldn’t hold it – so you were unable to flow with life or be open to various expressions. The result is that you experienced a crash, which is a type of depression.

And then in my dream (see The Dark Side), we saw how carrying, or feeding, the negative in oneself can alter the course of events in undesirable ways. The state of being negative in one’s viewpoint is a state of being even further removed from the flow and the freedom that is natural to a human life. It’s a disconnection that can have disastrous consequences.

We see people on the Vegas Strip walk around behaving in ways they never would in their home town. That’s because the local mores, would, in most cases, be too prejudicial against them. People would cast such negative energy towards them that they would become self-conscious and, ultimately, it would cause them to shrink back into the “normal” way of things.

But here in Vegas, everything is carefree and nothing really seems to matter. Everyone lets their hair down. That desire for freedom is actually a very positive impulse trait.  

We see the same freedom in young people, but as they get older they take on a more conservative presence. Even though we were all young once, as a group, older people frown on the behavior of the young. Such constant negative judgment slowly takes its toll and the young begin to fall in line with the “ways of the world.”

Or take an even younger child, who explores the world with such an innocence. There’s something about that that’s really refreshing for an adult to see. But all the while, the focus of the adults is placed on trying to shape the child to be more predictable and controllable.

It’s often said that a young child is close to the angelic realms, but then they’re taught about “the boogie man,” or are told that invisible friends aren’t real, and they lose those levels inside themselves where other realities have play. They lose their connections and end up anchored in the denser outer world with everyone else. It’s a negative pressure that eventually snuffs out the innocence of the child.

The idea here is that when we, as individuals, as a group, or as a society, radiate negativity towards others – in terms of judgment, anger, and all the rest – we impact the course of events in a negative way. We affect our own lives, and the lives of those around us.

In the example of our friend (see An Uneasy Feeling), he walks around in a negative vibration. To spend a lot of time with him can be very draining energetically. Any effort to change his perspective becomes a battle. He’s intent on making his vibration stick as if he’s right, and he’s good at doing that. He’s learned to fight the entire world.

But that’s not a natural state for humans. Life comes at us in various ways, and we are designed to go with the flow of it. Our only resistance should be in saying “no” to the aspects of life that are not in line with our deeper connections. When we consciously choose in favor of our universal connections, we confirm them, and we strengthen them.

But most of us do the opposite. We let go of our universal connections in favor of personal indulgences, such as old patterns, defense mechanisms, and psychologies that separate us from others and the world around us. We may do it as a “survival” mechanism, but in truth it becomes a self-destructive process that feeds the negative and severs our connection to inner guidance and flow.

That’s what the work of most spiritual endeavors really entails: making the journey back (letting go) from our ego-based perspective that supports our feelings of separation, toward a universal-based perception that includes us in, and is connected to, everything.

It’s every person’s choice whether or not to be a part of the whole we find ourselves born into. Whether we accept that notion or reject it doesn’t change the truth of it. But our decision changes completely our relationship to it and, ultimately, our human possibility.

The Dark Side

John: Yesterday we discussed how dwelling in the negative sends us down the wrong path (see An Uneasy Feeling). My dream portrays just such a set of circumstances, where putting energy into the negative affects the way an experience unfolds.

I’m with my dad and he wants to go back and learn more about what happened to my brother. Five or six years ago my brother went somewhere and acted in a way that disturbed people; he drew attention to himself in a way that presented a danger to them.

He was just drunk, but he accused them of illegal things, and he was taken to be high on drugs. He scared the “powers that be” who thought he got too close to their secrets. These were people you don’t mess with. His rantings touched a nerve and my brother disappeared and was never heard from again.

That was then. Now five or six years later I’m with my father who has gone back to the same place. He wants to confront these people to find out what happened to his son. Years of not knowing and imagining the truth have really disturbed him.

The place we go to is visited by thousands of people. It’s like a casino and they come to this place to be entertained. My father confronts the people in charge about what he thinks happened to my brother long ago. His suggestions scare them, as if they are concerned that he could expose them.

So, he tells his version, while I talk to another strong-armed person, but my story is more hearsay. I don’t have the correct year and other facts are wrong, so I come across as more delusional; I’m disregarded.

My father and I get separated. To make matters worse, these powers-that-be cancel the entertainment show for thousands of innocent visitors who then come pouring out of the theater. This causes further complications in terms of finding my father.  

I have the sinking feeling that my father’s story may have also hit too close to the truth. Not taking any chances, they’ve canceled the act and they’ve grabbed him. I look all around, hoping I’m wrong. I know that if I go back without him my mother (who feels like you in the dream) will come looking for him.

I need to find my dad; my mother doesn’t need to be put through that. (Deep down I know that my dad scared them; he indulged in something that he shouldn’t have.) My searching causes me to go inside a huge building, but there’s no one there because everyone has gone home.   

I go through a set of doors that are camouflaged into the wall. Suddenly I get it! I need to get out of there before I run into anyone. I don’t think that I’ve gone too far into this maze that I can’t simply back out. As I’m retracing my steps through the camouflaged doors, I wake up.

So, what this dream is describing is the condition of a person who’s indulging in too many imaginative theories with roots based in negative impressions. Allowing the consciousness to indulge in such mannerisms is asking for trouble. Such conduct draws out the dark side.

A person can lose their soul, so to speak, when they indulge in the negative aspects, instead of working through what can be appreciated in any given situation. The heart works with light, but the heart shuts down when we dwell in preconceived notions or imagined scenarios that reinforce or feed dark energy. A dark energy approach can cause collateral damage to one’s self. The result takes us away from who we’re meant to be.

At some point, dark energy can be dealt with, but it has to be done very carefully. If our attention is too indulgent on these idiosyncrasies, we can shut ourselves off from the natural free flow, like the friend we described in yesterday’s post.

As a consequence we can get depressed. That’s not the way to intertwine. We need to accept letting go, and look to the future instead of the past. This is an act of forgiveness and surrender, which brings out the essence of Creation.

What I’m portraying in the dream is a path of darkness, which is destructive. I’m not meant to probe this path. Or, at least, only to a certain degree. When I see it I have to allow it to fall away because indulging in it leads nowhere. I’m meant to be more open and exist in a space free of such barriers or limitations.

Righteousness is not a trait that leads to consciousness. Fanaticism is, in the end, destructive. The best way to notice that we are on an indulgent path, or tangent, is when we find ourselves caught up in our own defensive reactions.

Defensive reactions are an indulgence, or a tangent, because we’re deviating from the free flow of life and instead are feeding energy into old patterns. We can see in the dream how the situation just goes from bad to worse, just as it often does in real life. If we instead back our way out of this maze, we can break free from the downward spiral.

An Uneasy Feeling

Jeane: In my next dream, I’ve gone with the man I’m with to get some help with our sexual relationship. I’m a little uneasy about this – perhaps I don’t want people to talk about it – because it seems the only place one can get help is in a house of prostitution.

None of the men or women there are wearing clothes. One woman seems to be in charge and she sends us to a back room. There are a lot of people there; I’d think we’d get help from one person, but here everyone seems to be involved.

I don’t know if they give us something written or they just show us something, but the whole thing makes me uneasy. However, it is the place to go to get help with sexual issues.  

Then it feels like I go right from that dream back into the previous dream with the dancers, except now I’ve figured out how to bring those diamond-like strands down into something else, though I’m not sure yet exactly how to utilize them. I’m working on that.

John: This dream is more easily explained by looking at the scenario in real life that triggered it.

We have a house guest, and there’s something off in his nature. He likes to portray this issue as being about someone else, but what he’s describing is really about him.

So this person has an inner wound that prevents him from appreciating the feminine aspects of his life fully. He has lost his inner connection to the feminine, and when events in life trigger this wound – as a way to give him an awareness of its effect on him – he misses the message. He isn’t able to process the self-examination that’s required.

Meanwhile, he portrays himself to be astute in such areas, but in reality he’s damaged in terms of being able to function and flow freely. The result is that he’s actually starting to lose his ability to focus. If I explain 10 things to him, he’s lucky to remember five. If I explain those five things back to him, he’s lucky to remember two, and on it goes.

The problem behind this is he’s not able to access his feminine ability to multitask. He can only take one step at a time, which is a more masculine approach to things. Another way to say this is, he can’t walk and chew gum at the same time.

When he attempts to multitask, he becomes selectively unconscious. So if you’re talking to him about something, as long as you stay on one subject with a narrow focus you might be able to have a conversation. But if you switch subjects or if you bring in something that isn’t within his narrow approach to life, which is very confined, he can’t keep up.

Basically, he doesn’t know how to glide or flow. So this is the scenario behind your dream. You have taken the underlying idea and drawn it out so that if you reflect on the way the dream unfolded, you’ll note that, behind the imagery, the vibration addresses this aspect where one shuts down as a consequence of not having a proper flair (feminine).

Do you see that? In your image you weren’t comfortable with the multiple aspects of men and women in the place that were trying to “open” you up or get you to express yourself more freely. Instead of flowing with it, you were dwelling on the negative aspects.

That’s what our friend does, as well. In my dream, I get an insight into how that happens – it describes the negative aspect. We’ll get into that part tomorrow.