Jeane: In the earliest dream, I live in a building that has an enormous space around it. The building is circular and the space around it feels circular, or, at least, semicircular. Within that semicircle there is an inner circle where I live or walk around.
There are a number of tables set. Somehow it can be coordinated that a meal is available at any time. I seem fascinated by this. I don’t know quite how the system works for everybody that lives there, but it does seem to work. I don’t know how it’s coordinated.
John: What this dreaming is revealing is that, in the past, when you used to look at how the energetics felt in a certain area or place, you would sit and you would say, “ This feels good, or I like this area and I don’t like that area.”
In other words, it’s almost as if you were identifying with the spirit of the place. When you do it like that, you’re trying to catch up with something or trying to realize something that you needed that was in the environment that corresponded to something inside you.
Now the tables are set differently. You conceivably have gotten to the point where you can see some part of you at a higher heart center to it all, and that everything around you is like a great big building, a round circular building and the tables are set and you have an awareness to that. You’re observing it differently now – you’re a part of it, rather than feeling separate from it.
In the past the awareness you might have about a time, place, or people was almost as if things were generic – meaning you could appreciate what you observed as if it was in that particular place in that particular way. Now what you observe is a receptivity within a place, and you see inside yourself an identification to this greater innerness. And the tables are set around you for that innerness to infuse with it.
The way I tend to look at this – what I call a spirit energy or an innerness that just radiates out – is flipped now. I remember talking to a spiritual teacher about an energetic in the area in which we live, and I asked if we should try to form a relationship with it. The way he fidgeted about I realized that, “No, I am the energy of the place.”
So, a person is meant to catch up with their own energy in relationship to a place. At first you can denote where certain areas feel better in the outer. For example, when the teacher was in Boulder, Colorado he realized something about him could touch that environment more easily than in NYC, for example. As he put it, which was more in the outer sense, what goes on in NYC is denser and Boulder is more receptive. Another way of saying it is that there’s a greater similitude, or connection, that he’s able to relate to, or to touch, or to note in Boulder.
What you’re dreaming… you have turned the tables now in terms of a certain sense that you have in life. You can sense that you feel something as an epicenter, and you can see the tables, or energetics, as if it’s part of one great big circle, and you can tell there’s a greater depth that resonates out.
It’s like the idea that when you’re walking in the casino (in Vegas) you can hear the jackpots going off and the peculiar thought is, to what degree is that happening just because you’re walking by? It leaves you with an interesting sensation. It’s as if some part of you is making something happy, or tweaking something, just by being there.
Perhaps the jackpots happen in relation to the need or expectation of someone else? It’s a crazy thought but it’s not completely untrue. Obviously one cannot do it for themselves – as our little episode of gambling with one or two dollars showed. That was miserable. I just shrank in that; I lost some sort of essence in even bothering to see what was going to happen in that regard.
It’s subtle, but what we radiate affects our surroundings. The environment around us affects us as well, but it’s an intertwined relationship between the inner and the outer, not a one-way street. So the dream is pointing to a greater integration with the environment – in the sense of being joined with it rather than an observer who feels a stranger in it.