Balancing the Relationship

Jeane: This next part had several things going on at once. In one theme, it seems it’s near the end of the school year, so I’m planning on taking a break, like summer vacation. My plan is to go with some people out into the hills where there’s water and hiking.

During this journey I’ll be getting together with a young man. It seems that this trip will create a certain closeness, or intimacy, between us. For some reason, this involves going into a locker he keeps and taking something out.  

This is the first time the two of us have really been together in an intimate way, so we’re not completely open with the people around us, in terms of our relationship, because it’s so new and we’re looking for some privacy. However, we’re going on the hiking trip with the group.   

On this wilderness trip, I’m not going to be doing some of the more adventurous things other people will do; I want to relax and be on vacation and be with this young man. I have some interaction with him that’s like an approach, followed by a little backing off, i.e., going to the locker, bringing something out, and still getting acquainted.  

In the same dream, at one point I find myself in a house that reminds me of the one my maternal grandmother had. A lot of people are there. I’ve gone out onto the porch area and there’s a little girl sitting there next to the washing machine.  

I sit down on the floor next to the little girl. It must be that she isn’t too excited about school. I’m explaining to her that I’m not really a big fan of school, either, and that now that it’s near the end of the year I’m taking some time and going on vacation. I’m trying to get to a level where I can have eye contact with her to relate better. She’s a really cute little girl.

John: The last scene with the little girl is parallel to the first part, but it’s actually a second dream where you’re showing a certain overall understanding that you don’t have in the first part.

In the first dream, you’re still looking to establish your own sense of well being, i.e., a persona that has to do with a linkage that then gets recognized or established in a particular way (your new relationship with the young man). You let go of the things that, in terms of your physical orientation, are outside of what’s important to you or your capabilities, i.e., you let go of the more adventurous hikes.

This sorting out in the first image leads to an inner sight. You have developed a natural wisdom about your circumstances, and you can tell when someone else is struggling energetically to sort something out. You know what that energy feels like, so you’re able to advise yourself (as the little girl) about not making everything so important, or being too rigid, because nothing is that serious.

The greater theme of the dreaming is this sensation of being in the outer (physical life) and having to cope with the circumstances that you find yourself in (the microcosm). At the same time, you’re recognizing (hearing within) the freedom of the macrocosm, shown by the outdoor vacation.

Now, you’ve got to have both. You can’t just ignore school (the physical world) completely, because the greater whole has its demands in terms of your soul being intertwined with everything. However, you also can’t be too brutal with yourself or you’re going to be left in a state of pain (brutal here to mean trying to aspire too quickly in a way that disregards the needs of the physical; the microcosmic level). So there are times when you have to know how to weigh that balance, or be able to take those aspects into account.

In the first part of the dream  you’re learning to accommodate the two. You’re still looking at the magnetics of energy, in terms of what can come together and how it can come together, which are determined by how you are shaped and designed already. You’re learning to recognize these aspects in relationship to other parts of you.

So you’re making decisions. The key to looking at something like this is to always realize that that’s all you’re doing – that the whole is always the whole. The bigger picture is always the bigger picture, and you’re always going to have to contend with the microcosmic (physical) scenario you find yourself in. You have to be able to cope with a listening center that has to do with an attentiveness in the physical, while maintaining a sense of overallness on the inner. You have to put the two together.

You’re being trained or shaped. There’s an integration going on between the two that’s coming together, being sorted out, and taken on as an overall way of being. This means you’re integrating your microcosmic nature with your macrocosmic overallness, which is an important stage on the development path.

Nothing is Personal

Jeane: In this scenario, I’m somewhere with my dad and my sister and apparently there’s been a death (I think it’s my aunt), but the estate hasn’t been completely distributed.

My sister is explaining to me that my aunt held something back and now it’s going to be distributed. I don’t seem to be very worried about it, so a portion is given to my sister.

My dad seems to be somewhere in the background, and I think he must be getting a portion too, although that’s just my assumption; I’m not really focused about it.

There’s also a portion that I’m supposed to get. My sister has concerns whether that will be distributed. I don’t seem concerned about it. I just think, “Yes it wasn’t done at the time as was expected, so there’s something to be given out now.”

I seem to feel that all this really isn’t a problem. I just have to go and collect it or see what it is. That’s that part of that dream.

John: What you’re doing in this dream is expanding upon the theme of the quality of a certain state of overall freedom, in which there’s a spaciousness, or overallness (the macrocosm), that somehow helps guide or direct things in the microcosm. (For the earlier exploration, see Getting In Tune.)

Now as your dreams have proceeded through the night, in this imagery you’re taking this idea to the next step. You find that the “estate” has something more for you, so you’re connecting to something greater and it has more to reveal to you. Things are opening up, “more” is being made known to you from within. The proposition is, how can you now carry that awareness into the world, or bring it from inner awareness into outer expression? Or, how can you distribute your inheritance?

We humans tend to be pretty lazy in this regard, because when we experience an inner breakthrough we like to sit back and noodle with it, hold onto it a bit. But we should be exploring how to distribute it, or transmit it into life. Any conduct that lacks the kind of freedom to just let it flow into life, and to twine with everything else, is a conduct in which things are lost – for others and for Creation itself.

So you’re having a bit of inner discussion through this dream, in the sense of, “Is it important to bring through all aspects of a perception that unfolds inside you? Is it important for all of that to be carried forth into the outer?”

It’s almost like you’re looking at yourself and holding yourself accountable. Are you doing it or are you not doing it? One has to ponder: “Okay, what are the considerations? Is there something that you consider too personal, or, what aspects are too personal?” This is leading to a recognition that your greater wholeness, which is intertwined in everything in the outer, is only possible if you’re able to bring everything through, i.e., ultimately nothing is personal.

This isn’t easy to do because we live in the outer and there naturally are physical constraints associated with the outer. As a consequence, it’s very easy to develop certain mannerisms and characteristics that are associated with how the outer is, in relationship to you being a soul in a physical body.

So, as a consequence, there’s the tendency, there’s the projection, that we need to pay attention to a certain safeguarding of ourselves in a personal way. We develop personal identities from early childhood and spend most of our lives supporting those psychologies as a protective device, where personal protection leads to separation from the whole.

However, this dream is having you make distinctions in terms of where you stand in this regard. It’s coaching you, if there are any doubts or resistance to being open and free within the overall, to just bring it forth and lay it out there.

It doesn’t matter how it appears compared to our training in the culture. It doesn’t matter because a human is not the type of entity, or being, in the greater sense, that’s meant to get trapped or caught in trying to sustain a specific persona or personal identity that’s separate from its identity in the overall – in Creation. We can’t be both personally involved and part of the whole; we have to choose.

Getting In Tune

Jeane: I just have a vague impression of this dream.

I’m in a city on the edge of the earth, which is curved. The city is like an amusement park; it has all kinds of things going on, all kinds of movement.

I’m just trying to find my way around. That’s my impression. I don’t remember much except that it’s very crowded, it’s curved, and I’m trying to get my bearings.

John: The dream is playing with two energetic conditions. One is more based in the microcosm, i.e., smaller in scope, and more settled in a certain physical way (the city). The second is more based in the macrocosm, i.e., it has the feeling of the whole, or of being intertwined with Creation (the edge of earth).

The image is a projection of the sorting out that’s going on inside you. You see something that’s on edge – it’s off to one side of the globe – so there’s a wholeness, and yet it also invokes a perception that’s particular, and it’s attempting to balance the two.

Because you are feeling things in a wholeness, you’re not looking at it straight on. If you were, it would appear more rooted and more fixed, i.e., perhaps you’d be in the city, but without the external perspective. You’re seeing it a little off at an angle. You’re able to note that because you have a certain freedom from the microcosmic identification, or a certain awareness of a greater whole. You’re above the microcosm (daily life) in your perspective. If you didn’t have that awareness, you wouldn’t see that the fixed aspect in the outer is a little bit tilted or askew.

The key to this sort of perception is in how you’re approaching your own overallness. First of all, it’s notable because you’re playing with both sides. You’re playing with how things are locally (crowded in the city), and also how everything is universally, in terms of the intertwining within the macrocosm (the city in the context of the curve of the planet), which can lead you to a greater sense of freedom in terms of your overallness.

So you’re playing with the microcosm of things, which has a certain set, or defined, way and seeing how that is in relationship to the whole. Ultimately we have to contend with both, and in this scenario you are. The idea is to have a heartfelt listening center so that what’s occurring in the microcosm comes across as straightforward, or comes across as “just right” in its mannerism, or existence, in the physical, which enables it to coordinate appropriately with the greater whole.

This is a type of refinement where a person can get more and more attuned to this listening center if they’re able to hold a certain space within, where through their inner perception they’re able to determine whether the microcosmic scenario is a little tilted or not.

This dream shows a process that’s using both the inner and the outer as a way to sharpen one’s natural attentiveness to how the inner and the outer work together. If they’re not working together in you, reflections (dream images) will show you that something’s off to some degree.

What that is is always hard to determine. So this image is also showing you that something isn’t quite 100% right yet because what you’re perceiving is a state or a condition (and you yourself are that state or condition) that’s a little off to one side.