Month: April 2012

Two Halves Make a Whole

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John: I just want to continue a bit on the thread we’ve been on, beginning with your dream, Updating the Past, and then my dream, The Need for Redemption. What both of these images are pointing to is a process in us that’s going deeper, toward vibrations held in us from our past. By touching these vibrations, we are given an opportunity to rebalance, heal, and rewrite the events that put them there originally.

Even if we don’t know exactly what moment in our history the vibrations represent, it’s an important process to understand because it requires bringing two parts, or two halves, together. It’s a type of reconciliation, where former antagonists lay down their differences and realize that they can’t move forward without each other.

This reconciliation is needed on many levels, whether between the masculine and feminine genders on this planet, the masculine and feminine aspects within each of us, or the parts of our own history that we bury and negate – we even need to bring those back into the fold, so to speak.

This reminds me that a teacher used to say that someone who is a bad person can sometimes reach more quickly to a depth within themselves. That’s because it’s easy to set the bad behavior aside when they don’t necessarily have any strong spiritual illusions that power it.

In other words, those who think they have an idea about how to change things, or have an effect in the world, often go around in circles because of their spiritual illusion, or their angelic nature – they have fixed themselves to see only one side of the issue. We can’t close ourselves off to the aspects that can bring wholeness.

But in my case, in terms of some type of historical conditioning, it’s as if I’m able to look at both sides of the equation. I’ve always been a bit like this. In fact, I often surprise people when I can sit down and describe how things can go haywire, even if the subject is not in my area of expertise. They wonder how I know, and I just say: “Well, to be a good businessman in today’s society, you have to have a certain degree of the criminal mind.” That way you can protect yourself, because those two aspects are somehow related.

With that in mind, in a roundabout sense, that’s how you (Jeane) and I are correlated: historically, our two clans were infamous for feuding. But actually, at the epicenter of a feud, there is often common ground. In other words, if you can sort out the reactivity (animosity), you can come to a point where there’s a meeting, energetically, and a balance can be regained.

It is said that, in the journey of the soul, those that you struggle with the most are often people whom you were “married” to in the past. In a given lifetime, that which you’re married to can be, if you knew the karma of your soul’s journey, something in which there’s a history of differentiation, or antagonism.

Somehow or other, those divergent aspects get pulled together, and it’s like bringing two halves of a whole back together, and it tends to create a lot of interesting change and growth. To bring two halves like that together, each of those halves have something to contend with within themselves.

At the depth of the feminine, there has to be the forgiveness. At the depth of the masculine, there has to be the letting go. The feminine forgiveness is going to be difficult because she will always have a certain confusion as to why things act up in the way they do because it won’t make sense to her. In other words, she won’t have the facts as to why they continue to go on.

At the threshold of the masculine, the degree to which something pushes him, or touches him, or attempts to direct him, he’ll have to accept that or else he’ll continue to stay in his own trance, which is a state of separation. That, too, is an interesting dance that’s brought to the situation.

It does seem that our dreaming is starting to now shift towards what lies ahead, almost as a preparatory state, because of our upcoming trip to Egypt. It’s like something inside is fast-forwarding, bringing through what we can catch up with, or recognize, or come to know in this place. But as long as we avoid these knowings, or don’t acknowledge them, they will remain dormant.  

So now, all of a sudden, in order to help us experience these hidden vibrations that are in places that we’ll soon be able to partake in, we almost need to have some flash memories come back.

In this regard, there can be an appreciation: in my case a letting go, in your case a forgiveness and acceptance of an overall responsibility. In my case letting go to a responsibility that I’m not fully aware of, having been on the other side of the equation (an honest business man), yet still in that culture. In other words, we are getting more subtle to pull all these energies back into cohesion.

The Need for Redemption

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John: Your dream yesterday was not surprising to me at all because my dream also dealt with the issue of abuse by those in authority. From a masculine perspective, though, in my dream I’m the abusive authority (for Jeane’s dream, see Updating the Past).

Your dream also had me wondering about the ancient history inside us. I’m from one Scottish clan and you’re from another, a clan that actually feuded with mine. We’re almost at opposite polarities.

This caused me to ponder the idea that, somehow or other, opposite polarities actually do work together more than we realize: they’re attracted in order to resolve something, or in order to pull something together. It’s like Yin and Yang or, should I say, like an electron and a proton in the atomic structure?

On a vibrational level, what does the other half, or perspective, tend to look like? We are in a position that needs to accommodate both halves, showing compassion toward the other, and knowing how to work with it, even though there has been abuse – whether by gender, by history, or by people in this specific life. How can we facilitate the resolving, or healing, of whatever it is that’s reactive to the abuse, and/or is in a position to abuse?

What I see in your imagery is that you’re drawing closer to this resolution, in terms of a historical depth within you – to the vibrational level where it sits. In my dream, the way this opens up for me is that I have to start out, symbolically, in a state or a space that then travels backward in time to where the vibration, which is unfamiliar to me, is located. That location is at some point in my history.

In the dream I’m asked to participate directly in the operation of a casino. I have some sort of bond with this place and I’m naturally invited into its power structure.  

To begin with, what I experience comes naturally. I keep gravitating more and more to the core of the operation, getting involved in the functioning of what really makes the casino tick.  

Each phase of my progress triggers memories of having been there, and having done this work, before. Eventually, though, I reach a point where I’m seen as the problem – by the average person who comes to the casino to enjoy it – and a deep anger is vented toward me.

It’s as if I’m a ruler who hasn’t done right by his people: they’ve had it and it’s time for a change. Those who operate the casino bring me right into the epicenter of the hostility. They’re very calm about it; it all comes down on me.  

I’m in a quandary because I don’t know what I did to cause such an upheaval and negative reaction. All I was doing was aspiring to a greater depth of familiarity with the casino until, in the final image, the average person sees me as the person who’s abused his authority to such a degree that I have to be replaced.  

What I find interesting is that this was an inner adventure where I kept going further and further into the depth of me. At first, it was easy and exciting, and I was progressing very quickly. I felt as if I belonged there and was meant to reach this point within myself. But then I triggered this outer reaction.

All those involved in the management of the casino were eager for me to take the position of authority. They stepped aside and the problem was mine alone, even though this problem was hidden, or dormant, until I reached this deep inner place.

This reminds me of having done something very direct and controlling (a misuse of power), that I now find deep within me a place that’s desperately in need of redemption. It’s from this deep-seated inner background that I carry the memory of the way conditions unfolded. I’m picking up on this vibration from my past. If the dream is indicative of just this vibration, then I’m to contend with the rift that was created – or the rift will contend with me.

In the dream, I reach this inner place, as if I were transported very quickly back in time to a vibration that carries a conditioned heaviness. I don’t know why the reaction feels so catatonic, but it seems to have something to do with me.

This dream is drawing me closer to this vibration, a place where confusion, pandemonium, the epitome of a breakdown in reaction dominates. In doing so I’m confronted with having to sort this out.

Just the feeling of the reactive vibration, even though I don’t have any facts about how this came to be, is a start. It would seem that the inner powers-that-be have come together, through me, to reach this point. They are entrusting me with the responsibility to sort this out or face the consequences.

Updating the Past

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Jeane: In this dream, I seem to be visiting a series of old rooms that are pie-shaped, or at least they are as seen from the outside. I can go into them, and it feels similar to the way Egypt felt in that the areas that haven’t been visited often have many rooms that are outdated.

Elizabeth Taylor is there in one of the rooms, or is planning to be. Because there aren’t many rooms, I can visit each one, look at it, and come back out. But because there are so few people visiting, I realize that I can go in and start modernizing them, or cleaning them up, or do something with them to bring them forward in time.  

I might not be able to do a lot, but I can do a little bit. It’s almost like being in a museum: I can move forward and back through different time periods, going forward in and coming back out.  

At first I did it slowly, but then I realized that now there is more freedom to fix them up a bit.

John: I actually believe that about you: that there’s a quality in your overall nature that has this mannerism where you take what is brought before you, in terms of your attention, and seek to balance it out.

This is an approach that has an ancient quality to it. It’s not the approach of a naive person – you just are that way. You’ve taken on that type of responsibility and you tend to shape and condition your environment around you. If there’s something out of balance, or if confusion exists, you take the time to work at it – to bring it around into a proper cadence that you recognize, inside, as needing to exist. Is that right?

Jeane: Yes.

John: That’s the opposite of me, of course. I’m the bad guy. Was that the whole dream?

Jeane: A little bit more came in after that, but I’m not too clear on it because it was just before I woke up.

It felt like I was visiting with someone and we were having a dialogue. I even invited them over to a house. We weren’t really ready for company, but they came anyway.  

There’s a group of us there, and someone starts to ask me about a place I used to work. There were two supervisors there who were not good managers, both a man and a woman, I think. They were people from the past. I’m being asked about them because the rumor was that they were fired. I said: “No, it’s more like they were demoted or reassigned.”  

I was trying to look at what those two people were doing now. I was trying to figure out what they were up to and communicating to this person what that was. I didn’t really pull that dream out well.

John: Perhaps, but you’re creating images that are vibrational to something that’s astir inside you. Through this, you’re trying to come to grips with an imbalance in terms of how something in the past was done, or how a decision was made, that occurred in an unconscious way. In that sense, as in the first dream, you are taking something from the past and updating it.

Somehow you are now able to take a position that works with that prior scenario. You’re not doing it from a position of judgment. You’re being fairly matter-of-fact, in the sense of “that’s the way that it is,” and you’re okay with catching up with seeing things as they are.

In fact, when you do catch up with it, a part of your nature knows, or has a depth to it, that can work with that and seeks to work with that. It’s almost as if you’re designed to fall into that position because you have an understanding at your core of what makes things tick.

In other words, you’re relating to this as something that has happened that you have accepted. It has happened in terms of something or someone in charge, or in a position of authority, has mishandled a situation.

But, rather than being reactive about the mishandling, you seem to have reached an understanding. You’re able to look at it from another (deeper) perspective, instead of from a shattered, fragmented, reactive perspective. There’s a part of you that’s a bit reactive, but the depth of you is able to take a step back from that. Bringing issues from the past, and updating them to where we are today, in our wisdom and understanding, can be a very healing process.