John: So in our last two posts we have been looking at the process of bringing light into the darker aspects of ourselves (see Coal into Diamonds and An Explosive Situation). The dream imagery first showed this as bringing coal out of a basement (from an inner depth). The next image showed you trying to manage the fear of live hand grenades.
The hand grenade image speaks of the potential danger in opening up the Pandora’s box of our inner selves. Yet it is a process that’s critical to spiritual development because we need to become conscious of our intentions and thought processes, i.e., we have to gain awareness of the personal training and history that often controls our reactions and decisions.
Now, in the last image of An Explosive Situation, you saw what seemed to be stagnant water running clear and pure – signaling that something must be changing. But it’s hard to accept that anything’s changing in us because we can never be sure. The next time you look at an inner issue, after having given it some time (under the blankets), after trying to sift through all of that, you’re never sure whether it’s going to go off or not (like a grenade), or whether you’ve really overcome it.
Yet as a consequence of approaching it in this way, you can actually reach a point where you’ve created a process of purification. What your dream is doing is using a play on words, in terms of what’s alive and what’s dead: the water, the water bug, and the frog. An aliveness can be described as something that no longer has to sit in a state where it reacts to everything (like we do with our ingrained patterns).
Instead, it sits in a purity, which can appear as a stillness, from our perspective of time and space. That’s why the bug and the frog can appear to be dead, and in purity there is a death. You’ve died to the world, so to speak.
But the imagery also shows something that’s very different, in that the water is then seen as pure and everything is amazing, and it sits in a stillness. And even in that condition, where something has become purified in its overall nature, you’re never really sure that it has.
Can it move (swim away)? Does it still have an action that could go off and be like the old pattern, or is it really as still and yet alive in that purity as it could possibly be?
Jeane: One of the things I remember is that the children in the dream seem to know where the grenades are but they wouldn’t tell the adults. Then at one point I overheard the conversation of one of the women in the house, whose feelings were hurt because she found out that one of the men she liked was dating other women in the group. I remember thinking there was a time in my life when that could have been me finding out something like that, or I might have chosen a man like that, but I’m not like that anymore.
John: Well, there’s a natural acceptance to things in the flow in the outer. That’s where the statement comes up, “in the greatest surrender is the greatest freedom.” If you view it from an outer perspective it actually means you’re more vulnerable and, as a consequence of being more vulnerable, stuff is going to happen to you.
But from an inner perspective, you’re less vulnerable. If you’re more subjective, and if you just let things go, you actually have, at a depth inside, access to a universal grace. It’s like the idea in the Bible about the lilies of the field, i.e., even they are looked after.
It’s like that with children as well. It’s the younger part of you in the dream that’s not entangled with the world and that knows where the grenades are; there’s no worry. As we go through life, we develop a woundology through our experiences. It’s the child part of us that knows to just let it be, that it’s all fine. And so it’s the children that seem to have the greatest sense about how to trust and be at ease with what’s unfolding, not the adults.
The adults still have their conceptualizations from the past and perhaps bad memories of this and that. That part of the dream is showing you that this greater depth inside is what you need to feel and what you need to connect with.
What’s interesting about this part is it’s kind of joyful, it has a gleefulness to it. It can laugh at things a lot easier. The part that’s more adult is going to worry about whether those grenades could go off at any time.