The Goddess Within

Jeane: In my main dream, I keep coming back to feeling that I’m in a foreign country, like Egypt, with my family. We seem to be excavating an area and, in my mind, this area has two sections to it, a lower part and a higher part.

Right at the dividing line between the two is a statue of a woman lying on a bed. It might be her husband’s bed; he’s dying and she has come to lie down on the side of his bed.

Well, that’s one form the woman takes. I want her to take another form: if she stood up she would become a woman with the head of a god, or the head of an animal representing a god as they have in Egypt. I want her to take that form – then she’ll have a different energy. And I want to be able to take that form of the statue back with us when we leave.

But I can’t seem to get her to change into that form. Or, perhaps, I’m afraid that if I do the authorities won’t let us take her back home. I seem to really be working on how to get her changed into this other form, and then figuring out how to get the statue home if I do.

John: Why would the authorities stop you from taking her back if she changes into the other form?

Jeane: I guess because it would be an Egyptian artifact and we’d be taking it out of the country.

John: But they wouldn’t mind you taking it out if it’s the lying-down version?

Jeane: That’s right. If she hasn’t changed into that form, it feels like it would be okay. I also have the sense that the version of her lying down is taken from the lower section of the excavation, where the version with the godhead would come from the higher section.

John: The theme of the dream is how to connect to an inner energetic that can then permeate, or exude, into life. And this connection is accessible only when everything is quiet.

In other words, as long as there are reactions (noise), or limitations imposed in terms of how things need to be, then the ability to hear this kind of inner dialogue is lost. I’m not stating it very well, but that’s the deeper part of it.

So a part of you is identifying with trying to hold on to a particular energetic that’s caught in the (outer) reflection of things. You have the masculine aspect (the dying husband) and the feminine aspect (the woman lying down). The feminine is trying to do something to save, or help, or assist the masculine. In so doing so, she’s supporting something that should be let go of, and distracting herself from becoming who she needs to become.

To become that person, she must rise up and bring forth her full powers and her full inner connection – like the goddess. In other words, she must free her energy from what’s holding her down or holding her back. The lying-down woman is trying to support or sustain something in her environment that she deems important, which is a masculine energy, but that’s actually preventing her from being able to find the depths inside herself because she finds herself instead having to take into account the characteristics of something that’s struggling, or dying, or is in some capacity restricted. So she is constraining her glory by trying to heal that situation.

If she can rise above that, and just be who she is, then, in her glory, she shines to such a degree that she becomes like a treasure and that’s a treasure that’s precious to all humanity.

The key about ancient Egypt is that everything reflects an awakening to something at a deeper level. The whole society was aimed at a spiritual journey. Today, in Egypt, a person could react to the mannerisms, and the heat, and the beggars on the street, and allow those distractions to take away from the deeper inflection of something that’s trying to come through.

This dream is saying that a part of you needs to stand up, to come out in its full glory. And it’s something that’s being held back by ideas, or concepts, or psychologies – i.e., personal indulgences of one type or another – that are trying to keep something alive even though it’s astray. Therefore, that blurred energy is keeping you from standing and being the treasure that you are meant to be.

Symbolically, what seems to be triggering this is the story we heard of a woman in the age of the pharaohs who did all kinds of wonderful things in her day; she expanded the empire and reached beyond the shores of Egypt. She did it with a certain quality, which you could sense in the pictographs.

In other words, she had a quality of glory that differed from the power motif of the basic pharaohs and that made an impression on you. It touched a part of your higher self, telling you that you, too, can take this inner quality that you feel inside and let it rise up and shine.

But it can’t do that if it’s caught in the indulgences of the particularities of your environment. That could mean me, or your dad (both masculine energies), and how you see the space you’re living in and the doingness that’s involved. So that aspect is in opposition to another part of you – a higher part – that has the ability to just let go and stand above all that.

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