John: Your dream showed the conundrum of trying to bridge, through our lives, the inner and the outer, or the spiritual and the physical, but it showed it in an overall way, without specifics (see The Fundamental Shift). My dream explored the same conundrum, but the image broke it down into a specific case, because that’s the masculine nature.
When we get caught up in our experiences in the outer, i.e., when we become personally involved in what’s occurring, our energy gets consumed, or drained, by it. When our energy is lowered, we become even more prone to our indulgences of emotion, psychological patterns, egocentric behavior and all the rest.
So the degree to which we accommodate, or put personal importance on, events in the outer, is the degree to which we get pulled down, away from our higher selves. When we “live” only in our lower selves, we are basically caught in a trance, where the truth of life is veiled behind the outer illusion.
What brings us out of the trance is a process of connecting to an inner silence, or emptiness, where nothing’s going on, and we can find a quiet peace. Most people actually love to be in that state, but they can’t maintain it when they are active in life. But the key to a connected life, a life lived in our higher selves, is to hold that inner space, or heartfullness, no matter what’s going on around us.
As my dream begins, I’m going to a property that sits next to another property owned by someone else. I spend some time there, grooming the land to look good, i.e., I thin dense areas out, and I clean things up.
This idea rubs off on my neighbor, and he cleans something up on his property. I don’t necessarily agree with what he’s done, but at least it’s helping to shape things. There’s no discussion between us. I can just see the next thing that needs to be done. It’s like a flow has been established and in that flow I’m having insight on what to do.
There are many trees, and each tree requires something slightly different. I’m visualizing what would facilitate a tree in terms of the land, in an effort to free it to take on a greater aliveness. In other words, my efforts are not just about appearance in the outer, but about awakening something in another dynamic.
As I’m doing this, the neighbor comes over and wants to talk. He talks and talks and I try to relate to him, but I really don’t want to because this is the kind of thing you just do – you don’t talk about it.
The conversation chokes off the flow for me, and I lose the quietness and emptiness inside that allows me to know what nutrient each tree needs. I can no longer make that inner connection when my power and energy get drained by having to talk about what I did, and what he did, and on and on.
This dream is showing that when energies in an environment are stimulated, there’s an aliveness that awakens. This is equally true of a person radiating energetically into a natural environment, or of a person radiating energetically to another person, or to other people.
The purpose of this dream is to point out the importance of this inner connective state whereby we can radiate higher energies into life, and the awareness that it’s based in an inner quietness. From that inner connection comes an aliveness and a linkage to things in the outer, in creation. But it shows that I’m not carrying that awakened state all the way through.
In other words, I may begin by being well located in myself, but then something happens (the talking) and I’m knocked out of that synchronization. But I need to carry my connection all the way through into the outer, I can’t veer off into some personal indulgence. Instead, I have to stay within the presence of the heart with whatever is taking place. If I try to talk about it, or to shape it, I just drain the heartfulness from which the creative essence flows.
To keep this disconnection from happening, we have to learn the art of how to be amongst others outwardly, but inwardly still maintain the heartfelt linkage. Otherwise, we lose the ability to hear what creation wants, from a standpoint of essence, because we have succumbed to outer appearances, which are just an illusion.
Energetic essences are embedded in everything that exists, just as God is embedded inside a human being. A human being has the ability to catch up with that which is embedded in creation and, when we do, we are like the creator and can see it in everything around us, rather than only seeing the outer shell of physical matter. If we only acknowledge and respond to the outer shell, then we’re identifying with something that isn’t real. We’re dealing with the projected environment and losing the linkage, through our heart, to the whole.
What kind of waking life scenario could create a strange dream like this? This image shows me what it feels like from the position of losing my connection, and from that sensation I’m meant to understand that there’s an acuity accessible to something much, much deeper inside.
I guess yesterday I experienced this loss in waking life during a conversation. I was describing to a male friend how it’s possible to shape something, energetically, which could affect generations but, from his perspective, he’s just trying to figure out what he’s going to do tomorrow. So I can’t carry that kind of discussion on with this person without them getting disturbed by it.
But I missed the cues of this fact and I got personally carried away, thinking that I could somehow pound this important idea into him. In doing this, I just drained the energy from myself, – because he can’t just suddenly make the jump to where I am. He has to do it in his own way. So, basically, I was rude.
I should have stayed in flow in myself where I could understand where he was in himself, and deal with what’s going on in his life. If I hold that space inside me, it will have an effect on the other person, silently, and allow them to stretch or awaken to whatever degree is possible for them at that moment.
But when I allow my personal reactions to get involved, there’s a loss of graciousness, because then I’m trying to bridge a gap. But there is no gap – I’m just caught in the illusion again. I have no one to blame but myself when I fail to accommodate the outer as I find it, rather than trying to shape it into an image of my own making.
