John: Last night, my shoulder was hurting. In sleeping, I contend with it, or try to accommodate it, so it doesn’t wake me. Part of the reason I accommodate it is that I refuse to accept that it can’t get better. So I continue to probe beyond for a solution, and I’m attentive to this idea that there’s still hope.
I’m not having any success, but at least I find it interesting that there’s a place beyond to explore. What I’m saying is that I’m searching for an inner solution to an outer (physical) problem. I can’t let what others say hold me back. I know they mean to give me good advice, but that doesn’t resolve the problem, so I keep probing.
I suppose this is the condition, too, I find myself in, in relation to the outer world. I’m at a point where I can recognize how there can be a deeper attempt, from within, to try to touch and change things in the outer, but I don’t actually see it working.
When you get right down to the core of things, an energetic could, and is intended (in its highest development) to be able to shift and make changes. But I’m not seeing it as able to make the kind of difference that could alter or change the continuing breakdown that I see unfolding in the world today.
And yet, I also don’t believe that there’s any other way to do it, which is a matter of everyone getting more and more toward the epicenter of their being. In other words, the only thing that can affect a change at this point is a state of inner being that has a greater universal understanding and an intertwined connection to everything.
The key to this is found by getting out of the way in every regard, in terms of one’s approach to life, on a practical level. Then, with ourselves out of the way, we’ll find that we’re connected to the overall flow of things. Somehow this conscious response is capable of altering what’s unfolding. What we currently see unfolding is a consequence of the inner dynamic of the human race, as a whole, and its inability to be at this state of depth and power inside sufficient to make a difference.
Perhaps this is why it’s felt by some that there’s no longer the light of the individual. Usually there’s an energetic resource in the whole that’s like a collective mannerism in terms of a change agent, a kind of light or value that simultaneously awakens and opens, to which the individual can link and connect.
That causes things to change. But the sense is that the overall collective light, to which the individual light can connect, isn’t able to reach that kind of epiphany of awareness, that collective spark that can trump and go beyond the prevailing situation.
The hope and heartfulness that can be found in an individual can no longer find its correlation in the outer, because the outer is so strongly warped that it blocks out that essence from flickering.
Do I actually believe that, because that’s portraying a fairly hopeless scenario? If it was really that hopeless it would be like a type of dying, in which there’s no conceivable hope anymore. I think things are going to change radically, but there’s little evidence of the transitional energy that’s needed to bring humans to this change gradually – so they can handle it.
Or, perhaps, what’s meant to unfold is working at a level of nothingness and heartfulness and depth, which hasn’t been caught up with yet, it’s so subtle. And, in that, there really is the means provided in the collective flow that an individual consciousness can touch, which can trigger change.
I’m inclined to believe that that’s the case. In the past, humans as a whole had the ability to turn a little dial here, or do a little something over there, to effect a change, but that doesn’t work anymore. It only serves to postpone the agony of things to come.
So it’s easy to draw the conclusion that when the fine tuning no longer works, it’s because some light of the overall world soul has gone out. I don’t quite know how to believe that as true. Yet the situation right now in the outer, no matter how you look at it, and no matter what is done, nothing seems to be averting it.
Perhaps we’re just observers to something coming apart? It hurts to see it coming apart because there will be a lot of suffering and confusion still to come, caused by the defiance of the human to its natural awakening.
This creates a state of helplessness, where we can’t do anything. Yet I have a deep sense that something is missing in that, that it’s not necessarily the full answer. There’s still something more that’s noodling behind the outer appearances.
What that is is something new, unknown to us, and there must be those who have a better sense of this, who can see this moving about, but in an unconstellated state, still forming. But our ability to work with something in transition, that part seems to be missing. We’re not able to see how the light within can touch that, because for it to touch that there has to be a recognition, a mutuality, and the problem is in finding that.
These ideas go along with some dreams I’ve had that indicate that, because everyone believes that the outer flow of things, this outer illusion, has such a profound meaningfulness that there’s a deep problem in keeping that attachment from getting in the way of the inner coming into the outer.
The inner that needs to come into the outer can only happen through a state of emptiness or nothingness, so that really redefines, in these times, the role of a human being.
Before we were part of what could be called a kind of co-creator mode. Now I’m not sure just how this is meant to be because attempts to figure out how to define that, in order to figure out how to be in a state that’s conductive to that, seem to be out of reach.