The Big Drama

John: In Jeane’s dream yesterday (see The Support of the Whole), the image showed that part of her had made a connection to the overall, while a part of her still had hesitations about that aspect of letting go.

When we see ourselves as part of the whole, it means that the events in the outer no longer have a certain type of validity; they no longer dictate how we respond in ourselves. It means we have a way of seeing and understanding everything that’s happening around us that’s less personal and more universal.

When we view the world from a separated, personalized viewpoint, it’s like we take some aspect of life and we dwell upon it and dwell upon it until it becomes our anguish, our pain, our heartache that we’re going through. It becomes a big drama.

But, in a spiritual development, once we get through, or let go, of the personalized drama, then our attention can shift to everything else, and we can view events in life as part of the natural dynamic. We no longer see ourselves as separate, but part of an unfolding process.

Until that point, we’ll still be coloring, or adding personal bias, to whatever we perceive around us. We’ll still be coloring it with some aspect of our drama and, therefore, keeping everything separate because we’ll be sorting it out in relationship to this non-empty state that we still choose to carry. So everything will still be evaluated, or filtered, in relationship to that.

You might say your dream has asked you the question: can you go off and be okay without having a particular, defined presence, functioning as if to reflect things to you as a mirror? Can you now do this for yourself – in relationship to everything in life? A part of you says yes (you’re moving) and a part of you still says no in the dream, and that’s the part where this guy comes in and starts going through the closet.

So that’s the neurosis. I mean, you’re still not quite fully believing it and so you’re still having to go and sift through the evaluation forms in the corner, as if there’s still some sort of reality in its own separate, distinct way.

See, in an emptiness, in a state in which you lose yourself, there’s no evaluation left. I mean, there’s only an evaluation left when there’s the idea that things are separate and distinct, i.e., you have to look at something over here, and then you have to look at something over there, and there’s a distinction. But you only see these distinctions when you’re looking at reflections of the truth, not the real truth, because reflections take something out of the flow of what is real and they suspend it out.

As a reflection is suspended out, it’s almost like a motion picture on a screen. It’s set and fixed. Then, if you relate to the image that’s set as if it’s real, and that’s how you approach and react to things, then you have to evaluate that setness. There’s no aliveness in that.

If you go back to when the image was first created, all the aliveness exists there and it’s fluid and it changes and it correlates and it relates and it includes and intertwines, but the projection itself doesn’t do that. The outer world we see and experience is such a projection.

So if some part of you is coming into the office and grabbing forms for evaluative purposes, that’s the set quality trait that’s still there: some aspect of you is still taking the reflection as literal. So you have to contend with that aspect in you – there’s still work to be done.

The key to this dream is that you have two energetics going on, and you have to try to feel the both of them. You have to feel the energetic that has the bravado that’s able to recognize that it does have this independence and freedom and linkage and connection upon which it can fall back and be okay.

And then you have to feel the part that still has to knee-jerk and go through a reaction in some sense, and then has to evaluate where and how all of this is and what it’s all about. That part is the part that’s still working with the outer reflection, as opposed to an inner essence.

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