Forth and Back

In today’s dreams, John explores two sides of a fundamental issue in life: connecting to things that haven’t yet been connected to, and realizing that aspects of our past may no longer serve us energetically. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well I was talking to J, I was telling him how I discovered how to have these meditation dreams, why something didn’t work yesterday, and then he explained to me why it didn’t work in terms of how I had been during the day.

Then I kind of pointed out that this stuff can happen anywhere from if I start meditating at 10:00pm or something I can come out of it anywhere from 11:30pm to 3 o’clock and the whole thing was more profound when I come out closer to 3 o’clock.

But somehow or another I inflect it inside. I felt the spark inside that when I said 11:30pm it was almost like I had tweaked something, but sure enough that’s when I came out of this is 11:30pm. And when I come out of this sort of thing later, it’s easier to pull out. It’s always hard to pull out because you have to be there for a longer period of time to catch up with it.

Anyway, what I wake up with from the meditation dream, is that I can tell that what I am seeing isn’t yet complete. In other words, maybe if I’d have dreamt more and whatnot I would have gotten it to more of a completeness, but it isn’t yet complete. And I know that I need to come back at another time to realize or catch up with the missing enfoldment, and when I do this I’ll be focusing and figuring out what it is that I need to take in to realize a completeness.

So what is missing is a connection to something I have yet to reach or experience. That’s the meditation dream. It’s a little bit esoteric.

What it means is I am in the precarious position of possibly having to contend with that which is not yet complete. I mean, that’s dangerous because how do you know how to cope then, because you haven’t pulled enough of it through to have any proper conscious comprehension.

And so if I don’t pull it through, in other words, if I’m not able to somehow or another figure out how to contend with that which isn’t yet complete, and instead fall into the precarious position mode, I won’t progress. What I’m seeing as an image is I’m not functional or complete with how I need to be, in terms of how I work with this aspect.

In other words, if I carried it deeper inside I could find it, but I came out at 11:30pm. I tweaked it. It’s almost as if I could predict I was going to come out of it at 11:30pm. I felt the inflection as I was describing this. In the meditation dream it’s almost like this counter reflection back was, pay close attention to what you dream about tonight.

In the dream there’s a huge barrier that I am able to see that looks like a sharp mountain peak that juts out into life. I see it as a problem for others, but it’s a nonexistent issue for me. It has no affect whatsoever upon me. And I see why it’s an issue for others.

In other words, it’s an issue for people that smoke, and I have never been a smoker, so I don’t have that kind of issue to contend with. That isn’t a barrier for me, and as a consequence for a smoker to be able to wake up they have to go through this huge process that I never would have to contend with because I never smoked, or they have to have their lungs pumped at least once a year or otherwise the aspect of the density of the smoking is overpowering to their being.

In other words it kills them. So I reflect about how ambivalent I am in that I can see this, I suddenly see this almost as if I had never noticed it before because it has no effect on me what all. And by noticing, I create a problem, a subtle one, but still I create a problem because now I start to wonder about something that I had never even given the foggiest thought about whatsoever and that is what about the ambient smoke from the atmosphere.

I’m taking it in even though I am not a smoker perhaps. That causes me to have to learn a little bit more about it so as I’m making my inquiries about such a barrier, which seems to be a major problem for people but is actually a non-issue for me, but still I am curious or something.

I found myself talking to a couple of people who are taking in, who are gathering up, and redistributing to others in need various books that they have acquired through kind of a donation process that exists. And they are packaging them up to send them out.

Each book seems to have an intended recipient. To begin with I kind of glance at these books, I find this to be an interesting process that’s going on so I glance at these books as they are being packaged into a box for shipping. I kind of find it very fascinating, the kids books that I glance at, because I know this is going to bring a lot of joy and happiness to the recipients at the other end.

These are smaller books, and they are written very simply and are going to be very easy to appreciate. Suddenly, right at the very end, almost as if you are almost topping the box off, is a very large book that gets placed in the box.

This book is a concise depiction of the collective works of Carl Jung, and brand new it sold at a price of $450. Then before it got donated it got marked down to $69.50, and then finally to $40. In seeing this, it’s like I realize that, wow here in one book it has concisely gathered up the essence of Carl Jung.

So when I see this then I’m thinking that I could take it in, because I know that ordinarily looking at Carl Jung in this way and that way can be a monumental undertaking, but this has a codify at its essence. I offer $69.50, and then I am told that the book has a home it is to go to, and another person who is there, because they could probably use the money to help get other books that can be distributed or something, said I could have it for $450.

I protest because I point out this is too much, that’s the new book price and when I’m offering to pay $69.50 this is still more than the $40 that it finally got marked down to before it was donated to them.

 And then I wake up.

The significance of the book is… I wrote this up because the book is significant and then the rest of the dream is important to. It’s in an area of an interest from my past. It’s therefore nice to have, although I doubt that I will ever need it for anything anymore.

This same feeling exists when I examine myself more closely in relationship to the sudden impulse that lurched out in terms of this Carl Jung thing. It’s as if like some sort of past flicker note gets hit by this, and to-the-point book that makes Carl Jung easy to assimilate but deep down I know I no longer need it, and do not have the time anymore, or the reason anymore to see if there’s anything that I may have missed or need to go back and refresh myself on or anything like that, as if I may have missed some need to know or something.

The meaning of the rest of the dream is I am noticing the state of free flow freedom that I have in an area that is a major problem for people in creation. This issue has no hold upon me whatsoever because I am not a smoker.

In other words, I am not tied up in this kind of limitation or density or barrier. So I do not have to contend with practices others have that are needed to help them contend with the issue. In other words, they have to look at the books and stuff like that. They have to try to go through the motions. They have to learn things.

I just have to make note that because I see this, I have to be careful because I can be affected by the ambient nature of just that as a sight even though I don’t carry the brunt of the issue. There is, however, nothing I need to know because vibrationally I carry a knowingness inside that is sufficient.

There is nothing there for me to review or discover. I came or am prepackaged, okay, I don’t have to go back through any of that. It’s in the past, even though in the present, because of the way things are in the dense outer I may not be seeing it as succinctly as I am inclined, because of the outer capacity nature of things in which you can have the little tangential gaps.

The deeper meaning is this is a dream that explains why it is that I cannot go back to what had been an energetic interest, not all that long ago, in my overall beingness because I have taken in all that I need in this capacity. I just need to be present with it.

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