An Inner Quiet

We begin with a chase dream and segue into a dream with men hiding under the bed. More often than not, such unnerving dream images are the result of an inner resistance, as our unconscious guidance is trying to give us greater access and connection. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I fell asleep in the chair last night, before I even went to bed, and just had a brief dream. And in that dream it started out I think I was visiting with my ex, talked with him briefly, but then I wanted to kind of get away from him, but I knew he was going to pursue me.

But I got a head start and I decided the best thing was to go into some buildings that were across the way. The thing about these buildings was they were three or four stories tall, but the outer walls are gone, so that when you look at the buildings you see these rooms, and they have a lot of people in them, and so you see what’s going on in all of the rooms.

But I figured if I got a head start because there were so many people and wearing different colors and moving around in all the rooms, I could kind of get into the building and kind of hide amongst the people, just kind of thread your way through people. And once I did that if I had enough of a head start he wouldn’t know where I went, so he wouldn’t be able to follow me. That’s how it started out.

John: The thing that’s interesting is that this is a building that under normal or ordinary circumstances is translucent or something, in that you can see in the building and the people and everything inside of it, which means you have kind of a sense or an awareness through a perception and a sight that you have. If something isn’t bothering you, you’re able to take in this sight. You’re able to basically see everything that is there, without there being something covering it up.

And so what’s interesting is the catch-22 that’s going on is that in hiding now you’re going to try to hide amongst them. And so you’re letting go. In being affected by something like this, you’re actually letting go of a quality that normally sees everybody. It doesn’t matter about the building or anything. Ordinarily you can just naturally see them.

And now you’re taking and disembarking from that which you can just straightaway see because something is bothering you. It’s like you’re dropping your connection or linkage that can just twine and see things, and acting as if, because something is bugging you, or bothering you, or chasing you, or affecting you, that you can just then disappear amidst all of those people. Yet a moment before you could just naturally, from the outside, see.

The dream is like showing you that when you take and steer off or zoom in or take upon yourself any kind of motif or mannerism, however that might be, and in this particular case it’s a mannerism of something that’s chasing you or bothering you or trying to disturb you, that whenever you accept that that’s possible, or find yourself reacting as if you’re being affected by something that has a power or authority or concern over you, that is bigger than you, then you veil yourself. That’s when you lose the overallness that you already carry.

So you basically start off having incredibleness that gets compromised by the fact that something is bugging you. So the dream is there to show you that you can actually carry yourself in a state that loses, this state loses itself when things get to you.

Jeane: Then I’ve gone on, and I’ve gone into a room and I’ve gotten up on a bed. It’s not my room; I’ve gone to visit a friend. And it’s kind of an open room. It’s like you come in and there’s a bed to the right and it’s a wide bed, and I get up on it and it feels like if you went to the end of the bed, at that end of the room, there’d be some people. But there’s a friend of mine on a bed, a woman friend, and I want to talk with her.

And there’s also some people that are under the bed. The people under the bed are some men, and I’m talking to her and then I show her this little bottle I have, just a little transparent bottle and then inside the bottle there’s another even smaller container that is probably just three or four times wider than a needle that maybe contains something, some elixir or something, and then I don’t know what else there is in the bottle.

As I talk to her about this and the person under the bed finds out I have the bottle, he starts to come out. Well, he’s somebody that tends to engage in sex acts with groups of people, I think, and he thinks I have something in the bottle that enhances this or something, or for some reason he sees that as an invitation. But I kind of tell him no, to go away, because you and I don’t do that. We don’t get involved in those group scenes or something.

So, those were the dreams I had last night.

John: The fact that something comes out and bothers you and gets your attention, that is under the bed, is like something that’s repressed or dormant, that isn’t being taken into account, that is in the equation of your overallness, that has to run its course, or be lived out, or absorbed, or in some fashion met or dealt with.

But I’m not sure that I grasp this, on-the-bed kind of scene. What’s going on again there?

Jeane: I just went to visit with a woman friend of mine and then I was showing her a little bottle I had with other things in it.

John: And why were you doing that?

Jeane: I don’t know, I just was. I was just telling her about it.

John: I see it now. This is like dreaming about something that Shah would call the esoteric school of Sufism, and what the esoteric school of Sufism is it’s a quietness inside yourself that is able to hold a space, and not reveal what it is actually experiencing inside.

In other words, it doesn’t go out of its way to project what it recognizes and sees from within; it has adopted a lot of forbearance. When you travel with Shah, you notice he doesn’t teach, yet when he’s teaching he teaches, and why the difference? Why doesn’t he maintain a constancy as you’re traveling with him where he also would be communicating or showing or portraying something?

That’s because he carries that in a hiddenness, and you have to go into that hiddenness, or that quietness, to see that. So what the dream is showing you is that, if what you carry you feel you have to portray, or show, or reveal, and you go out of your way to do that, and the bed scene is like something where something kind of falls asleep or wakes up, and so you’re doing that as a means to try to help something wake up, to elicit an understanding, to cause an understanding to occur.

When you do that, what you are still not getting, by thinking that you should do that, is you’re still thinking that this is the way that you respond to the outer. Because everything that you see has an inner quality, but then that has an outer garment, and the outer reflective garment you think that you can respond to, that you could show them something, or that you could help them in some capacity, and that they then will get it. And if you try that and if you do that, you set off reverberations. You set off something that lies dormant underneath it all like under the bed.

It’s kind of like this, you’re experiencing inside of yourself a quality of a vibration that has a fullness, that you can embody and carry. And you attempt to portray it, where you feel it needs to be shown or portrayed, which is not a tendency or characteristic that you do readily. It’s more of a thing that I might do.

That’s why I find it amazing you would dream something like this, because when you do, you actually defeat or hurt yourself in some capacity because you’re not maintaining it with a quietness that is within. You’re not maintaining the silence of that space.

And so a teacher, such as Shah, only speaks and only talks and only teaches and only reaches out when he can create the greatest linkage and connection at the same time. In other words, he doesn’t do it in isolated circumstances. He may advise a person, or guide a person, but he doesn’t teach at that point in time. He only teaches when there is a setting in which there’s a safe place, and it’s invited, and a space has been cleared for that to happen.

Yet we, as we develop this kind of consciousness, can have the tendency to think that we need to lay that out, or portray that out. And if we do, we find out that we are acting as if this is what is needed to create change, or cause something to change in the outer, or our perceptions of something or someone, which is an aspect of the outer.

And we’re not really then communicating from a center of our being that is a quietness, that permeates. Instead, when we go out of the way to noodle over here, or noodle over there, instead of in a proper setting, that’s when we cause things to come out.

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