Yesterday, we saw Jeane’s efforts to incorporate an emerging higher essence into her being (see Taking in the Essence). In her subsequent dreams, the struggle continues: a cake hasn’t been fully cooked, the road is out ahead, and the fish aren’t fully mature. Each image takes her a step closer to the deeper connection. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: There are three or four just little glimpses of the dream. One is like I’ve gone further into the building and down to another level where there’s a tavern, and it feels like there’s a lot of people sitting at a table, or coming to sit at a table where I’m sitting, that almost looks like a high school reunion, or different classes from my high school.
There are some people I would really enjoy talking to but it just doesn’t feel like they come over. It feels like I just remain an observer.
John: This brings to mind a person who is a natural observer, and sits back in a quietness, and doesn’t even know that that’s quite what he’s doing. He’s just developed this as a type of politeness and he hasn’t caught up with how that observing is actually more meaningful in a deeper way.
And in observing him this way he actually is catching up with the quality of the essence in just the reflection, and therefore it has a meaningfulness for him. But he doesn’t really quite understand that principle yet. It’s his means of getting closer to something at a greater value or meaningfulness, and in doing so, letting go of the apparent or obvious, which goes nowhere because it’s just a reflection.
And that’s like being able to see a bit of the inner essence, instead of the indulgence of things that most people partake of. And so that’s what’s going on in this image. You’re standing back and trying to watch. Watching is a high function compared to indulging, because watching has a quality and characteristic about it whereby you can see something meaningful etched into a process of life that is what makes things click and reflect from an inner point of manifestation. In other words, from an innerness that then has its outer manifestation that is reflective.
Jeane: Then I’ve gone down to the ground level and I’ve gone into a room where maybe people have left and there’s a few tables and I’m sitting there with a friend. I’ve asked the gal who’s waiting on us to bring me a piece of angel food cake.
And she’s someone who is very pretty and a couple years behind me in school. She still looks like she did in high school, and she brings me a piece of angel food cake that isn’t really fully cooked. It’s fallen. You know how those cakes can fall, so it’s only a couple of inches high when it should be seven or eight inches high, and the batter is still kind of damp in the middle.
And so I tell her that won’t do, that it hasn’t really risen, it hasn’t really cooked fully, and she keeps trying to argue with me that we should eat this cake and I keep insisting that no, it’s not done. She doesn’t really understand what an angel food cake should look like.
John: It’s interesting how you use the play angel food cake and then take the angel food cake to show that there’s something gaunt behind it that’s meaningless, that’s flat, and then there is something that can radiate and depict something that feeds you or resonates a Wholeness.
It’s interesting you take an image like that, which you can incorporate plays on words – angel food cake – and then have the deadness of that, which is just of a reflective emptiness offset by something that gives it the vibrancy or an aliveness. Your telling the dream causes me to think a lot of horror movies or something in which you have something that is like dead that moves around and it’s like a ghost or something that does robotic things that are unconscious, and like the risen dead.
Then I suppose you could counter that with something that seems healthy and alive and is reflective, basically of an aliveness, but if you really knew how to look at that you’d be able to see the angel quality or the essence that’s the difference that exists in this equation as opposed to the other being a caricature only, which is seen operating without any consciousness. What you’re doing is you’re taking the angel food cake and somehow or another you’re using it in a symbolic way to reflect between something which has a conscious essence to it, to that which doesn’t.
Jeane: In the next little scene I’m trying to get somewhere, and it’s dark. It’s night and it feels like there’s been storms because the roads are kind of washed away and rutty and you’re not sure how you can get there.
I’m coming from down below at an angle and I have to go down through some woods. I don’t know if I’m on a horse or in a car; it’s not clear to me. And it feels like it’s too dark and too much has been washed away so I can’t go that way.
Then I see I can take this road up to join the main road, which still is kind of washed away but there’s a whole bunch of cars lined up and I look and I see that they let this car that’s up there now, they let it in, so I feel like if I go up there they’ll let me in. It’s still going to be kind of a hard trek on the road because of the conditions.
John: What you’re doing is you’re not taking the energetic in a way in which you’re creating an image that rises out of the vibration. And what you have as a vibration is something that’s like a downer or a doubt or something that takes away the energetic linkage or connection. I mean, this could come up and you saw me talking about something yesterday, or maybe it was the day before, where my energetic got to the point where I seemed to be bombarded because I was in a space where the world now approached me, because of that energetic-lacking quality I was carrying. I now drew things that reflected that same kind of predicament or pattern – and we do that.
And so that’s what you’re doing with this dream, is you’re looking at the distinction between an energetic, which has something lacking in it in which the result is traveling in this one particular way in terms of the reflections, versus an energetic in which you can take a different plateau and route.
And so in its deeper essence it is causing you to recognize a quality of a hiddenness inside of you, that I guess is best described as an auric lilt or something, that just kind of when you’re in that particular space the reflections around you come closer to the essence of that particular space in terms of you being able to see them. When you lose that, then you get hit by reflections that are denser and more awkward that kind of help keep or facilitate you staying removed from an inner unfoldment.
Jeane: In the last scene I’m meeting with some people at a houseboat, and it feels like on a lake or something. It’s finally daylight, and I walk away from them a minute and it feels like one wall of the houseboat is more glass, maybe a glass door and glass next to it.
I walk over and I look down and I see a single fish kind of like a trout, but not a completely mature trout yet. Even though it’s kind of larger, it’s still kind of dark; It doesn’t quite have its color. I’m just seeing that single trout and then I suddenly look off to my right and I see a whole school of trout, but they still all look like they’re not quite ready to be caught. It’s not like they’re tiny. They’re six or seven or eight inches, but they don’t feel like they’re big enough yet to really catch. I just notice that there’s a whole school of them. They don’t have their rainbow color yet.
John: Fish depict a kind of consciousness in which something is able to resonate and shine through. And so this dream fits with the other dreams in which you’re struggling with how it is to catch up with something that is behind the scenes of wherever you find yourself at, that is the true essence or aliveness or angel food quality of what really exists.
And so in the final image you have is you see yourself in an image, in other words you’ve created this image by which it reflects out to see yourself, almost as if you’re looking at how you’re doing in terms of waking up.
And you can see that you’re consciousness first of all, it’s unusual for a fish to be in this area, let alone a whole school of fish waking up, or being there as a reflection of consciousness, but that being said it’s still incomplete because the fish haven’t quite taken on their full connection with the light that they can take on, or the rainbow resonance that they can have that makes them truly magnificent in that they radiate the essence of an inner beingness.
They’re still dark, they’re still in the formative stage, but the dream is depicting that something is afoot that is emerging. To see a scene like that is interesting because it shows that at least you’re not just straightaway identifying with what lies directly in front of you, that you’re realizing that within everything that lies directly in front of you, is something that is formative from the other side, or from the inner consciousness, or as a consciousness or as an innerness coming into fruition.
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