John’s dreams challenge him to not procrastinate in his pursuit of deeper inner levels. Reaching new levels of inner connection requires a person to push beyond the personal resistances that limit, or veil, access to greater knowing. A consistent inner focus can merge consciousness with what is important in a process. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: In my dream I deal with instead of an overallness, I have to look at it in detail of how something unfolds, in other words, the particularities. If I can abide by the particularities I might be able to be involved, or work with, a greater Wholeness.
And those particularities have to do with seed thoughts and images that come down on many levels, and that I have to be comfortable with all of those different levels. For the feminine there’s a way of just letting go, and all of those levels can just be there. The masculine impact, or effect, in all of that has it taking and looking at how those various levels have to be included, or recognized, or taken in simultaneously for something to unfold in a bigger way.
In the first dream, I’m compelled to prove that I can still answer assignment questions for a class that’s going to happen tomorrow. In other words, it’s in the evening, and I think I had better things to do so I could put this off, but I’m out of time because this is apt to happen tomorrow and if I don’t deal with it now, it won’t get done.
The hardest part is getting started, or addressing the first issue right at the beginning. And so, whenever something is pent up like that, you’re never sure that you can take it on or get through that challenge. It’s almost as if it becomes a force that, by not facing it, becomes an even larger barrier.
When I did do this, however, and I got through it, which was the first part of a three-part thing in front of me, I feel I am entitled to a rest or a break. And so in trying to convince myself that I’m entitled to this, I act as if the rest can wait, and so it’s time for a break before I tackle the rest.
I had the resolve that was pent up at the beginning, and after expending that resolve, I could have easily justified or rationalized a break, but somehow I keep persevering. And to my surprise, I get through with the rest of this stuff far more quickly than I would have expected.
It’s like the hardest part was just getting going at the start. I found the last question to actually kind of be the easiest in that to answer that I had to look at it from the perspective of three different levels. And so on each level there was a one word answer, and it required that I take in each level’s energetic and, in doing so, could feel that, could merge with what that was about, and respond accordingly.
Now each level of course has a different frame of reference, or vibration, that makes up an aspect of the environment. So the answer to the last challenge, to prove that I have it in me to face this issue straight up, or vibrationally, as necessary, the first thing I do is I write down one, two, and three, just like first grade, second grade, and third grade. I then provide one word answers for each level and, in doing this, I prove to myself that I had this access.
Meaning the hardest part is confronting a problem that lies directly in my path. Putting it off weakens me, and I remain unready for what is to come. It isn’t enough to prove that I can get through the first phase of a task, I must keep on persevering or I will not pull it all the way through as needed.
In other words, if I push through, and prove that I can make it happen in a timely manner, in doing that I’m able to see how something actually is, energetically, and I’ll add or reach to distinct levels of consciousness as opposed to just sitting on a given particular level of happy-go-lucky easy goingness, and pressing on because this needs to be done before tomorrow’s class because something is apt to come up in which this will now have to be included as part of a process.
I surprise myself at being able to see what lies on these other levels of conscious existence, which is now actually also a part of the process that I’m in.
And then in another dream, I have something before me that has value and meaning. What I do not know is from what point in time it is, and who was king back then, who was leader of the country back then?
To know this is to access a barrier that stands in the way of appreciation and acceptance, which is a type of merging. At first I am at a loss and then someone gives me a hint by providing what turned out to be a good guess about who it was, and what era of time this is from, because I have no way of knowing if this is right.
Once I have the hint that it’s not necessarily what I think, to get to the bottom of it I have to take a look. To do that I have to shift into the point of inner reference that corresponds with the object’s place and time. I determine that Pendragon was indeed the king or ruler when the gold was coined and in so determining awaken that awareness and bring it through.
So in this dream and the prior dream, I am compelled to find a focus that is from an inner depth. In doing so I penetrate veils, which have a way of keeping me from reaching other inner levels of awareness.
In the first dream it would be easy to stop to take a rest, or in the second dream to make a best guess. I can identify the issue or questions required to reach, as a focus, something on the inner, but before I can access the answers I have to merge with that inner space, and in doing so, shift to a knowingness that comes from these different levels. It’s automatic. It’s actually very simple. The hard part is breaking through whatever stands in the way of making that shift.
The meaning is I need a consistent focus, which merges my consciousness with what is important in a process. I can’t get wayward or complacent or I will stifle the process, and I must be focused even when the timing is off. If I get scattered or self conscious, the energetic connection also can shatter. Whenever I get like that I must reconnect to an inner composure and, when necessary, start again. Only in this way can I help in the facilitation of a process.
I can’t have an opinion about the flow, or that will get in the way. I have to be surrendered to be fully attentive and inner connected with the system and, of course, I can’t be indulgent in the system either.
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