Today’s dreams are a continuation of the images discussed in Action and Reaction. As the scenes shift, Jeane finds herself alienated and on the verge of entering a dangerous part of town. But by reconnecting to her breath and inner guidance, what first appeared as menacing becomes the guide that leads her where she wants to go.
As in life, when we trust in creation, we are always in alignment and will end up where we are meant to be. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: It feels like, I know that in the background there’s a theme of talking with people about the breathing process, and that I was involved in that from the very beginning, but other people don’t know that, and I don’t necessarily tell them, but I have connections because of that.
There’s also the process I’m kind of waiting for the timing to get the speedometer right. In the middle of all of this, I think this is where I kind of drop you. I go to some resort where a whole bunch of people are meeting, and they have breaks from that meeting, and first I kind of scope out the resort because it has several levels on it where people meet, it even has a tavern area that’s in a rougher neighborhood somehow.
As I’m going through different levels, on a break to find out where to eat, it’s like I go to one table…
John: You’re fast forwarding and speeding up, and actually realizing that what you’re doing is traumatizing you. Your higher self is kind of catching up and realizing, in the dream that had affected me, in other words, you’re absorbing that. So now you’re realizing that even in this area it’s ridiculous that you’re falling for this stuff, and going through what you’re going through with the spiders.
So, you’re kind of catching up with this now. You actually deep down know that even this area is something that you have to be okay in, and you can’t make an exception or something in this area, and that’s why you’re coming back to the breathing, you’re coming back to a resort in terms of inside of you, and then I’m not there because you’re absorbing it.
Jeane: When I’m at this resort now, it’s almost like a break and I want to go make a connection around eating. And I go up to a long table and Middle Eastern women come to sit at that table, and I want to sit in the middle of them, but they don’t really want to sit with me. They want to sit and talk with each other.
That bothers me a tiny bit, but I just keep moving on, and I don’t seem to settle at any table, and then I go up to another level and I go into a room and I must have disrupted them a little, there was a group of maybe four Chinese men that looked like teachers that were sitting on the floor in a circle and one of them, I must have bumped him slightly, and he left the room for a minute.
I excused myself and one of the other teachers asked me if I knew who he was. I said I didn’t, and then he comes back, but they expect me to leave. I guess they thought it was rude I didn’t know who he was, and I guess I was thinking he was a little rude that he was a teacher and he cared about that sort of thing.
It didn’t seem quite right to me. So I’ve left that room and it feels like about this time, not having found any comfort in this whole area, I’ve gone down to the very bottom level and I walk through a corridor where there’s kind of food that they sell out of little stalls, and that’s interesting, but I go all the way to the tavern and there’s something about the tavern that, even though I don’t settle there, I feel more comfortable.
John: What you’re doing is when you make a certain adjustment or advancement, inside of yourself, where you link up with something that you now grasp or understand, it’s like you fast forward and you kind of shift, and everything around you in the collective doesn’t necessarily shift with you.
I mean it could, it should, eventually there’s a space inside of you that can accommodate that, and help facilitate that, but it’s not at this point in time necessarily shifting with you.
The teacher is you, in a roundabout way. First of all, you’re not quite accepted anymore, and therefore the teacher can’t really quite be the teacher. In other words, you’ve shifted and therefore the degree to which you think you need to be perceptible and graspable and recognizable, you’re kind of by yourself.
Even if you sit at a table, for example, it just doesn’t quite pull itself together. You’re alone at the table. The others are still in their bibble-babble or something, and as a consequence there’s a gap whereby the actual effect of your presence isn’t… well, they’ve excluded you.
And to the degree to which you see yourself even excluded, meaning a type of groundedness can still be there in a simplistic way that holds back a certain quality so it doesn’t disturb, to the degree to which there’s this distinction stuff going on, there’s a degree to which there’s this teacher that doesn’t quite work.
That teacher is you, that doesn’t quite work on that level of getting something that can come across, which would naturally come across as a type of force of nature.
In other words, in our dreams, we’ve had two types of forces of nature. We’ve had one force of nature in which it disturbs things, and almost like well, okay, that’s just how it has to be because that’s how a force of nature is.
Well, when it’s like that you’re causing something to suffer, and you’re suffering. And then you have another force of nature in which you actually get it, you recognize something, and then that then alienates you from the normal collective of things and, therefore, the fact that you’re alienated means you’re no longer properly plugged in to creation, and therefore the teaching can’t quite happen. The teaching is like what, a teaching to yourself, or you as a teaching to the Whole?
Jeane: So anyway, I’ve gone down to the bottom level where there’s a tavern, and I walk along a corridor before the tavern where they have little stalls where they serve food and I kind of look at all of that.
I get to the tavern and I know in some ways I’m hungry, but I just can’t seem to settle. I may even pick something up because I know I’m carrying something in my arms, but I’m not sure what it is, whether it’s food or whether I’ve still got the speedometer, I don’t know.
I’m not being quite comfortable settling in the tavern, even though I seem to make a connection with someone there. I go outside and it’s dark out, and there’s snow all over the ground, and that area is a dubious area of town and I start walking across to where I want to go, and then I get a little confused about which direction to go and I start to go down one way and some kids that could even be like teenagers that could be little hoodlums or something kind of start jiving or talking to me.
They’re walking in the dark too, and you don’t know whether to feel threatened by them or not because of the way they tease you, but they cause me to turn and go a little different direction instead. And I realize that even though they come across like they might be threatening, they’re actually, through their little teasing, directing me in the right way.
The other way wouldn’t have been the right way to walk. It would have been not only in a rougher section of town, but it just wasn’t the right place to go. Then they’re kind of walking a ways behind me, but it’s like they want to look like they’re menacing, but they’re actually kind of getting me to go where I need to go.
It feels like I walk across the snow to some area where I get into a boat that’s going to take me where I’m going.
John: In the other part there was still the food too. That part is understandable, you’re not quite able to integrate and be with the people anymore because of some part in which there’s a gap in terms of how you relate and therefore that cuts off the inner teaching process too when you find yourself alienated.
What this is doing is, the reason why it was so hard for me to follow it before, was because the dream carried a sensation with it in which the heart started to dance. The heart started to dance because what you’re doing in the dream is, even though you have a few hiccups and whatnot like where you can quasi deviate, you now have a perception that knows how to hold the course.
In other words, when you go out there and you see yourself following a particular flow in a particular direction, as soon as you start doing that, the heart opens up and is kind of dancing in a joy inside, but then you meander off with these hoodlum alley kids or whatever.
In other words, now the little deviations aren’t as loud because you have caught the cadence of something in your heart. You have caught the cadence instead of it suddenly causing and creating a cloudiness that fogs over and chokes you. There’s almost like a rejoicing, or a joy, that has been reached as a type of breakthrough – so you hear that.
You somehow hear that. You somehow know that. As soon as you broke through you set in motion that, so that if you go down an alley and you run into kids and whatnot, it’s like they are all part of streamlining and shaping this sort of thing.
In other words, it’s like a step back in order to take two steps forward again. Normally that might be a whole other episode to have to contend with, but now that all works – that is all pulling for you. That is all working in terms of what is unfolding.
Technically, instead of taking it personally or something, with regards to the previous image in which you were not able quite to partake of things because you had put yourself into a place that was not hearable, and therefore you weren’t hearable to yourself, and therefore nothing could be taught or recognized.
You somehow or another got back to the timing, got back to the depth, knowing that you needed that as an underlying schematic that had been laid out at the beginning. You went back to that, and then took a step then in terms of going deeper inside of yourself to follow a flow.
In other words, instead of fighting the situation, you realized how there is a flow, you followed the flow, which means you transcended all of that as a barrier to yourself. And as you followed the flow, your heart started to dance and a joy started to open up.
You noted that on some subtle level inside yourself. Maybe you didn’t quite finger it or point it out to yourself, like a masculine would be inclined to suddenly perhaps recognize, but it became like a type of tuning fork because then when you’re presented with a kind of barrier obstacle, it actually is part of the path of the process.
The process is to go with the flow. The process is to not try to command or demand something. If one does, then one doesn’t have the flow. If you were still uptight in the prior image, if you hadn’t realized that there’s something more, so the teaching could continue, and the connection can sustain itself, you would have been in bad shape around the hooligans.
But instead you recognize how the hooligans were part of your play, part of the integration, part of the spiritual path.
So in your dream, you took and, in a roundabout way, created an image of inner and outer coming together, because you had an inner unfolding, and then all of a sudden you had this outer nuance running into the hooligans, and then all of a sudden, yes, they helped you.
It was a heck of a dream with a lot of action going on.
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