Month: March 2013

Return to the Path

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field-with-pathToday’s dreams are a continuation of the images discussed in Action and Reaction. As the scenes shift, Jeane finds herself alienated and on the verge of entering a dangerous part of town. But by reconnecting to her breath and inner guidance, what first appeared as menacing becomes the guide that leads her where she wants to go.

As in life, when we trust in creation, we are always in alignment and will end up where we are meant to be. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: It feels like, I know that in the background there’s a theme of talking with people about the breathing process, and that I was involved in that from the very beginning, but other people don’t know that, and I don’t necessarily tell them, but I have connections because of that.

There’s also the process I’m kind of waiting for the timing to get the speedometer right. In the middle of all of this, I think this is where I kind of drop you. I go to some resort where a whole bunch of people are meeting, and they have breaks from that meeting, and first I kind of scope out the resort because it has several levels on it where people meet, it even has a tavern area that’s in a rougher neighborhood somehow.

As I’m going through different levels, on a break to find out where to eat, it’s like I go to one table…

John: You’re fast forwarding and speeding up, and actually realizing that what you’re doing is traumatizing you. Your higher self is kind of catching up and realizing, in the dream that had affected me, in other words, you’re absorbing that. So now you’re realizing that even in this area it’s ridiculous that you’re falling for this stuff, and going through what you’re going through with the spiders.

So, you’re kind of catching up with this now. You actually deep down know that even this area is something that you have to be okay in, and you can’t make an exception or something in this area, and that’s why you’re coming back to the breathing, you’re coming back to a resort in terms of inside of you, and then I’m not there because you’re absorbing it.

Jeane: When I’m at this resort now, it’s almost like a break and I want to go make a connection around eating. And I go up to a long table and Middle Eastern women come to sit at that table, and I want to sit in the middle of them, but they don’t really want to sit with me. They want to sit and talk with each other.

That bothers me a tiny bit, but I just keep moving on, and I don’t seem to settle at any table, and then I go up to another level and I go into a room and I must have disrupted them a little, there was a group of maybe four Chinese men that looked like teachers that were sitting on the floor in a circle and one of them, I must have bumped him slightly, and he left the room for a minute.

I excused myself and one of the other teachers asked me if I knew who he was. I said I didn’t, and then he comes back, but they expect me to leave. I guess they thought it was rude I didn’t know who he was, and I guess I was thinking he was a little rude that he was a teacher and he cared about that sort of thing.

It didn’t seem quite right to me. So I’ve left that room and it feels like about this time, not having found any comfort in this whole area, I’ve gone down to the very bottom level and I walk through a corridor where there’s kind of food that they sell out of little stalls, and that’s interesting, but I go all the way to the tavern and there’s something about the tavern that, even though I don’t settle there, I feel more comfortable.

John: What you’re doing is when you make a certain adjustment or advancement, inside of yourself, where you link up with something that you now grasp or understand, it’s like you fast forward and you kind of shift, and everything around you in the collective doesn’t necessarily shift with you.

I mean it could, it should, eventually there’s a space inside of you that can accommodate that, and help facilitate that, but it’s not at this point in time necessarily shifting with you.

The teacher is you, in a roundabout way. First of all, you’re not quite accepted anymore, and therefore the teacher can’t really quite be the teacher. In other words, you’ve shifted and therefore the degree to which you think you need to be perceptible and graspable and recognizable, you’re kind of by yourself.

Even if you sit at a table, for example, it just doesn’t quite pull itself together. You’re alone at the table. The others are still in their bibble-babble or something, and as a consequence there’s a gap whereby the actual effect of your presence isn’t… well, they’ve excluded you.

And to the degree to which you see yourself even excluded, meaning a type of groundedness can still be there in a simplistic way that holds back a certain quality so it doesn’t disturb, to the degree to which there’s this distinction stuff going on, there’s a degree to which there’s this teacher that doesn’t quite work.

That teacher is you, that doesn’t quite work on that level of getting something that can come across, which would naturally come across as a type of force of nature.

In other words, in our dreams, we’ve had two types of forces of nature. We’ve had one force of nature in which it disturbs things, and almost like well, okay, that’s just how it has to be because that’s how a force of nature is.

Well, when it’s like that you’re causing something to suffer, and you’re suffering. And then you have another force of nature in which you actually get it, you recognize something, and then that then alienates you from the normal collective of things and, therefore, the fact that you’re alienated means you’re no longer properly plugged in to creation, and therefore the teaching can’t quite happen. The teaching is like what, a teaching to yourself, or you as a teaching to the Whole?

Jeane: So anyway, I’ve gone down to the bottom level where there’s a tavern, and I walk along a corridor before the tavern where they have little stalls where they serve food and I kind of look at all of that.

I get to the tavern and I know in some ways I’m hungry, but I just can’t seem to settle. I may even pick something up because I know I’m carrying something in my arms, but I’m not sure what it is, whether it’s food or whether I’ve still got the speedometer, I don’t know.

I’m not being quite comfortable settling in the tavern, even though I seem to make a connection with someone there. I go outside and it’s dark out, and there’s snow all over the ground, and that area is a dubious area of town and I start walking across to where I want to go, and then I get a little confused about which direction to go and I start to go down one way and some kids that could even be like teenagers that could be little hoodlums or something kind of start jiving or talking to me.

They’re walking in the dark too, and you don’t know whether to feel threatened by them or not because of the way they tease you, but they cause me to turn and go a little different direction instead. And I realize that even though they come across like they might be threatening, they’re actually, through their little teasing, directing me in the right way.

The other way wouldn’t have been the right way to walk. It would have been not only in a rougher section of town, but it just wasn’t the right place to go. Then they’re kind of walking a ways behind me, but it’s like they want to look like they’re menacing, but they’re actually kind of getting me to go where I need to go.

It feels like I walk across the snow to some area where I get into a boat that’s going to take me where I’m going.

John: In the other part there was still the food too. That part is understandable, you’re not quite able to integrate and be with the people anymore because of some part in which there’s a gap in terms of how you relate and therefore that cuts off the inner teaching process too when you find yourself alienated.

What this is doing is, the reason why it was so hard for me to follow it before, was because the dream carried a sensation with it in which the heart started to dance. The heart started to dance because what you’re doing in the dream is, even though you have a few hiccups and whatnot like where you can quasi deviate, you now have a perception that knows how to hold the course.

In other words, when you go out there and you see yourself following a particular flow in a particular direction, as soon as you start doing that, the heart opens up and is kind of dancing in a joy inside, but then you meander off with these hoodlum alley kids or whatever.

In other words, now the little deviations aren’t as loud because you have caught the cadence of something in your heart. You have caught the cadence instead of it suddenly causing and creating a cloudiness that fogs over and chokes you. There’s almost like a rejoicing, or a joy, that has been reached as a type of breakthrough – so you hear that.

You somehow hear that. You somehow know that. As soon as you broke through you set in motion that, so that if you go down an alley and you run into kids and whatnot, it’s like they are all part of streamlining and shaping this sort of thing.

In other words, it’s like a step back in order to take two steps forward again. Normally that might be a whole other episode to have to contend with, but now that all works – that is all pulling for you. That is all working in terms of what is unfolding.

Technically, instead of taking it personally or something, with regards to the previous image in which you were not able quite to partake of things because you had put yourself into a place that was not hearable, and therefore you weren’t hearable to yourself, and therefore nothing could be taught or recognized.

You somehow or another got back to the timing, got back to the depth, knowing that you needed that as an underlying schematic that had been laid out at the beginning. You went back to that, and then took a step then in terms of going deeper inside of yourself to follow a flow.

In other words, instead of fighting the situation, you realized how there is a flow, you followed the flow, which means you transcended all of that as a barrier to yourself. And as you followed the flow, your heart started to dance and a joy started to open up.

You noted that on some subtle level inside yourself. Maybe you didn’t quite finger it or point it out to yourself, like a masculine would be inclined to suddenly perhaps recognize, but it became like a type of tuning fork because then when you’re presented with a kind of barrier obstacle, it actually is part of the path of the process.

The process is to go with the flow. The process is to not try to command or demand something. If one does, then one doesn’t have the flow. If you were still uptight in the prior image, if you hadn’t realized that there’s something more, so the teaching could continue, and the connection can sustain itself, you would have been in bad shape around the hooligans.

But instead you recognize how the hooligans were part of your play, part of the integration, part of the spiritual path.

So in your dream, you took and, in a roundabout way, created an image of inner and outer coming together, because you had an inner unfolding, and then all of a sudden you had this outer nuance running into the hooligans, and then all of a sudden, yes, they helped you.

It was a heck of a dream with a lot of action going on.

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Action and Reaction

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action_reaction_2In dreams, as in life, when we have personal reactions to events that we are involved in, it sets us off down a certain path. Here, Jeane’s dreams show how reactions can throw us off balance and introduce elements that become harder and harder to manage. How life unfolds is not up to us, but we can determine how we process those events, especially if we remember that everything is intertwined. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My dreams last night were really complex and were all over the place. I had one dream that just kept going on and having all of these shifts in it.

Wherever the dream began, it felt like I had a couple of things going on, and one of them was it seemed important to be fixing the speedometer of the car, but that was a very complex thing because it was almost like a speedometer that a person was carrying around inside them. And it had to be done in the right place at the right time, and I had to kind of stay with them until that got done.

John: That right away is setting the tone in terms of portraying the theme in which the theme has to do with a type of timing, in order to stay in sync with how something is intended to unfold.

Jeane: There’s the one thing going on in the dreaming with that, and it seems like at one point I even take you to the hospital for some kind of operation that you need, and I’m involved with the doctors and I don’t like to be very far, and it feels like the speedometer is still there inside you somewhere and I’m having to keep that in mind.

I have that going on, and then there is this secondary theme that develops in the dream…

John: That dream is showing you the reactionariness, the unhealthiness of the reactionariness. I’m used as an example of that, so to speak, in you, in terms of you know how to hold a balance, a nature that lets things just be and can stay more observing in it and let it hang out.

But then you have that reactionariness that has to do with quibbling with the speed, and the unfoldment of things. Even though I see things sometimes and speaking of myself personally, even though I see things I still get carried away when it actually happens, because in one sense I think I have to plug myself into the action. But it’s better to be completely totally neutral like you are recognizing, or otherwise you’re going to suffer and get ill, get whacked, get sick.

Jeane: Then there’s a secondary theme going on that I seem to have connected with people that are involved with a certain process, or way, that you breathe, and connected breathing to release things. And these are people I’ve known from my past, and I’m connecting with them and that process is getting brought and linked into whatever is going on also with the speedometer and a surgery that’s going on.

John: So what you’re doing there is, is this happens automatically, like if you have some sort of reactionariness over anything that’s out of cadence in your nature, your breath is effected in that exact instance. That is why the word choking comes in and the energy goes to the throat, or there can be the heart hitting the floor because you’re shocked by what happens and, somehow or another, it’s not supposed to happen to you.

In other words, your breath is in cadence with that so if you get emotionally distraught or get all discontangled or jumbled, it immediately goes to the breath. It’s not like there’s a delayed effect or anything like that, so if you’re aware, or attentive, with the breath, you always are in sync with what is going on, as it is unfolding, in terms of a connection that you uphold or maintain from within.

Jeane: And then, in terms of reactingness the other thing that goes on is that there are two other dreams or three that get entwined in there, and all of them just seem to go from… They are all intwined, that’s all I can say.

In this one, I’ve gone with you to meet some family, your parents, and then there’s a little sister too, and that whole scene seems to take place in just a couple of rooms, a kitchen and a bedroom with bunk beds.

Your parents sleep on the top bunk bed, and when we’re in the kitchen it feels like there are these spiders, and there are these two spiders that come along that look kind of like mop heads, and your sister even kind of steps at one. And I know that the part of the dream that I most remember is that I go into the bedroom and I insist your dad go out because these spiders I feel he should kill these spiders. I mean, they don’t look right.

They look more like mop heads. They’re that big, and they’re that sluggish, and even though I’m not sure they’re going to do anything, it’s like he’s the guy, he needs to go take care of the spiders.

And then I see another little spider up on top of your mother’s bunk bed, so I won’t stay up there. I tell her – she would have just left it alone – but it looks to me like one of those little ones that could bite you, so I kind of insist she get rid of it.

And then you and I, I think, sleep in the lower bunk, but then the dream is like off and running again with all the other themes kind of intertwined in it.

John: So what you’re doing is, first of all, you’re setting up at the very beginning, the stuff that shows reactionariness or qualities to which you’re trying to hold onto a cadence or a mannerism, and hold onto it with the breath, and to hold into it with a certain balance.

First of all you laid out the chronology of what takes place, and how one goes off is kind of laid out. Then, at the very end, you point out the area in which you are most susceptible and vulnerable in terms of holding a certain line, or mannerism, and that is an area in which you have included into your world something that you have taken on.

Well, this is kind of hard to see. In other words, I’m in your world, but in some sense you have the understanding of how to hold a certain balance. In other words, you know this stuff in terms of how to hold a certain balance, in terms of how you need to be, if you are looking at something, if you take responsibility for what you are able to see right at the beginning.

In other words, the introduction of this stuff as a schematic, and as a process, which you need to adhere to, which flows from within. You’re given the blueprint, so to speak. This part of the dream is showing you the one area, and is showing you a very specific area, in which you somehow or another are making an exception to the application of this knowingness.

And that is when it has to do with something that is happening to me. Somehow or another you’re buying into that as something that’s affecting you reciprocally, as opposed to realizing that, even in that area, you are entwined.

That is why it’s my parents, and yet your spider. In the past, ordinarily, if it were you reacting to something that is unfolding strictly from inside of you, to which you take that type of responsibility, or would like to take that type of responsibility, but aren’t quite doing or something, then it would be your parents.

But no, no, you’ve been shown, and got the memo of, how it needs to be in the first part of all of the dreaming, and now it’s happening to me, and it’s my parents and therefore the spiders. Just because it has that wrinkle, doesn’t mean it’s any different.

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The Dynamics of Life

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man1The past two posts delved into the territory of groundedness as a way to connect to creation, as triggered by Jeane’s dream (see As Good As It Gets and Touching Creation). Here, the images in John’s dreams touch the same ideas from a masculine perspective, pointing to the importance of operating in a grounded way, yet incorporating the speeded up aspects of higher connection. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My dream starts off almost seeming absurd because I keep looking at very grounded scenarios, and first of all I described it as I dreamt about the trait of being rooted and grounded.

First of all, I start off where there’s kind of a recruiting at a college campus of those who make the best players on the football team, and I’m looking at it more from the perspective of comparing colleges and why does one college have a better football team than another college?

That’s the one scenario. In another scenario, I’m observing a recruiter employer who places people in a workplace, and how do you place a person in a workplace so that what can happen happens in the best way, in a focused way? In other words, what constitutes a groundedness and a work ethic in a workplace that is rooted and stable?

First of all, in the dream, I’m just observing this campus scenario, and I actually see it from the standpoint of a football team that’s really, really basic, and focused, and grounded and plays within the context of themselves. And essentially they have the field covered by not becoming over the top in terms of how they are.

And so the other school is a school that has more euphoria, more hoopla, more pizzazz about their nature, yet when you put the two together, yes, the pizzazz once in a while can really shine and shine bright, and that which is stodgy and basic can look stodgy and basic, but that which is stodgy and basic that can accept, and can work with, and can contain the energy of that which is speeded up, can stay rooted and grounded and within itself and take into account the greater Whole.

What I saw was like the game was played, and it was like closing seconds of the game and the team that’s all speeded up, and has this pizzazz, and the whole fastness to them, suddenly gets this long breakaway going. And it’s not going to make any difference, because the game has been won by something that has stayed very basic, and solid, and grounded.

It wasn’t at all flashy, but rooted, and they knew how to play in the trenches. Anyway, this breakaway play happens, and that which is very basic and grounded and rooted stays basic and grounded and rooted, and even though this breakaway play looks like it can go somewhere, it can’t because that which is very basic and grounded and rooted, even on the breakaway player, has defensive players always in place down field to stop the breakaway. And if it was two teams playing with pizzazz, then obviously one breaking loose like that the other wouldn’t be grounded enough to stop it, and you would have these big flashy plays.

You actually have this dynamic, when you think about it, you have this dynamic set up in life. You have this trait that everybody admires, and that’s the ability of a quarterback to pass and make the big plays, and go pushing up and down the field, but you don’t really have a championship team if you don’t have a ground game, if you’re not rooted in being able to grind it out.

It’s not at all flashy. It’s not at all something that creates the outward memories, the glitz that everybody likes to race and get caught up in, and yell and scream about, but over the course of taking and putting those two forces together, you find that the basic stodgy football team, the ground game team, has a lot to offer.

Now, if it has both things going for it, both the overdrive and the rootedness and the groundedness, now you’ve got something that’s truly, totally exceptional.

And so what I was looking at, of course, wasn’t both traits. I was just looking at the one trait. I was looking at the trait of something that stayed within, and played within its means, and didn’t get euphoric and carried away, and how that tended to stay stable and steady and have things covered.

What I kind of wrote is that a school that goes for the flashy type, extrovert player, can look good and appeal to the speeded up observer even that thinks that maybe this is what it’s all about, does not do as well, over the course of a season, as the team which is contracted in its focus to doing the job at hand, which is very basic and rooted and grounded, and staying stable and steady.

Then I take this into the workforce, and so it’s like I’m somewhere out there in the factory and then there’s the recruiter employer who passes through and brings in people that he puts to work.

I’ve developed a habit of being able to spot the person, as they come in, who has a strong work ethic mannerism in their nature. In other words, is capable of being grounded. There are always those who have the nature that’s just putting in their time, and would rather maybe do something else, or be somewhere else, and you can see those as not being necessarily a solid worker, but employers can’t discriminate, so they bring out the various ones that need to be placed and look around to place them.

And the employer comes out with this one person, and I could tell he instinctively knows that if he places him near me, that that’s not going to work because this guy is off the ground.

Actually, it’s not with me, but with someone that I know, and I’m even suggesting that maybe he be placed there and this guy knows better. Then he kind of winks and indicates he’s going to be placed over here, which is more with someone of his nature and kind, because if you place him with somebody that’s grounded and rooted he will destabilize that. He will break the focus of it. He will bust up the space of that.

I even have a way of being able to feel and tell, and if they have just one part of themselves going, and especially if it’s the speeded up part, you don’t want to have anything to do with this person because they can never ground out. They are always going to be off the wall. But if they have the two parts going, they have two components, then there is something amazing that can happen.

I’m noticing the characteristics in various settings, as part of looking at what causes a person to evolve in a grounded, practical way. You also find it in the setting of a campus where a school that has a good program has a lot of pride about that. They put a lot of heart in something like that. They hold something like that as having value.

A school that’s all about the grades, and the appearances of the flash and the glitter generally has a poor athletic program. And the school you want to go to for the most solid and basic and practical of educations, is not a school that’s all speeded up like that, but the school that actually is rounded and best portrays this roundedness by actually having a certain respect and honor for its athletic teams even.

So this is a rule of life that is imperative in all regards, and I am comparing the trait as an essential quality that functions best if it is overlaid over an expansive Wholeness, which recognizes the big picture. But the big picture is recognized by the grounding it.

Many people who have a larger overall perspective cannot ground the energy for all to see in the outer, or in creation. That overall perspective just stays too off the ground, too transcendent.

To the degree they remain conceptual, always reaching out in a driven capacity that cannot hold a space, and are readily excited over things, these are people that tend to not be able to get any job done in a basic way.

In other words, there’s always something else, there’s always something else, they’re always looking to something else, so things just kind of continue to slip by them, and they continue, in other words, to miss what is really going on, that is in creation, which can tell them so much more.

In other words, they’re not applying themselves in as focused a way as they can, which a focused way is a thread to that inner linkage.

This is actually also a quality that has gotten lost in America. The Native Americans naturally carried something that was rooted to a groundedness and basicness of life, and the white man came along and he attempted to try to make it all about himself, gaining control of this and control of that, and treating it as holding and having and possessing something, and the Indian recognized that you couldn’t possess anything.

An Indian would walk away from land if it didn’t serve a definite distinct purpose for that, at a given moment in time. If it didn’t serve the purpose, then it was meaningless for him. So then, in the face of a white man, who felt that just holding on to it, and grabbing it, and possessing it was nine tenths of what was important, he didn’t have a chance.

So a white man usurped everything, but he lost the heartfulness. And the Indian tries to hold onto the heartfulness because it’s the heartfulness to the Great Father that is capturable and recognizable by the way creation feels to the Indian, and it’s importance, which actually is what is more real – but that is not where we put our value.

We put our value in this whole raced up sense of accomplishment, of establishing something that stands out. An Indian quality nature is more one of trust and to try to get them caught up in the white man way is unnatural for them, and they actually crack up and fall apart because they do not get caught up in that. They stay very rooted and basic.

So something of the divine gets lost in this speeded up quality, and something of the divine only goes so far in the Indian who is subjected to the abuses of the white man. You have this dynamic, and this play, going on again where there is a type of desecration that takes place.

For me only when I ground the energy in a more compacted way, and am able to reconcile and see the faster side of life as well, am I able to excel. Otherwise I have times when I am off the wall, and can’t get things done, and other times when I am so focused on things I do not appreciate the big picture in which I am part.

The purpose of the dream last night seems to be to show me that I must never lose a groundedness if I am to be effective in creation. It’s through the rootedness you see the qualities of the creator, in a groundedness in creation. You don’t see it in the aspiration.

It’s like a paradox. The paradox is that you actually somehow or another get to this quality of something so much more, but you don’t get to that quality of so much more by focusing your attention as an aspiration towards it, and leaving everything else behind.

You get to it by something that opens up inside that creates a greater appreciation of life, and a greater connection and touching by life. And it’s the touching of life, and the getting into it, and the feelings that well up inside with the nostalgia, with the memories, with the trust, with the faith that comes through from somewhere else.

That is what pulls you forward. That is how you catch up with something way bigger than yourself. But you don’t catch up with something way bigger than yourself by trying to go directly at that which is way bigger than yourself – you only get lost.

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