Jeane’s dream begins with an energetic run outdoors, but quickly verges on catastrophe as an earthquake occurs. What makes a dream image devolve quickly into chaos? Well, in this case, it centers on an internal imbalance between masculine and feminine energies. Masculine energy can act as a trigger, but the feminine needs to be able to contain the energy of what has been triggered, otherwise chaos can ensue. Here, Jeane seeks to re-balance herself in the company of feminine energy. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: In my dream when it starts out I think I had missed my boot camp the day before, so it’s a weekend. I’m living with my family and I decide I’m going to go out running on my own.
I go out and I see some other people from the class there that just like to run because there’s no class that day, it’s Saturday. I start running, and I’m able to suddenly just jump over these small, almost like piles of twigs and stuff, and bushes.
Somehow I get to where I’m just really running and I can jump over these and I go over along the side, and then I go way out almost like on a cliff. And I get out there, and I’ve even climbed down a little, but then I see that this area that I’m on is kind of mossy and that it cuts out underneath.
And then I’m not sure I can get back up on my own, and I could even slide and fall way, way down to some rocks and water, and I see logs in the water so I would hit something. So I’m kind of staying still, and a man comes along and he kind of even stretches out so I can grab his hand, and he’s going to pull me up because I have to be really carefully how I get off this cliff.
Well, just as he’s going to do that, an earthquake hits, and I can see way up behind him where big rocks are falling off – so I just figure I’m a goner. But then this huge tree falls, so I start sliding down the cliff. This huge tree falls such that it’s almost like I can either slide or walk down the tree all the way down across the water to the other side.
None of the rocks that fall hit me or anything, and now I’m on the other side, but down below, so I go over and at some point I find this city that has kind of been built into the rocks. And I have to start climbing up on the outside of the walls in the city. And as I get up, because I keep climbing up because if the earthquake hits this city it would just cave in on itself, but it seems to be holding strong.
Right before I get to the top as I’m climbing up it’s almost like one of the homes that’s built inside this cliff – like there is this whole city inside in a sense. A door opens and there are a couple of women there and they have actually made a whole table full of sandwiches, and I think they’re probably making sandwiches because the earthquake is hitting and they’re going to want to stockpile some food for themselves.
But no, they offer me one so I just take a little corner of one. They’re cut into fourths. I just take a little bit, and then one of the women invites me to another room to lay down for a while, and shuts the door, and we make love, which is a real strange experience because I don’t think I’ve ever made love with a woman before.
And then afterwards it’s like her… she actually has a partner and a girlfriend. She didn’t quite want them to notice this because they might get jealous. Then after that her partner comes into the room, and it’s like she’s even brought us something, some tea or something. Suddenly we go outside and we’re all sitting there.
And the other partner shows up and she has a pot plant, or the leaves of one, and they want to know if I want to either eat… I think I take a bite of it, but I tell them I don’t really smoke things like that, or I don’t take drugs.
It’s time for me to get on my way, so I start walking now and I realize all I’ve got on is this long shirt that comes just above my knees, but it doesn’t seem to matter because I’ve been in the earthquake. It’s kind of a silvery shirt, too. If somebody looks at me I just kind of shrug because after all I’ve been in the earthquake and this is what I have to wear now.
And then I come to an outside area and I’m still trying to figure out how to go home. And I look down and far away on the water I see a speedboat with my dad in it, and I wave. I don’t know if he can see me though. I think that’s when I wake up.
John: This is a very loud dream. In the dream, it starts off with you accessing something inside yourself, in which you actually go over the top, in which you, by the efforts and whatever it is that you have done, that you suddenly are able to do everything better than ordinary or expected under typical circumstances.
You’re able to jump over things and that sudden sense of freedom sets in motion, it’s almost like too much energy for the situation of yourself, and so it sets in motion this whole reactivity. You have a greater influence on your surrounding environment than you realize, and when you get like that, and especially as you get more and more connected inside, so that you have more and more sense of freedom, and the obstacles in the normal mannerisms in which you’re restrained, or slowed down, no longer are dominant, so that you then can have a more direct influence upon things in the outer.
Which, to begin with, is like suddenly the usual resistances aren’t there, and you’re able to do things with a certain dynamic. But there’s an importance to the sense of balance, and the sense of order, and the sense of going through things within a kind of container.
Your energy has bolted out, and it’s now discombobulating the environment, setting off these earthquakes and landslides and all of this sort of stuff that almost engulfs you. You have a few lucky breaks because it’s like this has happened, but something… it’s not meant to destroy you, it’s meant to cause you to recognize that you have to be able to take in what has occurred.
Now, this disruption and whatnot that you did, if you think about it you did it from a breakthrough that had to do with you having an acuity to push through things, and that acuity to push through things, to have a focus that could push through things, and have a certain freedom as a consequence of pushing through these things. That’s a masculine use of energy.
So now you’re needing, and feeling that you need to take that back, you need to catch up with that, you can’t be like that, that’s too much that came rushing through all of a sudden. And it if it’s going to have that kind of an effect, you’re disturbing things.
So you go to a place, and what was interesting about this place is, in this place you are attempting to find a rest, or a balance, relating more to the feminine side of yourself, relating more to bringing something through in terms of the feminine, and it kind of works that way.
It’s just that you’ve got this in some sort of correspondence that’s not smoothly one to one. In other words, the effect of something of the masculine comes in and touches something in creation, and usually creation is able to respond, and take that into account, and handle it with a certain degree of balance and composure.
But in this particular instance, that which came in, which gave you the dexterity and the freedom to lurch about more casually and readily, was over the top, and caused a disruption, caused the earthquake, caused an upheaval, which meant that it wasn’t received with a balance in terms of the feminine.
So now you’re trying to figure out how to find that balance in terms of the feminine, thus the relationship with another woman to again accentuate, to bring out, the depth of feminine energy so that it can properly correspond, because it didn’t correspond initially.
Initially you raced out with a certain sense of freedom and a breakthrough that put you into kind of a preening euphoria, and had you able to conduct yourself, and act, in a way that surprised you, the way you broke through things.
In other words, you were missing the class within yourself of taking this stuff in natural stride, and so, having lost that ability to do this in conjunction with both above and below, both inner and outer, both expansive and contractive, or however you would say that, being able to carry that with composure.
You’re going to an extreme that lacks the composure in terms of how to carry this, which seems okay on the surface, but is too much for life and causes things to be disturbed, which causes the landslide and earthquake and all of that sort of thing.
And so you don’t mean to do that, so you then go back to the depths inside you, and find how to open up something in terms of your greater ability to absorb or to handle this.
You go back into a house like that in which now the feminine composure is accentuated, and then when the feminine composure is accentuated, then you’re able to go, and move about, in life again, in keeping with the father because you see your father in the distance.
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