An Insatiable Motion

mandala-09In this dream imagery, Jeane is observing containers on a ship, as a reference to the separate way we tend to view the universe around us. In the process of development, through letting go of the barriers of personal ego, we begin to see and feel our connection to all things. In other words, we are working toward a state where we only see the connections of things, not the separation between them. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in my first dream, it feels like there have been container ships that have been loaded and then transported something, somewhere, and then when they get to this new place they have to be unloaded. But on the ships there are certain people who almost kind of blend in to the containers, and you feel like certain of those people, one or two of them, get left behind with the containers. 

It’s almost like when the containers leave, or they’re shifted, those people are going to slide off somewhere, or they have to stay with the container, just one or two. And it feels like I’m kind of going back and observing that, and studying something about it, wondering if that can change.

John: You’re talking of a particular kind of use of energy, because the feminine takes on the whole of creation it serves its purpose as a receptacle of the overall, in which that overallness is embodied in a kind of subjective way.

In other words, you come to see this about yourself as this stuff flickers, or as objective or masculine energy touches the equation of things. You come to recognize that your mannerism is not that. Your mannerism is this subjective state that goes, and seems to have to be, from place to place wherever you find yourself, and can be a little different from one ship to the next.

And what you’re seeing, and what you’re looking at is, instead of being a container that takes in the overallness of everything that exists, you’re like a kind of container that takes on the particularities of a stage of the process. 

In other words, you are like, and you see yourself as, a motion in that regard, like a container ship, and that as you see yourself opening up, or unfolding, in a way of taking in what needs to be taken in, that you have to hold onto that.

In other words, it’s as if there’s a type of confusion that exists in which deep down there are many, many things going on yet, but the things that are going on are in a container-quality way, of which you have a way of embodying in this mode, and embodying in that place, and in this motion.

And the problem with that image is that it’s accurate to the point to which you are consciously developed, but inaccurate in terms of the Whole, because you are actually as big as the universe – your container takes in everything that is as big as the universe.

And so the seed thought for last night, there were two seed thoughts for last night, that you could say applied to your situation and to mine, you doing it in a feminine way and me doing it in a masculine way. And the first seed thought, and the shallower of the seed thoughts, is to follow the thread wherever it might lead.

Well, for the masculine that has to do with going through experiences and process that it can’t indulge in and has to keep moving in terms of experiencing, and on and on and on it goes.

But for the feminine, it involves finding the fact that it is a receptacle that has a means of recognizing and realizing, inside of its nature and self, that which is hidden and dormant, that is latent, that is natural, and part of the feminine embodiment in creation, to something beyond the beyond, that is in this microcosmic state as well, but also reflective of everything beyond the beyond.

And to begin with, you realize you have limitations because you’re not able to perceive, in a container-quality way, through all of the levels that there are. In other words, you aren’t opened up to taking into account all of the states that there are. And so you are tending to see this container-quality energy that you carry as factored in some way.

It reminds me of something I experienced in my 20s, in which I could go into a type of a focus that could be influenced by the environment. And if I applied myself, I could see what was going on at that point in time, in its minute variabilities and characteristics, in terms of each person that was in that environment.

And I realized that the surmises that I made at that time were accurate, but only accurate in relationship to that state, and that if you change the state then they could be inaccurate, or that there would have to be something more that would have to be included.

And so my perception was always based upon the way the present was, and not in the way that something could change, or evolve, or be different. In other words, I could be true in that moment, but untrue in another moment. And in that regard, it was like a type of container energy, but with the masculine way of probing and unveiling. And all that I would unveil would be within a particular set schematic, or overallness, of which my access to the overallness was limited based upon the condition and state that I was in, and the environment at that point in time was in.

And so, both what you’re doing and what I’m doing reminds me of this, and the limitation that this has is the deeper seed thought that was also part of what was going on last night, which is that there’s nothing but nothingness.

Which means as long as one perceives themselves as having to be, and open up, and therefore resonate with, and take a responsibility in terms of, and shift and adjust accordingly, as a vessel of containment, as a ship that goes about from port to port, a little disjuncted from one container ship to the next kind of thing, based upon the variabilities of how things change and are.

As long as one is doing that then one has a type of obsession in this regard as well that keeps you from hitting a letting go in which there’s nothing but nothingness. Or, from being able to relax into the fact that the end is present at the beginning.

What you’re doing is you’re just acknowledging what is opening up as a type of presence awareness, container-wise, as if each epiphany of awareness, in your overallness, is distinguishable from the next.

It’s like that, and it feels like that, and it continues like that for a long, long time, because when you’re only experiencing or relating to life in a certain quality way, as if you are accessing it only through certain levels, with each level being a different container ship, but ultimately in the Wholeness of nothing but nothingness, it is all one big container of everything in the universe, and then you sit in this state of emptiness.

But on the path towards that, you seem to have what is like a kind of compelled nature that has to contend with this demeanor. The reason one would have a dream like this is so that you could sense and see that this is what you’re doing. This is what it looks like on an inner level, where you can actually come to grips with what that denotes, in terms of effects, in terms of the way your attention is drawn and your impressions are formulated, so that you can see that this approach gets in the way of the nothing but nothingness.

It doesn’t mean to get in its way, but there is a certain obsessiveness in being able to be a receptive container in a greater and greater way, in terms of this and in terms of that and holding onto it.

And if it were true and always like this, as a state from state to state, meaning container for each state that there could possibly be, then there would never be the great overall station of nothingness, in which you are everything. And in order to reach that, in order to experience that, at some point involves having to let go of all of the differentiated states in which you have a role of container energy, because you can actually take and have a kind of accountability that way on all the various levels that you become familiar with.

But ultimately because we have lived in a life, a universe, in which the levels seem to be distinct from each other, but the levels are coming together, and so ultimately in order for there to be a true nothingness, all of the levels must intertwine, intermesh as one. So that the container quality energy that you’re emanating as a manner of your being, that you have to be and have to embrace completely, does that in such a way so that there is this emptiness and nothingness.

Otherwise, there is always going to be a type of motion. When you have container energy and the container energy fits a scenario here, and a container energy fits something there, and something there, and something there, and something there and you see yourself subjective in that regard in each of these various states. That’s a type of insatiable motion. It still is not the stillness upon which it all blends and flows together.

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