A Natural Attentiveness

a-Spiritual_AwakeningIn this dream, John finds himself in a cafeteria, sitting next to a man who has a certain effect on him. This effect has to do with an attention and consciousness placed on our outer circumstances. When we are removed from such attentiveness – caught up in our own world – we lose an opportunity to have a positive impact on our environment. Spiritually, it is our responsibility to be aware of what we add to, or subtract from, the world around us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My dream starts off with a thing that I probably spent 15 minutes or longer writing up, and all I was writing up, and I knew it was going to be important, was the note of the meditation.

In other words, there was a particular kind of quality in it, and I should have known that by writing up this sentence, which makes sense if you are Nietzsche trying to understand something deep, I suppose, but to the ordinary person the sentence is a little bit much.

But the dream then, that comes about after this, tends to break it down, in terms of its depth, just by it having the inflection within the dream. And so the sentence is: The vibrational resolution to a barrier I feel, must come from an inner state of balance, in order to find within the body’s means to absorb an uneasiness standing in the way of a natural orderliness.

That’s a mouthful isn’t it?

Jeane: Yeah, I get it though.

John: It’s a very deep sentence. So, in the dream, I’m in a cafeteria at a table with a person who has my attention. I guess I just like his mannerisms or demeanor or something. He’s a little quicker, and he’s a little more alert, and he’s not quite as dull and he challenges a person just for the fact that he’s at the table – because ordinarily you just check out and plow the food down and on you go, kind of thing.

But something about him draws a different kind of fascination to what’s going on. So I start off like quietly eating my food, which is some dish or something with oats in it, and we talk a bit but I’m still affected, or almost slowed down a bit, because earlier I had been at a table with family members, in other words relatives.

And these relatives were a little bit more unconscious, because they left the newspapers behind when they got up and left. They didn’t necessarily pick up everything, like you kind of do when you’re in a cafeteria. You kind of cater your tray and whatnot so you’re showing some respect for others. In a cafeteria you don’t generally have waitresses that provide that constant service – for tips and such. 

So such conduct indicated that my family members had less focus and therefore weren’t as grounded, or balanced, as what this person resonates, because he has a courtesy and mannerisms that make him more conscientious in his environment. So he’s not the type of person who leaves behind a type of inattentiveness. 

In other words, he picks up after himself when he goes from place to place and, in doing so, his attentiveness helps the environment that he’s in. His focus and demeanor is reflected to me as if I’m noting something afresh, as if I’d never had an example quite like this, that had a certain snap to it, to follow.

Because I’m sitting with him I’m learning to see the importance of the attentiveness to the environment I am in. In other words, you can kind of get a sense by his presence that that adds a quality somehow. 

In other words, to be like that one becomes more present in your surroundings and more attentive to your being – and your being of course is more than just your personal being. 

Well, this person announces that he is about ready to leave, and intends on passing through the kitchen on the way out, and in doing so he indicates he’s going to pick up something extra to take with him from there, in other words, that’s okay. 

I indicate I am not really quite interested in what he’s suggesting. It’s a reservation on my part because that’s kind of how I actually am, trying to stay off to one side and a little out of touch or inaccessible. And the reason I’m like this is I don’t want to really let go of my space, which has this shut down reservation, and therefore it isn’t as together, in terms of focus, and thus I’m not as attentive as he is. And I explain or rationalize this conduct, to myself that is, as not wanting to be beholden or something, or get too close.

But as circumstances should be, as he is about to leave, I find that I’m also finishing up at the same time so we can use the same tray, which again is a type of more conscientiousness to the environment and others, rather than having to bus two separate trays. 

And in leaving I realize that it’s an opportunity, as I leave with him, the tray will hold it, is to go ahead and clear off the table next to me that’s empty where my family members had sat – because I didn’t sit with them, and put the newspapers and other things that they’d left behind onto the tray, to kind of clear and clean all of that up.

And that also by doing that refreshed me in some fashion. Another person who sees us leaving is curious about what it is that we’re entitled to as we pass through the kitchen. And I comment that it will be “oats,” and I accentuate the comment to show that there’s a different understanding of the food now, as I point out that even though these oats can be looked at as kind of a metallic or metal kind of thing, as an energy kind of thing, it will be oats the food not oats the metal.

And I suppose if you were to think of where one would get such a peculiar analogy of something like that is sugar as a food thing, taken on qualities sort of like that, in that sugar can be used both as food and also the energy and the quality of the sugar itself can be transformed or made into energy.

Something metallic is a kind of energy, and something that is a metal is usually a condensed energy that can serve a more basic overall purpose. And something that’s just pure food is something that’s a waste-able asset that needs to be used up. So we’re talking about both properties, both the property of something that is a speed and an energy, and also something that functions as a food that serves at both levels simultaneously.

The meaning of the dream is when a person is attentive to their surroundings, they have more magnetism and are naturally more attentive to who and what they are in life. The mannerism, or Adab, keeps one more in tune with their space that they’re in.

And also it rubs off on others that are around you in the environment, and facilitates a kind of rapport that wouldn’t otherwise be possible. It’s like it opens things up, like he can pass through the kitchen and pick up something that normally you would never think of.

An obvious effect that rubs off is that I can better appreciate and accept the food that I am eating, and the energetic value it bestows, simply from having opened up a higher degree of natural attentiveness than ordinary, where you just kind of go through the motions. And thus its value to creation is more recognized and noted and brought through, as well as its importance to the sustenance of things.

If I had not had the benefit of this new friend I would have taken things for granted, been sloppier in my outer mannerisms and gone through the motions of eating as being something necessary rather than a conduct that is needed. 

So the theme thought is the sentence I wrote to capture a vibratory state in my meditation dream, and the underlying vibration therein is accentuated with my sleep dream last night. This one long sentence is hard to understand, in and of itself, but gets drawn out in terms of its depth by this dream.

Which again is, to repeat that: The vibrational resolution to a barrier I feel, must come from an inner state of balance, in order to find within the body’s means to absorb an uneasiness standing in the way of a natural orderliness.

And of course it’s a kind of Adab, and that’s how I was able to see that your process was also an Adab, was also a type of responsibility in the way you need to be that is natural for you. It’s not necessarily an Adab that I carry, but it’s something that you have access to that is part of the process of grounding things.

And by grounding things I’m talking about a grounding that brings an awareness down that others don’t perceive and appreciate, as if being brought from an inner into the outer. It’s not just going through motions that don’t mean anything. It carries a spark to it that others pick up on and recognize and see.

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