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Inner-Heart-LightJust as in Jeane’s recent dreams (see A Transformative Process), John finds himself, through a series of scenarios, working out a similar process of facilitating a transformation. Through consciousness and attention he is able to bring himself to a point where he can begin to activate aspects in the feminine that were dormant. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The sensation that I was left with in my dream is that I’m not able to overcome, or go beyond, the natural limitations of the physical – even though I push myself into it seeking a breakthrough or something.

That’s kind of like the sensation of the dreaming in which, as I was meditating dreaming so to speak, I was seeing coming up to this, and coming up to that, and coming up to this, and coming up to that, and having to fall back from it, and having to fall back because it wasn’t necessarily changing. It was flickering and flickering, but not changing. And so one could easily conclude that that meant that it was still kind of breaking down.

So then I dream that I am observing changes in the energetic flow. So I’m observing this in my sleep. What had been frozen either suddenly thaws out naturally, or is warmed up. In other words, there’s a process that warms it up. It’s affected by something. 

I see myself on top of this as it unfolds, meaning I’m watching it, I’m looking at it trying to understand: is this warming up, meaning affected by something? Or is it naturally de-thawing? First I observe that what is happening is the means by which a transition or something becomes different in the outer. 

Then I observe when this change occurs, and this is the harder part to pull out. I’m not sure that I have it right. That part isn’t clear because what’s more fascinating to my attention is the de-thawing, and whether this occurred naturally or was assisted by an influence. I seem to think the de-thawing was part of a design process, but I have no way to prove if it was natural or not.

So in the next dream, I see a release, or relieving, and experience that sensation through the following image, in other words, from them being released or relieved. A person is sitting in a chair. When they get up the chair rises up a bit, as if it’s spring-loaded and sensitive to weight. 

So I get curious to observe this process. So, in the dream, the person sits down on the chair, gets up from the chair, sits down on the chair, gets up from the chair as I’m continuing to observe if this is going anywhere. And to me it seems that, as they do this over and over, the chair seems to reset itself at – almost imperceptible, but it’s a higher and higher setting. 

So the meaning of this is by going through a process and observing the effect, little by little things change. It is in this way that creation is affected. This image is an answer to the question I had in the prior dream, which was: is the de-thawing natural, or in some way facilitated?

It is facilitated by a process in which an observation of an effect is first made. There is an up and down aspect to it. The only thing I could think of this could be symbolically pointing to paying attention of the up and down, in and out of the breath.

So I answer the question by denoting the change occurs as a process in which there is an observation of the breath. In other words, it’s not just thawing out as if it’s by accident. So the next question that arises is: why do I need this information, i.e., as to the changes designed to happen?

I answer the question by saying, “I am the owner of the property and I’m looking to pass it on.” I am feeling this is part of full disclosure, important as the image of things goes through a transition. And of course to have this transition this part of the process needs to be denoted. Or to say it in another way, I need to know what the permission is from within, visible in the outer, that has been given for change to occur. 

It’s kind of like you’re rocking pretty close to something, almost in a dangerous way, when you’re acting like that.

So, now all of a sudden I hear a voice that says (next dream), “Next time this could cause you to lose your dog.” On a symbolic level, dog often refers to a friend. 

In the image that preceded this, a woman is disoriented. There is a man who is separate from her, and I am in another place. I do something that affects her scenario and she accuses me of being a coldhearted slut. I don’t know what I did, or how this applies. All I know is she, representing creation, is in a vulnerable state in which everything is up in the air.

So this is where you have mass confusion. You have to have something beyond just the longing of the first and second chakra of the heart. You have to know something from some sense of beyond that’s inside of yourself, or otherwise you can still go around and around.

And so I make this notation at the beginning because I’m afraid of losing it, and it’s a statement that is made by the butler I think. “They have been living together for three or four months now, before we came here, so I am sure they would have wanted it this way. They picked a brick.” 

The person who is saying this is the butler of a house that a woman owns. The property manager is indicating that when I come over to the house owned by a woman, in other words, I’m there to get some sort of direction or something and I was only supposed to meet the property manager to work things out.

But the butler is also there and so is the woman off to one side, and so there’s some question as to whether this is appropriate behavior and that’s where the statement came in, meaning that somehow or another the women and I have been doing something before in another place, in other words living together for three or four months. And this occurred before we, meaning the butler and the property manager, came to work or be involved in this place.

And so the fact that we are living together, or had done something together before, the property manager, who is in between the woman that’s the owner of this house, the butler that serves in between is the one making the comments that the fact that all four of us are there, that I am sure that they would have wanted it this way. 

Now this house is something different. This house is something that occurred as a result of a transformation, and the butler says they picked a brick, which is a strange statement like maybe something ain’t right, it’s off. But then there’s the following statement that’s added, “… and to meet the woman of the place, a pregnant one at that,” because the woman was pregnant. 

So I don’t attempt to interpret that one because I know there has to be more information, plus I’m running into all kinds of peculiar images.

In this next dream, I have a woman teacher. I come to understand, at the beginning of the class, that the main grade is going to be based upon writing a thesis of some sort, and that will be your final grade.

So you go through the class in order to learn or get some sort of balance in relationship to an understanding of how to hone in on writing this thesis for your main grade. What makes sense to me, from what I am coming to perceive and understand, is to write about the inner unfolding process that I have been going through as an aspect of taking this class. 

This is honed in this area and what I’m looking to write about, that has dawned to me, is how the inner dreamworld affects the outer. I also know that this may not be as directly correlated to what is being taught by this woman in this class, could be considered different. I feel I need to make sure it’s okay, that maybe it’s different from what is expected and then I’m on a tangent because I’m addressing the inner unfoldment of things, and perhaps the theme of a teaching in the outer is that you discuss things in a more overt sense. 

So I feel I need to tell this woman teacher how it’s that I am approaching the assignment given at the start of the class. I guess I feel I need to share this because I’m not sure if this is too much, or not, and therefore too revealing. 

The scene shifts and I am in bed with this woman teacher, and she is naked, and I have rolled over on her to tell her what it is that I am doing for this brief or thesis to again concur that it is acceptable. 

In this dream I am just a student, and she is a middle-aged woman teacher. There is nothing going on between us sexually. I am just trying to make sure my way of responding to the assignment is okay. 

As I describe my approach to the project and what I’m going to be doing, she seems to get younger and I seem to get older. Her eyes get sultry. I begin to think that some misunderstanding could get in the way. 

Suddenly she starts telling me, in a voice that is barely audible, some personal things about her life. I’m not sure what I am hearing because this may be interesting, but it’s something other than what I’m trying to understand in terms of what I’m doing. 

After a bit of a spell barely hearing and not really knowing that I heard anything of what she’s saying, after this long spiel, I revert back to something that I thought I heard her say at the very beginning. And I say, “So you killed your husband.” 

Her response was, “It is just like a guy to say something like that.” I tell her, “I don’t know, I am just letting it go in one ear and out the other. Don’t mind me.” I roll back over on my side of the bed. I have gotten my answer, that what I am doing is okay. 

I am not sure what to make out of what took place, when I was only describing the unfolding process I was seeking to portray. Just this caused something to open up in a way that brought about these personal nuances out of the blue. That wasn’t anything that I was pondering.

The meaning of the last two dreams is, the dreams are portraying a process in which the masculine causes the feminine to be more open with her inner connectivity in life, and more present in her world. She reveals where she is at in response to a masculine seeking permission.

The result is a feminine able to be herself in creation, able to see herself. In other words, she’s able to start toying with it. More needs to occur because she is still sensitive to rejection, being misunderstood, and unappreciated. She can’t stay this way. This is unnatural for her. She needs to be present and pregnant with life.

Whatever it is that I am doing in trying to bring a clarity through is waking things up and facilitating a process. And then this is kind of dictated: What is happening is a transformative effect in creation in which the hidden depth rises up to reveal.

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transform3In these two dreams from the same night as yesterday’s dreams (see Supporting More of Life), Jeane moves from the idea of including more in a group dynamic, to making changes and adaptations to the circumstances. In the final image, the need to adapt includes embracing her masculine aspects as a way to be more cohesive. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: This dream, it was probably in some ways the most vivid. It’s like I’ve gone shopping with a smart looking, gray haired woman. She’s like slender and kind of dynamic, and maybe some other women I don’t see. 

Just about the time I think that we’re done shopping, this woman disappears for a minute into a high-end store, and then she comes back and I look at her as she explains she had to really change her whole thing because copper had been introduced.

Copper had been introduced. And I realize that’s so, because now she has a scarf around her neck with streaks of copper through it, and so that’s changed, like she has this kind of really slick gray looking… everything seems to be gray or black or white except for the copper, and so she’s in silver and she has had to kind of work that in now into her outfit, so it changed the type of outfit she got.

John: So you’re again talking about something being radically shifted and changed, and the thing in life that depicts whether something goes up or down, or has a quality of how engaged things are in an operative sense, is depicted by the symbolism of copper.

Copper is considered the one metal, and therefore the color and everything would be similar, that got a Ph.D. in economics, meaning that as copper goes, 8 to 12 to 16 months from it either going up or going down, is where the economy goes.

In other words, if copper crashes the economy is going to turn bad. If copper goes up, even though the economy may look bad in the present, it means the economy is going to turn around in 8, 12, or 16 months.

Copper seems to always catalytically produce this result, and it’s a thing that everyone notices and recognizes as working. And so what you’re doing in your dream is you have been introduced to a copper effect, and this copper effect means that something is changing, that a transformation is coming. And so you’re reorienting your whole way of being in relationship to what is unfolding.

Jeane: I seem to be having this dream in which I’m a little more discombobulated. This is my last dream, and it’s like a whole group of us are in a picnic area at a park, and we’re in a tent, and I even have rested with a blanket. 

It feels like the teacher comes and kind of pulls the blanket up around me and covers me up a bit, and I can tell he’s sitting not far away, and people seem to be adjusting to some change. 

Well, I have to go find a bathroom, so I get up and it feels like the first building I pass up, and then a building we can usually go into I see people are busy in there and they’re people I don’t know, so I go to the restroom. And I was just going to go in and then I realize there was this long line, so I go and get in line. It’s all women in this particular line.

When I finally get in this long line and I go in I realize that maybe because there weren’t enough restrooms, the women are using the men’s restroom because when we get in there what I see is you have to climb up a little ways and there’s a series of stalls up there, which are kind of broad stalls, and maybe there’s some way things get washed away because there’s no real toilet. There’s just a drain in the floor, so obviously all you can do is pee, and maybe there’s a little sink in them.

And one of the women is even commenting on this, and I’m trying to still figure out how you use these toilets because it’s like I don’t even see any toilet paper really. It’s a very odd kind of scenario. That’s kind of, I think, all I remember about that dream.

John: So it’s an image of a type of transformation that’s affected by things that are causing a different kind of orientation. In other words, you start off you’re like what, in a kind of a setting tent with others, but there are all kinds of other tents in the area, right?

In this camped out scenario in life is the teacher, and so from that arises this approach of having to release something, and in order to release it you have to accept things as different than your normal way of lackadaisically going at a process of letting go.

In other words, your conceptual process of letting go changes, and you have to take more into account how it is to integrate, in terms of the masculine. And that is something that puts in question the whole role of how the feminine sees herself.

In other words, one of the spiritual illusions that exist is an overindulgence in the idea that the feminine is complete in and of herself. And, therefore, it’s as if she can find what is inside of her independently, in some particular fashion. What this is showing is that the feminine has to be in a more vulnerable setting with herself and receptive to the masculine expressions and aspects of life – instead of just her aspects of life.

And, as a consequence, then something different can emerge. In other words, this is also part of a transformative process. This is something that there needs to be more dreams on, because all you do is you kind of peel the first page here indicating that it’s not all part of a feminine process of going back inside of herself.

Just like you adopting a recognition of owning more of your shamanistic qualities, and the power behind that, can easily lead to getting into a detractive state, unintentionally of course, because you’ll be getting a benefit from this, but to the sacrifice of what? And the point being is, is that you have to do everything in relationship to how something reveals itself through.

So why, why does it need to be that way? It needs to be that way because the object is not necessarily the integration of this and the integration of that. It’s to let go of everything, so that one goes into in the bigger image of emptiness or nothingness. 

Yet between the higher self and the lower self you play this dynamic that goes back and forth and back and forth, having to do with the components or the feature of what is necessary to attain a Wholeness.

I am wondering if it’s possible to get information beyond this, because what you’re portraying is still within the motif of a higher-self and lower-self dynamic, and yet that image, in and of itself, there is so much more to it that I don’t know how or where it is that you access that, other than I know that it has to do with a nothingness and an emptiness.

In other words, you have that, that takes you up to a point, you reconcile that, you transform and make a shift. But I don’t think that it takes you into what were described as the in-breath, with the third and fourth chambers of the heart.

I think it’s still working with the dynamic of the first and second chamber, in which there’s the longing, then there’s the connection, and then there’s the energetic, and then all of that has to be dropped. Your dream doesn’t show you dropping that. It shows you working with an integration.

It’s almost like a corrective, directive corrective dream because your sense is to face some qualities inside of yourself that you feel you need to more naturally acknowledge, which you may have been kind of ignoring. And it’s almost like this is saying, yeah, but also include this other part, too, at the same time. Don’t go off into an ecstasy that’s distinct from that.

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spiritual_growth_hormone_by_rozrrIn both these dream images from Jeane, she is looking at the cohesiveness of a group dynamic. As the dreamer, we are all the elements and characters in our dreams. What is being shown here is an increased ability to take on what is deemed “deranged,” which is an important aspect of spiritual development because it moves us away from trying to control or limit the world around us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The dream that was the most vague for me seemed to have people from our group in it, and about all I can say about that is that there was a lot of changing going on. It felt like the couple that lead the group were going to either be retiring, or moving a bit, and so there was another couple that was going to be taking over the group more, so they were given something that they drank, or people in the group were given something that they drank. 

It seemed to me like you and I weren’t supposed to drink that. That maybe we were going to be doing something a little different. It was all impressions. It was very hard to pull out that particular dream. 

John: Well, the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with the effect of something in a transformative way, based upon something being revealed. That which was revealed then would change the order in which something had been unfolding, that altered the process. Now it would alter the process because it would cause something to be more revealed.

How does that fit with what you’re dreaming? The dream group is falling a little bit under a different directive, which we’re not a part of, right? We’re not part of that. So, they were all imbibing in something that enabled them to function more cohesively, but we weren’t required to imbibe of this, yet we’re still part of the group.

So does that make us hidden, or does that make us deranged? It’s kind of a precursor to something, yeah. What that signifies, I suppose, needs to be explained.

Jeane: I had a couple other dreams. In one dream, there’s a group of firemen and women that have done really well working as a team, but one of them, one of the older men in the group, he’s been injured and has to go in for treatment. He’s been hit in the head quite a bit.

He must go a little deranged because he takes this pink fluid and he puts it in the drinks of all the other firemen and then that’s supposed to make them behave kind of angrier in some other way. 

And I’m out there trying to dig somebody out of something. They’re underneath me in a hole or something, so I have to get out to try to help them. That’s all I remember of that. 

But what I notice is that there’s something about the cohesiveness of the firemen that it didn’t really matter what he put in the drinks. That doesn’t seem to affect how they act because they’ve been so well trained to act as a team.

John: So they’re well trained to act as a team because they have a cohesiveness that, as you portrayed it in the first dream, is like having all imbibed of the same thing. And, as a consequence, as a group, as a quality – of which you are the group – there is a cohesiveness to be able to include, or take into account, or accept that which would normally and ordinarily be deemed to be a bit estranged.

But it’s not actually really estranged, because the group has developed a quality upon which it can see the way something is unfolding and appreciate it for what it is. So it’s almost like your higher self telling you, that what it is that we’re doing is living out some sort of process upon which all of that is taken into account, carried and facilitated by the group, which is well advanced and is able to not reject or throw out, but able to accept and facilitate, in its way, simply by not rejecting and/or seeing the mannerism to be deranged – even though under dense outer circumstances something that would be different and separate would be considered deranged, or off, or peculiar.

And, as a consequence, this approach then supports more of life. In other words, it doesn’t get too linear. And so one would then have to look at the scenario to see, why would one have a dream that’s like this?

And one could conclude that there is an overallness and a quality of yourself that has developed; you’re able to hold a note together to make a transitioning in terms of finding and reaching a greater meaningfulness.

So, this is a dream about facilitating a transition, and it’s a transition of something opening up and able to take on, and contend with, new mannerisms that ordinarily would be rejected.

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