Fractured From the Whole

fragments3In this image, John sees a large space fracture into smaller pieces. And, in a sense, isn’t that what we are, as humans, a microcosm of the Whole? Yet the imagery indicates that it is a conscious attentiveness to our natural connections – through the heart – that brings us back in touch with the oneness of everything. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My dream is not quite as laissez-faire as yours, in a sense of balance. Whenever I talk or work with anybody, or talk to anybody for any great period of time, who has their own issues that they go through, I set off reverberations, and those reverberations cut into the intertwiningness of my own nature.

And so I didn’t realize that, at the time, because I’m getting more and more impervious to a lot of things, in terms of how I hold the energy, but in order to be able to properly hold it and not lose it, I have to start being cognizant of this sort of thing in terms of how you work a certain level. The feminine nature knows how to do this better, the masculine nature likes to just pop things out.

So last night as I sat down to meditate, the connection to a heartfelt resonance of the heart within, the breath wasn’t there. Not like I’m used to, I can just sit there and just go there. I just wasn’t feeling the need, is the only thing I can do to explain it.

So the next thing you know, I kind of laid down. And when I came out of this, an inner visual that is kind of like a vision of something on another level, depicted what was happening.

The way it depicted it is, first I saw this large space that was kind of like a big triangle, and the only thing I can do to describe it, because it wasn’t an object per se, was that it had the shape of let’s say a big semi or something, because I visualized that it had a motion to it, and it moved about, and it had the shape like a big outline of a semi.

I don’t mean it in the sense of just describing what it looked like as an energy size. So, the meditation being what it was, the space didn’t get any bigger. I actually expected that if I stared at it and whatnot it could change its size and get bigger. I guess conceptually I was anticipating this to be how the inner depiction of things worked. 

What happened instead was the space got broken into a number of other totally separate outlines, a littler square, the same square but not quite as big, of which the sum total of these areas comprised the baseline heartfelt design. 

In other words, the energy wasn’t intensified or magnified. It just was splintered. As I pondered the energetic fractives, as if something might be changed, I guess I’m wondering if something had changed, or wondering how to reestablish the singular, original vibratory scope. 

These separate images could also change appearances from time to time. They could be a perfect square, they could be a rectangle, they could be just a little piece, and even though I kept expecting consolidation to reflect into the greater, larger wholeness, the changes never got there.

When I came out from this inner image, I realized I had laid down and wasn’t in a connective attentiveness. And that’s when I realized that the images I was seeing inside were reflecting this very same predicament: I wasn’t connected.

I was connected to something I could see, but not something I could be. What was going on was the outlined inner space was fractured from a vibratory focus of the connective wholeness. But I could see it, so I knew what could be, it just wasn’t.

I was seeing this inner connection as being askew, from what I knew to be when it wasn’t, and then when it was a wholeness, as an alignment of oneness. This dream or image or vision, when the wholeness is there, portrays the heartfulness focalized in manifestation.

In other words, it could impress a common linkage that way. It can’t when it’s splintered like that. Even though you see it, you’re helpless to bring the conditions together. I was aware that I needed the wholeness image as the singular vibration, and not the fractured, separate vibratory states that diffuse the wholeness, for the connective process to properly be in place.

The meaningfulness of this is, I find it interesting that what I saw within corresponded to the bifurcation I felt when I had stopped meditating. In other words, all of it’s connected. I saw the energy as having become fractured from the image of wholeness.

In other words, when one resonates, I can go around feeling a heartfulness. It’s like that’s inside of me or something. But then if I’m not feeling it, then it’s like all of it is still there, but it kind of squeezes into different pieces. I had let go of the point in time, within myself, when there was a quickened need, because there’s always the need in life – and that’s why you carry it.

And if you let go of it, or if you act like everything is okay or something, then it starts to dissipate, or split off, or loses its continuity.

The reflected variables of lesser vibratory images needing to be brought back into a oneness, that was what was divulged. That is what the image was. And the energetic conditions I saw emanated from an overall expanse.

Now, this was in that expanse. This was how I was in the expanse, seeing that energetic, because the expanse was a greater emptiness of which there was this sort of thing that could manifest or focalize something, something about the attentiveness and, in this instance, the lack thereof, to the oneness, which is intertwined, was what was being divulged to me.

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