This dream delves into the deepest levels of imagery, bringing to light the struggle of our divine nature versus our physical reality. In this, Jeane is shown that by maintaining her divine connections, and letting go of her personal involvement and reactivity, she gains a greater capacity for handling the dual aspects of our existence. In the same way, we also struggle to balance the masculine and feminine energies within each of us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: All I remember of my first dream is it felt like there was some kind of energy bound up in my whole stomach, but it was like a formula. There was like a tension or a formula that had been put there, and it’s like I have to go get the formula on how to release that.
I didn’t particularly like it, but there was a certain way it had to be released so I had to go get the formula from someone on how to release that. I didn’t particularly like it, but that was just the way it was. Then I had a second dream.
John: A person bounds up the energy in their stomach when they hold something in a worry or concerned way, and they’re already, by nature, pulling something down and through and holding it.
Jeane: Just before I woke up I had this brief dream that I’m like visiting his [the teacher’s] house and the house that he’s in was fairly small, and there are, not young kids but, you know like kids that are like in their teens or something coming and going, and he was cleaning his table. And at one point when he has walked away I reach over and pick up something and I clean a spot on the table that he’d missed.
And then I kind of almost start to apologize for it, and I said, “I’m sorry, but it’s like once I start doing something I get a little compulsive about it.” And he laughs because he’s a little bit the same, almost like, well, don’t you think I understand that? Because he can be a little the same way.
And then it seems like I’m going to go help the kids take some stuff to school, and the school is in this kind of, it’s almost like it’s in a building where there’s a meeting room in the basement of the building, but it’s not really like a school building. It’s like it’s actually built into the earth or something.
And the kids want to take some things to their meeting room in school, so I’ve already been in the room once. I get there and I open the door, but I see there’s already some kids hanging out in this like lounge room. So I back up a bit, but I just want to help his kids get the things in that room that they want.
I think there were some Christmas presents or things, plus I am trying to think about, I think I have drawn his daughter’s name for Christmas, so I’m trying to scope out what she wants, too, at the same time, because there was something she wanted that she didn’t get, and I’m trying to figure out what it is.
And what I’m doing then is the things that they want to take into the room, I’m helping pass them into the room so the boys that are there can pull them the rest of the way in. I’m doing that, rather than maybe going in to what I see as the kids’ hangout.
Then someone at the right of me they have something that’s kind of awkward, like it has to be bent to get in, and I’m kind of looking at, how do they make that fit into the room? But the boys in the room seem pretty helpful as far as how you’re going to do anything.
John: Well, in the first dream about what you do in terms of holding it like a knot in the stomach, or like an ulcer, is that you don’t have the personal involvement. That’s the way you do it.
If you have a personal identification, and you’re carrying it, and your mind is spinning and everything, then it gets all jammed in the stomach. It isn’t held properly. It works its way into a condition in which you’re not able to facilitate the connection. You tear the body up because you’re not holding it.
You’re meant to hold it in a capacity that recognizes something that is incredible at a depth. This is like a very good information dream, because you’re meant to hold it at a quality that has a depth to it, that goes into the heart. And if you strictly hold it in the body, and you’re jamming it into the body, which is what people do in the outer world is they push things, they take the concerns and the weight of things and they take it personally into the body, and it can create ulcers and stuff like that.
They’re functioning more like a human being, rather than using the divine principle of putting things and relating to things in the heart from a way that recognizes the deeper quality that is going on. And so when you’re able to put something into the heart, then when you’re cleaning something, or absorbing the condition of something, you have a meticulousness that feels wonderful because what you’re doing is you’re taking something and putting it in, bringing it to an end.
If you have this as an anal-retentiveness, and you’re looking at it as if you’re going to screw up, or be personally held accountable, or carry in other words this quality of guilt or something, then you’re not really putting it in the heart, you’re jamming it in a place that goes into this fiber and the mannerism of your cellular tissue, and it tears you up.
So a human being who pulls something of a divine light, or quality, into them is able to work with an aliveness and a heartfulness that frees themselves up. This is a very deep dream. You can take in and absorb just anything like that because you’re recognizing truly where it comes from, rather than having the neurosis and defense mechanisms of yourself that puts the blows upon the physical. And thus, when you see the deeper meaning behind things, you don’t have the negative effect getting placed upon the body.
So a person when they’re getting more conscious is learning to recognize the divine principle, the heart, and the meaningfulness behind something that is going on. And you have to know how to do that, or you have to start doing that, in order to experience the deeper depths inside yourself.
Well, to begin with, of course, you suffer because you don’t know how to do that, and you tend to take things too literally. And you have the anguish and whatnot that gets intensified. And you make your life more miserable and, in that regard, you tear the body up.
But if you take the stuff in terms of the deeper meaning of what’s going on to heart, you actually awaken and release the chemistry of the divine imbedded into matter. You release that, and it flows out, and this is the appropriate way of absorbing things.
A person who takes and knows how to experience the energetic vibration and release, or clear, that into the heart is like opening up a, it’s almost a joyous, almost a blissful thing to do. But a person who despises, or has a judgment, or a reaction, or attitude towards what is taking place, because it startles or affects some sort of personal cognition about themselves, they’re tormented. They’re torn up inside; they crack.
There is a limit to what they can take on. Their physical nature can’t handle it. So when you’re able to take something to heart in a proper way, then you’re able to give something to the depths of the heart.
In other words, you have an insight then in terms of what is needed, in terms of what is meant to awaken, and so you’re able to relate to that. You’re not guessing. In other words, you’re not acting from the standpoint of a neurosis where you feel a guilt or something, you should do this, sort of thing.
No, you in your intertwined, merged essence automatically know and, even though that dream looks like you’re talking about something separate, there is no separation. You’re relating to the interconnectiveness of something, the aliveness of the interconnectiveness and you give to that, or you touch that, which is kind of a way that the dream is, in a sense, repeating what I just said. It’s using that symbolism and that imagery to show that that is what you’re actually doing.
If you’re able to purely do this, you don’t tear the body up. You tear the body up to the degree to which you carry some sort of reactivities, or fail to bring a kind of grounding down appropriately so that it goes into awakening the centers of a Wholeness and an interconnected, intertwined nature.
It’s when you don’t do that, it’s when even though you understand that it’s when you absorb things that are over the top, it’s like say you’re trying to do something in the outer, feeling that this is a compelled duty, or something that you have to do, but it’s not coming from a depth within that is awakened, which is guiding it, but it is coming from a cognition or mental center of yourself – as if this is where you need to be placing your focus and attention, that being a type of spiritual illusion then, because it’s not linked from the intertwined connectivity that speaks through you.
Then you will tear your body up. That’s the fine line. It’s a very deep dream. What you’re doing is you’re describing the principle here. First of all, in order for you to connect and open up the divine, you have to clearly understand the difference between the feminine energy and the masculine energy. And it’s the masculine energy that brings the seed down that awakens something, that causes something to happen.
If the feminine is feeling self-conscious, as if she has something more that she needs to do, she is actually acting out of her role, and you can tear yourself up then if you’re doing that because you can then feel that you’re inadequate or something in some capacity, and start trying to do masculine things.
So the masculine that awakens in you has to awaken almost as a protective, as an enhanced, as a fluid part of yourself. You don’t use the masculine to make the feminine, in other words, it’s not a tool that takes and the makes the feminine nature an extroverted power.
It always stays in an introverted way. It’s the masculine that’s used to awaken something as an aliveness. In other words, you’re acknowledging why it is. This little part can go all the way back to your very first dream, in which you feel something as a lump in the stomach, you know that there is a way to proceed that is fluid and conducive to your unfoldment.
In other words, you know what to do about that lump in the stomach. Well, if you indulged in some sort of self-conscious way of having to be something, in this regard or that regard, because of masculine conceptualizations that you were taking in too literally and it was distorting your feminine nature, then you would develop a lump in the stomach.
The masculine is something that has the subjective role, but it is not something that the subjective takes and tries to rearrange themselves to become. She stays subjective. She stays with the ability of being able to be in this merged essence, awakened by masculine energy, but not taking and putting herself into where she has to utilize the aspects of masculine energy, so that the feminine develops her own set or dynamics of trying to control, which is a masculine principle.
Because if she does that, then she starts to go into the personal and she will tear herself up and have that lump in the stomach. It’s a very, very interesting deep dream because the whole quality of this dream is you are addressing an issue that has, you might say, as its premise the idea that as you go further and further on this path, the body gets torn up. And when you’re higher in the consciousness, the body can tend to be more infirm.
And if that is so, when there actually is something that you aren’t quite properly handling, or conducting yourself in accordance with, that havoc is taken out on the body. But when the light awakens in the way the light is meant to awaken, and you’re in connection with that, and in flow with that, and your heart is in tune with that, and there’s a joy in that, then your body isn’t really torn up.
It’s torn up when you have the imbalance, the notions that still have to do with the personal, that you act as if they have some role that has to be played, and you give that credence, then that is what tears the body up.
Very deep principle you’ve dealt with there. You actually dealt with a type of confusion that exists; that concept can easily be felt as a way it works, and there is something about that that is true of course, but it’s true only because there is a mannerism or something that still has an element of itself on a personal mannerism in the world that it is not letting go of.
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