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longing-0Many of us feel an ache in the heart for something more, or a longing for something deeper. That is a natural urge in a human being to reconnect to what created it. In this dream image, John is shown how the depth and power of that longing can be the catalyst itself to deeper inner territories. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: What happened last night is kind of just a general scenario. I got tired right away because I was in a state of awkwardness from working so hard right up until I started to meditate. And so I fell asleep without establishing the proper inner connection within, like I’m accustomed to trying to bring through when I meditate.

The dream I had did not have the same tremendous inner power like I had gotten accustomed to experiencing the last few prior days – or so it seemed. I went somewhere, nevertheless, because the soul moves around when you get outside of your normal dense senses and mind, but the effect, well, it wasn’t mind boggling, at least not if I was categorizing something like prior dreams.

So in the dream, I was taking a particular investment amount of money, like a billion dollars, and creating a certain sum result with it. And of course money is power in a dream; that’s what it symbolizes. And it seemed profound, in terms of what I was accomplishing, only because I was applying such a large amount, a billion dollars at a time, or in the investment. So, if you’re having any modicum of success, that’s going to be a significant number, so to speak, in relationship to what others look at. 

Then upon this same inner level, but with a lesser amount of money, I got the evidence that shows that everything is always relative when you’re working with a given level, or a given vibration. In other words, I didn’t hold a kind of note, something shifted. So I didn’t carry a certain longing or something. It did not propel me into the beyond, or out of the beyond, or anything like that, so I can’t say that there was a particular inner edge that I was working with.

And thus the amount of money that I used, which means the power or the inner energy that I had at my disposal to invest, pushed or determined an end result that was but a fraction of what I had gotten used to expecting when the soul moves around and develops eyes of the soul through a kind of searching inside, or feeling a vibration inside, holding the note of that.

What I experienced, anyway, because I suppose there’s always some residual, lingering quality over a long course of time, there’s a lingering demeanor that you carry yourself with, so the result of that demeanor was proportionate, arithmetically, to the amount expended. In other words, there was a consistency. 

There was a regular mannerism here because the inner variables were constant and thus, with everything constant, the pattern constant, the unfoldment constant, there not being something turbo-charged, you had a proportionate effect that you could look at in this, this, this and that, that, and that.

So what is going on? Well, I went into meditation wondering if there is a system in the way the soul is able to access inner sight. I learned that there is an effect, based upon the way the soul moves around when one is asleep, that carries kind of a basic result, a baseline in other words.

However, the effect can vary a lot if there is a deeper longing and surrendered need. That is what causes the meditation to access something in a more deep way, or profound way. Now whether you’re doing this just from a baseline, or whether you’re doing this from following a sense of longing or note inside, at this point or stage in the unfolding, or awakening, process both go home.

In other words you do go somewhere, and the mind senses are set aside, of course, for that to happen. And so if you’re not holding the longing note, there still is a given constant. However, when there is a profound heartfelt need that’s pulling upon one’s nature, heart, or insides in a focused way, that is when this need is capable of profound inner awareness, which transcends the basic inner baseline.

So what’s the purposeful insight? This dream enabled me to see the importance of being a person who is able to probe the inner power of longing – the importance of that. When I am able to naturally hold onto a heartfelt, or heart full, depth that is moving, or unwavering, or there in its nature, that provides the gasoline, so to speak, for the inner experience to ignite deeper revelations.

You could say that it is from the longing that the need exists to set aside the mind – up to a point. That’s why it’s hard to begin with to remember dreams and stuff because you don’t have a very good link to that. It’s like a spark that’s easily stomped out.

Eventually, though, you establish a baseline, and then from that, still holding the longing, that’s what gives you the ability to really surge out. The profoundness of the perception is characterized, if you want to say it that way, by the way the longing can hold the note. Longing is the inner wealth of the dream world.

A meditator uses the longing to more subtly navigate the inner depths. This supplements the baseline that is established from having burned through rust and dross of one’s physical misalignment in manifestation from years of spiritual practice. The longing steps up the pace.

When the longing just won’t go away, a person is propelled by their yearning. In other words, the longing is the travel agent’s catalyst to a linkage which flows connectively, and empathically, within the heart.  

I use the word empathically because this word denotes a closeness that longing seems to more naturally facilitate – when it just isn’t easily appeased. In other words, you can’t just run off with your thoughts and stuff like that. It doesn’t work that way.

So that was the meditation dream. I didn’t think much of it, but that was pretty good.

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finalspiralThis dream image finds Jeane observing a person who is a celebrity in real life sweeping a room with energy. When people we know appear in our dreams, it is not because we are having a dream about that person, whether friend or family member, or anyone else, but it is usually because they represent something and our dreams are using that representation to get across a point. In this case, Jeane’s higher self is showing her the attitude of bringing an energy through into life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So last night, the dream I had it’s as though I’m observing a nightclub, and in that nightclub there’s a man who is a lot like Dana White, who runs the UFC, and he’s wearing a yellow shirt. 

He’s on the floor of the nightclub and the impression I have is that he’s overseeing things there, and he’s sweeping the energy, but he’s sweeping the energy of the club in a way that he’s participating in a contest. The best I could figure it out is the contest is like between him and others who may sweep that club, or another club, with a certain energy and you see who did it best, I guess. 

One of the interesting things I note is that with a Dana White-type personality, he’s usually the head of whatever he’s doing. He micromanages and is very dynamic. However, in this dream, I know there’s another man, kind of behind the scenes, the one who is evaluating how everybody’s doing in the contest. That person’s really in charge.

John: Yeah, that’s a higher, higher self, or the secret of the secret part inside, or behind, the scenes of it all.  

But basically what Dana White is, is he’s a person that’s bringing through something as an energetic that he feels and he knows inside of himself and, of course, that seeing and the knowing inside of itself at the very end goes all the way back to something that’s a trickle-down, or lineage effect, or secret of the secrets at a depth even deeper in his heart.

But what he is caught up with is he has this whole sense, he has this whole knowingness in the way something is to unfold, and he’s bringing it through. And he just sees the image, he just sees the way that it needs to be, and then he takes his being and he throws it behind that and then that vibration then follows through as his focus and strength of being carries it across.

And so what you’re depicting is how something is breaking through. In other words, you’re working and you’re playing with this dynamic where there’s a way of being in a state, inside of yourself, that is connected to a natural knowingness that just makes things happen based upon your trust, your feeling.

And it’s almost more than a trust. In other words, it’s almost a sight. With Dana White he can feel so loudly, positively, or however you would say that, inside of himself, as to what he wants to bring about, that there’s never a doubt that this isn’t going to happen.

And yet very few people realize that when he started this whole thing it was like cockfighting and such. It was considered repulsive and he knew that there was a market for it, there was an interest in it, there was a fascination for it, in spite of the mores that existed, in terms of this sort of thing. And he defiantly wouldn’t stop in terms of his understanding of what was kind of needed as an aspect and expression that people tried to pretend, or hide from, as if it was too much and too bloody, or too this or too that.

He realized that this could be brought through, and would have an appeal, and would add something in its way. And he had to hold this belief in the face of the attitude towards this sort of thing, which went out of its way to make it more difficult, even to snuff it out.

And so he had roadblocks thrown in his path that you wouldn’t ordinarily have in a lot of things that are brought into life, because he stood in the way defiantly of that which was deemed acceptable behavior. And so the fact that you used Dana White means that as part of what is breaking through, as part of what is taking place, there is that quality and that note to it that it isn’t something mainstream and yet it’s coming through.

And you feel it, you know it, you recognize it as a type of knowingness, and that that is backed up within a deeper depth of yourself of even more in support of it all. Isn’t that interesting? It is a very deep dream.

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higher-self-08Moving is a common image in dreams, and here John finds himself on the move, not knowing where he’s headed. Yet when his truck full of belongings is destroyed, his first reaction is to be angry, as would we all. But symbolically, moving can mean entering a higher level within, and in that process, much of our belongings, or baggage, are no longer appropriate and can’t be taken on the next phase of the journey. In fact, the next level often requires that we let go of lower attachments so that we may proceed. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So when I fall asleep, the dream I have is I’ve traveled to a place where I own a number of properties. In this place that I’ve traveled to I own a number of properties – I didn’t travel there because I own properties, I’m actually thinking, and am of the opinion, that I’m passing through.

And in this area it seems that I’ve been holding the elected position of county treasurer for years, only I just hold it as a matter of conduct or practice or something. I don’t do anything. In other words, in the dream, being county treasurer doesn’t have all of these responsibilities or duties that I’m aware of. It is simply something I hold for some sort of contingency reasons, who knows, that seem okay to me in the dream. And, as far as I can tell, it’s not a big deal because I also seem to hold this position in other areas where I have property. 

So a person asks me if I am running for re-election, but I don’t campaign, and haven’t been campaigning, so how can they tell? And rumor may have leaked out that I wasn’t going to be running again or something, or was retiring. 

However, now that I am being asked point blank about this, I say, “No, I’m running.” And then someone says I should make this more clear because a lot has occurred in the paper, and with the position of other candidates, in terms of jockeying for this position. In other words, if I’d have been clearcut I could have just had it, there would be no running, but because of the confusion there’s something going on.

And so I’m supposed to note the sudden stress and burden. The inferences about this whole thing are setting forth and so I feel, well, maybe I guess I must reevaluate how I feel about this position, because my indifference and my mannerism is such that I’m not giving this issue the attention others feel is important. 

So that’s the setup, the vibratory setup. And as, of course, I’m traveling and have stopped at this place and am confronted as to what I’m doing in terms of my stand as treasurer and such, and the way I know I’m traveling is I go back to my U-Haul. It’s one of those big trucks that has a big thing on the back and you put your belongings and everything in it, so I’ve apparently rented the vehicle and I’m moving. 

The dream doesn’t suggest or indicate where I’m going. I had parked outside of a business and I’m sitting in the driver’s seat. I’m not going anywhere, just sitting there. And all of a sudden in front of me this huge truck, that’s wider than the U-Haul, just backs right up and backs right into the U-Haul and just keeps trying to back up because he can’t see me in the rearview mirror, and he’s just crushing the whole thing, the front of it, driving through the engine. 

Of course I jump out of the cab. He’s just smashing the whole thing. He keeps acting like, as he’s backing up, that something must be haywire because he doesn’t see anything. But deep down I’m not really that concerned because it’s not like I’ve lost something here, because the U-Haul is rented, and I know that I’m not really physically harmed or materially harmed because the whole issue is covered by insurance. 

It’s just strange that that happened, and yet this person just wouldn’t stop. But nevertheless, even though that has happened, I still feel I have rights or righteousness, even though it’s not something that I feel is important from a position of belongings. 

So I go inside the factory and I carry this mannerism where I’m venting as if I’m pissed, as if I am entitled to some sort of satisfaction and recognition for what has occurred. My behavior just upsets everything in the place because I’m kind of catatonic, or at least not stable, or calm, or matter-of-fact. 

And the front office guy, who I think is probably one of the owners of this, it feels like he’s an owner to this whole operation, and he is like a typical sized, ordinary, what you would expect kind of owner, a little bit on the overset side, but an okay, typical looking guy.

He just remains calm, not really engaging or allowing my mannerism to get to him. I kind of admire him, except I want somebody to pay attention. Then I hear someone off to one side, maybe another worker, say that I should be grateful that at least the vehicle wasn’t flooded. 

I keep thinking that sure is a strange comment, the vehicle being flooded. Suddenly down a corridor comes this little guy. He looks a little bit… now the other guy has disappeared and this little guy is kind of like… they look alike, only he’s a real small guy. He’s like from the back office. 

He’s upset by the commotion that he could tell that I’ve been making, appalled – more than you would have thought. In other words, it’s like whatever it is, however I’ve been, that’s just not appropriate. I mean, I suppose I could make a good argument why I have a right to be like this, but he’s not buying it.

And so I’m so surprised by his conduct and his attitude. I mean, he almost shocks me by his shocked attitude and appalled nature about me. So I stick my hand out to make his acquaintance and to introduce myself, but he’s so pissed he refuses to touch it or shake it. He’s that incensed and furious. Because he is like that, I start calling him to his face, “Little Man.” 

And then I turn around and look back, and my truck or my U-Haul has been pulled into this large bay that is in this business, because somehow or another the U-Haul and the big truck when it backed into it and smashed the U-Haul they got stuck together, and so they brought them both inside this huge bay.

And what I find and see is mind boggling. I don’t see my U-Haul. I can see the big, big, huge truck a little bit. I can’t see my U-Haul. The bay has been flooded and my U-Haul is totally under the water. I am baffled that something like this could even happen. Even though everything I have in the back is now flooded, that doesn’t seem to matter. The absurdity is what gets me, and I let go. I just start laughing. I laugh and I laugh. 

This is such an over-the-top aspect that no other reaction makes any sense. I guess that is just how it is in this place. See, it’s all shifted. I’m moving and everything.

The meaning is, is my being has shifted into a different consciousness. What I had been doing in the past is no longer viable. I can’t be treasurer, I don’t have many rights. I am moving. I do not know where, but that doesn’t seem to matter. What matters is that I let go of that which is of the past, quit projecting a righteous demeanor and realize that I have been intentionally, or unintentionally, shifted or blindsided. It isn’t personal. It is what goes on at this level.

Something more is apparently expected of me, and I am not getting it. So this backing up, getting crushed, occurs to smash my engine and cab of the U-Haul to point out that everything is different, shifted. And yet that doesn’t seem to affect me as if it’s a big deal because I have this nice space inside that can absorb and handle all of that, because I have insurance and whatnot.

And so instead of just falling back and paying attention, I feel that I have a right to get vocal yet. This truck should have somehow known better. A lot of good that does. This just reinforces the disconnection and confusion. I mean, it causes it to become even more apparent.

And it’s obvious to me that I’m acting unconsciously at whatever it is, because this isn’t helping any flow any, we’re going in the wrong direction here.

But at least I get it in the end. It took a total destruction of the U-Haul, and the flooding of it and the contents therein, which I am taking with me, when I realize just how hilarious my position has been.

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