The Inner Family

clayfamIn this dream scenario, Jeane finds herself trying to sort out the issues of a family who live up in the mountains. As things fall apart, Jeane tries to hold them together. What’s fascinating here is how the relationship between things is symbolic of the deeper message: two aspects of the inner masculine, a policeman and a pot head, one protecting, one asleep – even the mountainside home shows a distance from where one “should be.” And these are all aspects of energies within Jeane, yet also tell a story in the greater scheme of things. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I only remembered one of my dreams. This main dream, first I’m visiting a woman who has several children. She’s separated from her husband, and it feels like he’s either insisted she come back, or come and gotten her and taken her back, to their home in the hills. I have a feeling the husband is even a policeman.

I’m going to visit to make sure she’s okay. So I get up to the home in the hills and I notice that there are some robbers that are coming onto the property, and they’re there because the husband apparently smokes pot and he has pot stored somewhere on the property. Even though he’s a cop, that’s what he’s doing. 

So my first concern is whether the woman and the children are okay, but they seem to have merged into the countryside there so they’re fine. But I feel like he should take care of this problem, so I go into the bedroom and he’s sound asleep. 

I can look out the window and see the robbers approaching the property and here’s the husband sound asleep, so it takes me about three tries of like really shaking him and pulling off the covers and everything to get him to wake up. But then he’s alert. 

So once he’s alert that seems to take care of that problem, although I realize he may be in some trouble because if the police come, and he’s actually a cop, and he’s been smoking pot, this lifestyle doesn’t work anymore. 

So I start talking to him about what else he can do. I’m even driving down the road with him a bit and I’m looking at these large plants or something that grow nearby, and it’s some kind of a crop. 

And so I’m talking to him about maybe he should become a farmer, or an orchardist or something, and grow this crop. And he should start talking to the neighbors to make sure it grows well around here and I think that’s the whole dream.

John: What you’re doing is is you’re looking at three aspects of development. 

You’re looking at the aspect of development that furthers life, it’s a mother and her children and whatnot, and living in a setting that typically raises, or is, a family – with the exception that something is missing. And the thing that’s missing is a type of natural, raw masculine energy that’s important to make the family unit complete. 

And it’s also a raw masculine energy that is at crisscrosses to itself. In other words, it has the protectorate nature, the police officer and whatnot, which is important to sustain and hold the family unit together and give it what it needs in terms of a security and a balance. 

But it also has the ditzy side that goes 180-degrees in the opposite direction, that is all checked out, and asleep, and dormant in that it’s a pot head that is running counterculture to all of that. And so you happen to be a person that recognizes that in order for something to be complete you need to somehow connect the family and the mother, the wholeness, the manifestation quality, of a, we’ll call it, microcosmic aspect of the whole, which is a family unit. 

You have to see that it’s connected together. But it’s the bridging of this dilemma between the disparate parts of the masculine, the one part that can be what needs to be, the police officer, the protectorate, that can care for the family and uphold things, versus the other part of its nature that’s just completely in a state of sleep, and that’s completely out of the equation, that is doing things that are deleterious to that way of being.

And, of course, that might explain why it has to be up in the hills as well, instead of down where it can do more good is because it has one part that’s okay and another part that is unacceptable in terms of a way of being.

And so you’re trying to bridge this gap because you have this role of being some sort of accommodator, or person that can reconcile the distance. And so you know that if the family goes up to where this person is at, that on one level they’re getting something, but on another level they’re left very vulnerable. It’s very chaotic. It’s very dangerous. 

The mannerism and action of this person leads to things falling apart. They’re more isolated. It doesn’t hold itself together like it should. You see the component of what’s off and so you try to look and say, okay, well what else can this guy do? I mean, he seems to go about and do this, that, that, and the other. Aha, maybe something similar would be if he became more of a salt-of-the-earth, more grounded type, and grew some crop or something like a farmer does, which is more productive, that’s accepted by society, that adds to society, that causes something more to be.

And so you’re making that suggestion because you don’t have to work on the other part in terms of it being a good protectorate and holding a certain presence and role. You just know that that presence and role that it’s holding is a little misplaced by the fact that it has to isolate itself up in the hills or something like that because it has this other defective quality or trait that keeps it from being able to be how it can be.

And so you’re trying to figure out how to bring it down and, of course, in order for it to be a farmer and come out and grow crops or whatever it has to come down. It has to come down from the mountains down into a valley or something where it can support growing crops, because up in the mountains all you can grow is something like dope and you’re remaining counterculture to things, and hiding out.

You’re actually living a kind of a lie, because on one level you represent the epitome of how the masculine can be in terms of holding a family unit and giving it credence, but you’re in the wrong place, you’re up in the mountains. And you’re in the wrong place with that because there’s something missing in terms of an understanding, or balance, and that is that you’re doing something that is also 180-degrees opposed to that way of being. 

You’re doing something that’s totally unacceptable to what you’re supposed to be about, and what the family is about. And when you do that, that causes you to be asleep, and it causes you then not to do the part that protects and maintains and supports the wholeness, and thus the robbers can come and things like that.

So you are sitting here trying to sort this out, trying to level this out, trying to smooth this out, trying to figure out how to bridge it all back together because you know that when the person is awake doing what they need to be doing everything is okay. When they’re asleep the robbers come. 

And then, of course, if you try to appeal too strongly to the part that is appropriate, the policing force or the force that has a presence and power over maintaining something in life, if you go consult that in a greater context then you tend to destroy something that is okay and not okay. 

Instead, how do you make the okay be more real and open, and the not okay part able to see itself in a way so that it transforms that not okay part to something that’s more rooted, and grounded, and expressive in life, like becoming a farmer, coming down into the groundedness of things, into the valley and whatnot?

And to do that will add a whole quality of closeness that is missing when you have these two parts that are banging back and forth and around. So that’s very, very interesting. 

Because you’re describing the masculine to be like that, I have to ponder what all of that means. And there are two ways of pondering what that means. One way is to ponder it from the standpoint that this is how your masculine inside yourself sees itself, in terms of what it needs and what it requires, in terms of how it’s opening up and emerging.

And another way to ponder that is that in your environment this is what you see yourself having to contend with, which means if that’s the case, then that means I’m kind of like that. On one level I’m okay, and on the other level I’m ditzier than a doornail from the standpoint that I’m taking and doing some awkward, odd things that create a complete breaking down of the semblance of balance that is necessary, that’s tearing the threads of something that facilitates a cadence and, as a consequence, it’s keeping a wholeness from coming together.

The dream is true on both levels because a person is always coming together in terms of their inner masculine, too, so I think it’s true on both levels. I think the dream is actually giving a message to me as well, but it’s also giving a message to you in terms of how it is that you are always trying to absolve or pull the characteristics into a greater wholeness. 

It’s a very deep and potent dream, and kind of a loud dream, too.

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