The Elephant in the Room

TheHangedMan.1What is the elephant in the room of a spiritual journey? Our identity, or our ego, however we choose to say it. Working with the universe is an act of service that cannot be accomplished with a personal agenda or motives. What we need to shed to elevate our journey are all the aspects that are ego-driven, because that is what prevents us from developing. And with each step we take in one part of ourselves, we’ll discover another part that isn’t quite so willing to let go. But, ultimately, we’ll have to  let go on all levels. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the first dream, it feels like I’m in a little café and somebody else and I started redecorating and fixing up this café to run it, but some other people have come in and they want to take it over. I think two or three couples.

So she and I decide we’re going to let them do this. The first thing they do is they get something and they whitewash the walls, which is kind of fun for them because they take away the yellow paint layer and create a white paint layer. And then they’re going about whatever the next thing is that they’re going to do.

There’s one person I feel is not working as well as the others and I want to motivate them. And it feels like to do that I go over and they have a sack, and in the sack are these little stick figures and some gold coins and things. So I take a handful of things out of the sack, which upsets them a bit, but it’s like I’m removing it to hold aside to motivate them, because I’m just not sure where their energy level is on motivation yet.

Then I step back to see how things are going and notice that the couples do seem to be working pretty well together getting the things done that will set the café up to run. And then she and I are getting ready to move on.

It seems like I go away from that dream and I come back, and when I come back to the dream she and I are having a discussion about whether or not, when we move on, we’ll be sort of starting over. I kind of ask what she’s invested in the café and we have a discussion about whether or not we should charge them anything to take over the café.

But she indicates she doesn’t think we should, we’ll just kind of start on fresh.

John: So this is like something that you have, a café, right? And that you’re looking to have other parts of yourself run the café. And initially what you have to do is you have to determine if you have to provide some sort of incentive or something for them to realize why they need to do it.

Then after you’ve gotten beyond that, you’re contemplating as to whether or not you should charge them, because that wasn’t an issue to begin with. And then you realize that you can’t be charging them, either.

Charging them would have something to do with personal involvement in what is taking place. You just make the determination that they run the café and that you move on, which seems to suggest that you’re catching up with a particular part of yourself that seems to have a limitation, you’re imposing a limitation, in terms of a conditionality, in terms of what needs to be done.

And that when you learn to let go of that, then something more just naturally occurs. When that naturally occurs, then whatever that is that naturally occurs is you coming into new frontiers of yourself that aren’t possible as long as you are having to feel that you have to, in some fashion, micromanage the unfoldment.

Jeane: And in this last dream, it feels like I’ve gone to some kind of a compound that’s run by a man – I almost feel like it’s a Mormon cult or something. And when we enter – I think there’s my dad, you’re around, and somebody else is, too – it feels like we’re given different vehicles by which we travel, maybe like in one case somebody’s riding an elephant, for instance.

I see this elephant kind of comes up to the window to where I am and I look and I look to see what’s on the back of the elephant. There are some things that are put on the back of the elephant, something that’s written. I can’t quite recall what it was.  And then the elephant kind of runs off.

I seem to be walking with you and observing more. It’s like we’re trying to investigate something that’s happening here. I realize everybody will probably go off to some kind of a meeting and maybe we’ve done something to individually stimulate the elephants, you and I.

But you’ve gone over, there’s a body, you notice a body over to the side and you go over and you’ve taken a shovel and you’ve actually kind of chopped the arm off the body. It’s kind of bleeding, because it’s like you want to investigate what’s going on there, and I can see that this disturbs the cult leader.

I’m kind of looking to see what we do next, but I think that’s when you told me we should do dreams. It was like I was still kind of somewhere in the twilight zone with this dream.

John: The elephant represents something kind of ancient that is trying to fit in, or surface, or be in a present scenario. And a cult leader represents a conceptual, spiritual illusion about how something is. And the sorting out that’s taking place has to do with recognizing, in terms of what you’re going through, how it is that what you’re going through facilitates the unfoldment of some part and aspect of yourself that needs to unfold.

The greater acuity comes from the elephant. In other words, it’s like the elephant ran off and that signified something was unbalanced. And then, in terms of how something is being investigated or probed out, that kind of continues in the element of imbalance because from the perspective of yourself, you’re weighing.

What you’re doing, you’re playing with a type of the heart. You’re trying to weigh up, weigh these things out. In other words, the elephant running off holds a vibration that’s important in some element, in terms of how it is that you have a sense of balance, in terms of what is in front of you, and what is taking place around you.

And then the endeavor to investigate or determine things also is something that suggests or indicates an imbalance, because you can see that something isn’t right. You’re still following the energy out of whatever it was that caused this crackup, or this lack of balance, in terms of the scenario in which the elephant, or this ancient part of yourself, kind of went into revolt.

The first dream indicates you’ve taken on a responsibility, or a quality, or an unfoldment, but in the second part of the dream you’re questioning it again. In the second part of the dream, you’re finding yourself derailed, in other words. There’s something that has disturbed this sense of balance.

The first part is where you have little issues but you slowly learn to set those personal issues aside. In the second dream, you’re part of a scenario now. In other words, the way the energy is in the first dream is it brings you up to a particular point where you’re now part of something. And now that you’re part of something, the question then is that there is something unbalanced yet in terms of what you’re part of, in which something about what is unfolding you haven’t been able to sort out.

It’s as if some part of yourself got chopped off. And the elephant running off and the thing that has to do with the arm are correlated. The elephant running off was like the first indication of something where there was a retraction, or shutting down, or closing down, or withdrawal inside. And then the chopping off of the arm and whatnot is showing that there’s something about the wholeness of the package of things, of the flow of things, the unfoldment of things that’s missing.

So it’s kind of a dream that portrays a kind of doubt. The theme of the dreaming from my way of describing it had to do with looking at what vies for the heart, and trying to distinguish, or sort out, in relationship to how it is that the heart is able to embrace what lies before it.

And in your first dream you had a few density issues that involved basically a personal entanglement and you learned to go through that, and so the sense of that dream had a whole airy, freedom sense. It left the image of the sky’s-the-limit kind of possibilities.

But in the second dream you have the reactivity, that has come back into the equation, that is shutting off the access that is needed. It’s quite a contrast. I mean, one minute you break through, and then in the next minute you don’t get a chance to enjoy the breakthrough because now all of a sudden you’re having to contend with some mannerism that’s creating a distortion or a distraughtness.

The elephant running off, the image of an elephant running off, is an image of something going berserk. And then the idea of trying to calmly figure out what is haywire by finding a body and chopping an arm off and whatnot, is kind of an aspect of figuring it out, but the big issue has to do with the berserkness of the elephant.

The other is trying to claw back and untangle the web of things, but it’s all said and the whole thing has to do with the mannerism upon which something went berserk. And what is there in that berserk element that is shutting something down in some huge degree?

The investigating of it to try to claw back or come back is secondary. It’s looking at bits and pieces and components. The whole issue is that elephant running off. That’s the main dilemma that was like a type of stabbing to such a degree that there were reverberations from the stabbing that you can take and explore, and probe, and investigate, but the degree to which something got hurt like that, that’s where the huge issue is.

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The Right Intent

painted-glass-ball-illusionSometimes our dreams use images to show us our folly, pointing out the silliness of certain facades we put on. Because any type of facade we use in our relationship with the world is a learned behavior and not a true representation of us. That introduces a warp to the flow of life that prevents us from getting the guidance we need. Development means slowly getting rid of all those unnatural mechanisms, gradually letting us become more natural again. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I had a real long, loud dream that portrayed all kinds of little things that were haywire in terms of how it is that I’m keeping myself unable to know what needs to be known and own it.

And then I had a meditation dream that suggested how there’s something about the “right intent” as well that is getting lost. In other words, right intent is something you either have or you don’t have, and there’s a way of looking at life in terms of right intent, in terms of looking at it as hearkening to something of an inner depth, that kind of right intent.

So the meditation dream is a little bit hard to understand because it’s insufficient to get what I’m supposed to get because I lose the right intent. Fortunately, I had a good sleep dream that pulled things into an interesting flow and result.

But last night I wasn’t even sure if any of this made much sense, and all I wrote was: I behold and determine a result which is based upon appearances. This still isn’t enough to pull off a change. A turmoil exists within me because the effect upon overall life, and the overall vibe of myself in the overall, is going to be overwhelmed.

So it shows that I’m holding an imbalance in some fashion that means the right focus is off. And kind of what it means in a short way of saying it is, what I am able to access within still isn’t strong enough to make an intended difference. As a result there’s going to be further turmoil.

So then when I go to sleep I have a very long, loud dream that lays out the detail of the mess that I’m making out of things from the meditative journey and way of living.

So in this dream I’ve gathered in what is an old rustic kind of house, a living room area, after having been out exploring an ancient site. And apparently I wasn’t the only one exploring it, but I’m just paying attention initially at what it was that I picked up, not knowing anything about it, just having picked up some peculiar objects that kind of are from another era. It seems like three or four pieces is what you would typically find in this area, but I have five, six, or seven of these little bitty ceramic pieces that all fit into the palm of my hand.

So as I’m hanging out in this room of this rustic house, a friend of mine, who’s kind of a bullshitter and likes to pretend he knows more than he knows, is there, and he’s gloating over the wonderful things he has found.

And there is a woman there that’s listening to him carry on. The objects he recovered from the dig seem to have more of a story line to them – to hear him talk – and they’re actually larger, too.

And one of them that he moves about and shifts about to kind of show you what it’s supposed to be about is like a miniature depiction of an old courtyard area or something where people supposedly lived, or appeared to have lived, long ago. But the one thing odd about this is, it’s mostly made out of metal. I know my objects are genuine because they are made out of this old ceramic that you just don’t see today, and this has some metal to it.

It still strikes me as odd. And then he points out another thing that really looks like a stainless steel pot and he has some great big story wrapped up around this. So at this point, of course, it gets my attention, and the woman is just kind of taking all of this in. And I look at it and notice the lid has a date on it. It’s 1989.

So as I look at this I suddenly slice right through the story of this pot by saying, “First of all, it isn’t anything ancient, and second the lid has the date in plain English.” That kind of shuts him up. He quits making a big deal about what he has found and, of course, he hadn’t even paid a lick of attention when I showed him my five or six objects that I held in the palm of my hand. He was all about what he had.

So, he gets up and he goes outside for some fresh air. So, as kind of a prank I take a book of his that’s part of the objects that he seems to have and when it’s turned one side up it looks one way, and when you turn it over he probably hasn’t paid close enough attention to know what the book would look like if it was turned over. So I turn it over, as if that makes it less recognizable, and I set it off to one side in plain sight.

And I tell the woman that to hide it would be mean. I then lie down on a couch and I guess I’m kind of reading or recreating or something, and this old rustic house had a couple of books there and I’m kind of laying my head on one of them as if I’m making a quasi pillow out of them, and he comes back. And I could tell that he’s concerned because he can’t find the book that I turned over and moved off to one side, even though I left it in plain sight.

At first he’s calm about it but, little by little, he’s getting agitated. So I sit up, and I have no forethought in this part, I just take a real small book that was under my head and hand it to him, as if it is his, because I was convinced it was part of this old rustic house. And it just so happens to be an important book for him that he had completely forgotten about.

He’s acting like maybe I did something. I tell him, “No, it was just lying there. I had no idea this was his,” which is true, but he’s still looking around. And I look around for the book is uptight about and not finding. Suddenly I go over to where it is at after saying, “Let’s see,” as I look around and I pick it up and hand it to him. I nonchalantly go back to the couch as calmly as I can say this because inside I’m laughing, I say, “I always put my stuff together, that way nothing gets lost.”

I wake up with the statement resonating in my head, plus I hear the almost indistinguishable snicker from the woman who knows the statement to be bullshit. Isn’t this cute?

So this dream is about embodying in a grounded way that which is meaningful so that it can awaken as to who and how we are. To think we have something to gloat about or know something special is a setup for confusion. When we act like there is something special or unique to how we are or what we found this is a surefire indication that we are lost, confused, scattered, and more out of it than we realize.

In the meditation dream image, I am not able to make what I am able to know there happen because I have not fully grounded the in-depth knowingness I have into life.

This dream portrays a number of reasons why I am having this as a problem. One, I keep making a big deal out of that which is common place. Two, I’m not attentive to other things that are also meaningful that are pointed out to me. Three, I keep thinking that what I have is special simply because I have it, thus I’m not able to see beyond this. Four, I’m not taking responsibility for what I do have in a contained way. As the result, I’m forgetful and out of touch. Five, my life would be simplified if I held a focus and attention upon what is opening up for me because when it gets scattered I become forgetful and confused.

Now, the Hopi’s say that this right intent is important because there is something about the vibe of holding on to that that takes and causes something to be shaken or infused into life in a natural way or something. In other words, it’s not something that you put your focus upon. Your focus is upon something inside yourself as kind of a right intent that causes you to access something that wouldn’t otherwise be ordinarily accessed because of the nature of outer conditioning and the senses and such. And, that when you do do that, that is something that infuses out, touches and causes an effect in the overallness of life.

So this right intent behind this is an important quality but, of course, that’s almost like another step back. I mean, how can you have the right intent when you have all this other vagary like those examples that I gave, five or six examples, of waywardness, and you have that to contend with that undermine the right intent?

And, of course, the consequences of that undermining the right intent keep you from having a knowingness that, well, it’s a type of knowingness that I’m coming to see can tell things. In other words, as a type of timing it seems because everything is in the moment. There’s a past, present, and there’s a future. The aspect of a sense of what’s coming in the future, or how something can unfold, has to do with not having those nuances in the way because then you can hear in a slightly different way and you can even tell whether what is unfolding in the future is meaningful or not.

You can’t tell if you’ve indulged in some fashion so that that sort of thing gets in the way of kind of a type of naturalness that can just vibrationally know because it’s vibrationally in tune with how something has to unfold in order for it to be correlated or sequenced through ourselves without there being some sort of deviation experience.

So this is one of the reasons why it’s important to polish one’s self, or to clear one’s self, of these vagary aspects is because they become veils that stand in the way to something that is a pure resonance, that one can recognize instead. And you can’t recognize that pure energy if you have some flicker of something, some nuance of something, that still intercedes.

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Out of Touch

wellness-chakrabalance1We have all felt the pressure of time in a dream, and in Jeane’s imagery she finds herself involved in making changes, but the timings aren’t working. This throws her further off balance as the dream progresses. She is trying to make an inner connection that isn’t quite coming through. But this isn’t only important for the dream, that missed connection can have an effect in missed timings or an imbalance in waking life as well. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I really felt like I struggled in my dream last night, and a lot of it came out more as impressions.

It’s like I’ve been involved in some change. I was involved in something that helped change maybe a young man or two. And I’m feeling pressure from my friend and from other people maybe to make the person or people change back.

I actually know that there’s some shift that needs to be made, but I don’t identify it as a shift that other people want to see made. I just know that there is some shift that needs to be made.

I know it has something to do with timing. It feels like I’m continually trying to listen or see what that’s about, and then it’s like there’s some deadline that comes up and I feel pressured. When I feel pressure I go into this bathroom, and it feels like I go to the bathroom in the bidet instead of the toilet.

When I look in the bidet I see something that has newsprint and something else. There are about three things in there, and it seems to flush just like the toilet does. And in having looked at that and going out, and it feels like the person where I was focusing the change has shown up in maybe a suit and a top hat, and I’m looking at all of this and I’m still feeling like the timing and the change hasn’t quite occurred right.

It’s just like it’s occurred within what was available as far as a window of time, but I still am not satisfied at all with what’s going on.

John: That’s a good dream that’s portraying what it is that’s keeping you agitated and frustrated.

What the dream is doing is it’s showing that there is a part of you that’s caught. In other words, you’re not quite bringing, or shaking out, or something, that is moving around inside of you – at a depth inside – something that’s ancient and has a quality to it that, if it comes through, if you were to catch up with it would be a manner in which you live.

Because it hasn’t come through, and you haven’t caught up with it, the uneasiness that exists, because it resonates in some fashion with you, causes you to pick and poke and have an awkwardness in terms of where you’re at.

In other words, you walk around in a present time, so to speak, that isn’t actually in connection with the time of your deeper meaningfulness of who you are, and the uneasiness you feel about that, which can come off as a type of insecurity or something, but it has nothing to do really with that, it has more to do with the fact that you have this natural state of being of which there is a way of seeing yourself in something that carries this old rooted way of being, that is natural, that is the depth of a place that you haven’t quite shaken through.

And because it sits there in the background somehow, inside of yourself, it’s as if what does leak through and is coming through is causing you to be hypertensive and reactive about things. And that hyperactivity or the reaction, the mannerisms that you kick out, are because you’re not quite catching up with and grasping what it is that is trying to come through.

So then the dream kind of repeats by showing how when one is disconcerted from a part of themselves that is meant to come through and be lived, and be part of one’s self where you have the timing and the sequence of everything in flow, the dream then jokes in terms of in a general motif this causes in the outer, if you were able to see it, causes the pattern to reflect by the fact that instead of recognizing a toilet for a toilet you have the bidet that you’re using out of a type of amnesia.

And in the bidet there is something there that hearkens to something else, you’re not in the state of mind to have the foggiest idea what that is, and yet that’s another little tease of this something more that’s sitting there to awaken. Isn’t that interesting?

You have to hear what you have to hear, and you’re getting infinitesimal glimpses, but you’re not getting the full memo. It just crazes you when it’s like that because you’re not meant to live like that. You’re meant to pull it together.

The dreaming last night had to do with being able to come to grips with, and own, a depth of one’s self that, for various reasons, is slightly out of touch, or ungrounded, and the dreams are attempting to point out reasons for that.

So we just described your dream in terms of its reasons, and the reason, when described in terms of a feminine imbalance, has to do with just somehow or another being at the spot or the place that is appropriate or right for how one is in which everything then just opens up accordingly.

To describe that in terms of the masculine involves having to get into nuances and details and idiosyncrasies and agitations, and the masculine quality of it has that as its conundrum that makes what is possible seem out of touch and out of reach.

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