Dreaming into Knowing

Humans are not single-natured. We have the mind, the emotions, the natural instincts, the senses, intuition, memories and more all playing a role in our moment by moment journey. The question then becomes, do we know who or what is calling the shots at a given moment? We can, if we pay conscious attention. The thing is, all these aspects have a role to play and need to be utilized by us – but our consciousness needs to be in charge. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: That’s why it’s interesting to look at this thing from a greater complaint, because my dream started off with the complaint: whose fault is it that it is like this? From my perspective, I could easily see where the teacher could act like, well?

And then I answered the question. And my answer to the question is that there’s too great a distance, that’s the problem, there’s too great a distance. And so if there’s too great a distance then it just naturally makes sense that I’m not going to be able to keep up.

And so, how can that be my fault? That sounds more like a fault of the system of it all not coming through. And then, of course, then I had dreams after that that showed the intertwined flow in relationship to everything else, and that one had to adhere to that – and then everything was naturally there.

It’s not a question of this, that, or the other, and who should have done this, and what could I have done different. It’s never a question of that, although I would like to make it like that. So that’s how I tweaked something that could have a nuance like that, like what you had.

The dreaming is difficult now because it’s a dreaming that seems to be having to put an attention upon this kind of other space, and so everything strikes me as different. It’s like I’m subjected to deviations around me, and I’m still having to sort out what is a deviation. And I’m basically finding that nothing fits into the space – but I still have to go through the motions to find that out.

So in the dream I would go out to a place with a friend who insists upon being the one who got involved with what was going on and that, as a consequence, he did this so that he was the one who got noticed. Whether he wanted to get noticed or not, hard to know. It just worked out that way.

And because I am with him, I’m willing to participate but something about how he is, and how he wants things to be, and how it somehow cycles around through himself, seems to dominate. So it is as if this demeanor has a way of holding me back from the involvement with him.

Over the passage of time, he is the one who saw himself as doing practically everything. I mean it was not like he had to, he just insisted it was like that. I was amenable, but no, no he could do it, and he would do it. And, thus, as a result, he became inclined to see everyone else as kind of separate, more as an observer; which means that from this perspective, over the passage of time, a stigma prevailed.

So the meaning is, is that I’m having this dream to show that in order for me to be free, and the environment to flow, I need to learn how to let other parts of myself get into the act. Now what is the act, of course, that’s the question?

In other words, it’s not necessarily contangled with this, that, or the other. It is only when others are able to see and feel themselves as connected that a true intertwining is possible. Otherwise some attitude or stigma over who and what they still are, will exist, which will keep things separate, keep them separate from this space.

And, of course, your dream revolved around having some little state mannerism that you still allow, or put yourself into, as if it’s something that you need.

However, to go separate from that, or to go away from that – because that is separate from something more – you get into an intertwined consequence, which is not what I would have thought of long ago when I am inclined to be more willing to be the one who takes on the responsibility and the mannerisms of this or that.

Over the passage of time, however, the other parts of myself tended to get left inadvertently behind, or so it seemed, as a gap opened up between what I could experience that didn’t have anything to do with anything in particular. It didn’t need to work this other way that I kept thinking it needed to work.

And then there’s the deeper meaning. This is also a reason why a teacher has students. A teacher cannot become so far removed from the other parts of himself in life that a gap arises between him and us that becomes too much to close.

Should that happen, nothing can shift, and the meaningful change that needs to happen remains dormant. This is also true in terms of the effort that exists in making the inner journey. I must make sure that I take the time to include in that effort an overallness that is part of the journey.

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