It may seem a great barrier that a spiritual journey takes a long time. There are many reasons for this, but a basic one is that we must adjust to the higher energies we connect to. This changes us in a cellular way, as we rebuild ourselves because of our energetic connections. Over time we can handle more and more, and we receive greater insights and knowings. It may take time but, from a certain perspective, there’s nothing else to do during this life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: The dream that corresponds to your dream, I wrote it up almost as if it has very little semblance of dream energy in it, or of dream images in it. It’s mostly the energetic.
And perhaps what you said will help pull it together, too, because trying to make the dream alive, as opposed to the experience inside, is now starting to become more and more difficult.
But the best way I can describe that is that I noticed that on a higher, more speeded-up level of my being, where the need exists to try and decipher what is going on, that I am jangled because of having to speed up.
So I spend the evening in my sleep looking at the things in life that are grounded and, in this comparison, look over at the state of affairs in which I am spinning and more imbalanced. In other words, I’m looking back and forth. I’m trying to reconcile the difference. I’m trying to take in this higher speed flow and ground it so it doesn’t throw me for a loop.
Being speeded up is invigorating, but it is also discombobulating when correlated to everything else, that is everything else in the outer. To reach a point within where I have an innate awareness that is able to appreciate the inner flow more directly, and to be more free because I am closer to a sight from this state, I have to be able to handle such a flow.
Because I am not used to it, the effect tends to space me out. I have to concentrate harder to function in the outer. This is what it is like when this area of greater spatiality comes through. It affects our way of conducting ourself in a mind/sense and ego. It takes a while to be able to handle it or, to say it another way, it takes time getting used to handling the light side of our being. It is from the light side of our being that we access a natural knowingness.
In my dream what I am doing is trying to reconcile the two states. Usually I fall back upon what is familiar to me and avoid disturbing myself and having to contend with a more speeded-up side of my being. However, if I am to keep from being a victim of the collective energies around me, that are on the plane of outer reflection and corresponds to the mind/sense state of understanding, I’m going to have to figure out how to make this shift.
This is a shift that takes me into a knowingness that is more speeded-up than the plane of mind/senses which dumb things down. And when you’re more speeded-up then you can’t ground, or you can’t think, and you can’t focus, which is evidence of being off the ground.
To begin with I’m trying to make sense of this greater overallness in relationship to the mind/senses of outer life. This doesn’t work out very well. I’m having trouble functioning. I am not able to contain this energy. I’m struggling because I am not letting go of a world in which I rely upon my mind/senses.
I have not yet learned to flow in an overallness through this heart knowingness. To do so is to be more upon the level of the world’s soul. To do so is to become accustomed to a reality that is more open because it is free from the personal mind/sense/ego, or more free anyway. It’s always a question of degree.
So I find myself in a conundrum. It is as if there is an entity in creation that has a fear of dying, and if this were to happen, so to speak, from the perspective of what feels like a type of entity energy, it would lose its mind/sense/ego reflective personality. To the degree that I carry the solution, I struggle and go through problems that limit who I am meant to be.
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