In this dream imagery, John digs down into the details of how it is we intertwine and connect with the flow. It’s a huge subject that is little understood. At the crux of it is a state of trust. We see in the dream image that John lays down his own bridges across a gap he knows already has an invisible bridge. As humans we have a habit of thinking we must do everything, when the closer truth is that we want to be open to the higher connections that guide us to what is next – we must surrender to Its doing. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: So, what I’m doing in the dream is, that which is me, in order to be in the whole, which means that I am both the inner and outer, I feel that I need to take on the space between the two states. That’s that interval or whatever, or the doorway or, in this case, a bridge between the two points.
And it quickly leads to confusion because one’s power that is able to take on the whole is still diffused. In other words, I don’t trust it yet. I don’t have the confidence that I can just outright do this.
So the way I see this dream, this state, it’s described by the teacher as a doorway, but in this dream it is a chasm in which a threshold is laid over a gap. In other words, the inner’s one side, the outer’s on the other. And in the dream, a naturally unfolding bridge has evolved.
Now it’s not that I see this bridge; I feel the bridge. I know the bridge exists, but I don’t necessarily trust it. I don’t have, you might say, a fully awakened emptiness space to it. I think I need to be able to put my finger on it better, which means I don’t yet have enough confidence, or consciousness, to trust this as being sufficient.
So instead of working to develop a trust, a strength, whatever you want to call it, to what naturally is there, I have instead dropped two other energetic bridges across the chasm between inner and outer. I’ve dropped them right over the top of what was naturally there – and those are very loud and very visible. They’re man-made.
The result for having done this is I have confused myself over which is needed, and when, and I do not have in my mind’s eye an answer for all of the situations that could come up. In other words, there’s a certain mind/sense that those other two bridges serve a particular purpose, but they choke me in some fashion, too.
My connection is troublesome on a sensation level because each of these other two bridges have conditional limitations. Both only barely cross the chasm and, although they are more visible to me because that’s how mind/sense and that kind of involvement where I’m controlling something in my dream instead of staying in the emptiness, they’re more visible to me because they were man-made by me, by my concepts, over what is needed.
This makes them conditioned and I know it, because whenever you do anything you know that anything that you possibly do is going to be limited. These man-made bridges would not have been possible if there hadn’t been a natural connection from the inception. In other words, how is it that I know that they’re man-made bridges? Otherwise I’d buy into it as the real McCoy, but because of some naturalness side that echoes inside of me that’s how I know that I’m cutting myself, selling myself short.
So in the dream, instead of becoming more energetically attuned to the natural connection, which, you know, that’s what a wise person would do because that’s what it’s all about instead of trying to keep introducing something else into the equation, because if I were to become more attuned to this natural connection, I’d be establishing an energetic trust from which the intertwining would become complete.
But what I have done is I’ve confused and divided myself by creating two more bridges that I can see more readily because they have more of a physical orientation. In doing this I can tell that this is choking my breath, which goes in and out naturally.
In other words, you can’t know anything if you don’t already know it somewhere inside yourself. And because man’s created out of everything, they know everything, they’re connected to everything.
And so this is all portrayed by the breath. The breath is conscious to everything that you are intertwined with. And so through the breath you can tell that you’re choking yourself in some fashion or another from a naturalness and, as a consequence, you know that there is a greater overall consciousness and that what I had done is inadvertently taken myself away from it.
So in the dream in connecting naturally with my breath, which one does on some level all the time anyway – it’s a matter of getting connected back to that so that it is actual as opposed to unconscious – when one doesn’t do that, or hasn’t done that, and you can awaken from an unconsciousness to a point where you can experience on a sensation level a kind of heebie-jeebie and weakness that is compromised from the natural connection – even though you don’t know your natural connection yet.
The problem in this dream is, like I say, I don’t know my natural connection or, another way of saying it is, I don’t know my true being or power. I am limiting who I am by establishing what I feel are alternatives. Such alternatives cover up the natural flow and become a cause or course of action that takes me on an incomplete journey or tangent.
From dreams several weeks ago I learned that consciousness occurs at this interval where the inner and the outer come together. As they touch there is a spark. In that spark there is something that is known. To own the consciousness the connection must not be limited by the imposing of man-made means upon this flow. To do so creates spiritual illusions which veil us from what is meant to be in the wholeness.
I am meant to be a soldier between the two worlds, an interval that has so much emptiness that nothing compromises the coming together. To the degree I am inclined to believe that there is a distinction, to be noted separately, is the degree I weaken myself. If my understanding is limited to the synaptic flashes that identify with as being what is real, this too holds me back.
This is showing that when the inner and the outer come together initially there is a spark and that spark is like an insight of information, and that sets off synaptic things, and quickens your energy, and your mind can wander, and you can go off into tangent like that – and that, too, is a limitation, that too is not in the emptiness.
That is part of kind of the psyche of the synapses of life because in an absolute nothing but nothingness the connection takes on all there is between inner and outer. In other words, you don’t have to even have the spark. But to begin with we need the spark because we need to have some sort of assurance.
To the degree I still need to personally micromanage or segregate the potentiality is the degree in which I fail to naturally intertwine. And you do that with your thoughts and your attention being placed in this, that, or the other all based upon usually identifying in some personal way. Maybe an example needs to be given to better understand this.
And so you can use meditation as an example of how it works. The process of going into an overall wholeness is inhibited when the mind goes off on tangents or in thoughts looking at this or that. The humongous intertwined consciousness crashes down as the reflective bifurcation prevails.
The bifurcations are symbolized by the bridges I lay down thinking that I still have a need for their specific identifications. The way I am able to realize I am on a wayward tangent is the heart experiences itself being choked because the breath takes on a flow of in-breath to out-breath that doesn’t feel right.
It is from the breath, each breath being a cycle of creation, that we are suddenly able to see ourself coming up short. If we were not a wholeness already, naturally, in and of ourselves, we would not experience the sensation and would remain on a tangent forever.
We describe this knowingness as coming from the heart because the mind/sense perceptions do not directly correlate to what is real. The mind/senses relate to the reflections. The mind/senses must be still before the oneness that is everything is able to open up or to fill us.
The process I’m talking about occurs at the interval bridge doorway. I am using words to describe the emptiness that exists everywhere, this everywhere being a wholeness in which nothing exists because the oneness cannot be bifurcated, it is a oneness. As a oneness, light and sound are the same and there is no time and space.
We create time and space when matter of is created out of sound, and that sound is a lower octave of light. We create this time and space so that there is a seeing and hearing that is simulated.
So you can back yourself away from all of that. Thus comes the conundrum. Initially I fumbled into something that was just animated as a spirit energy, then that was choked off. That didn’t take on the whole.
The whole is taken on through this interval in which there is just something so much more in the inner, and so much more in the outer, in the physical, and then the space in between is the emptiness. And you make that bridge and it all connects.
And we have so much trouble making that bridge because we have to lay our own framework down perceptively or, when we go about looking at the expansion/contraction of the two states, because the light is expansive and sound is contractive, and when we go at trying to dissect that we end up creating a collision between the two.
That creates a spark, and then the spark is information that also is a kind of reflective and that, too, can lead to spiritual illusions, it can lead to psychic abilities. It’s too kind of a greater plane of things than just the pure physical, and one can get enamored in it.
The idea is to let all of that go, as well. And that’s why there really is a nothing but a nothingness that creates the intertwining.
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