In this continuation of the discussion from yesterday (see What We Run From), John describes the details of the inner struggle between listening to what our systems tell us at a deep level, or letting our ego steer us away from our human purpose. It’s a critical understanding, because when we follow our ego desires we are basically owned by “it.” It is only by raising our consciousness and listening to our inner guidance can we begin take ownership of our life – which then connects us to our purpose. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: For it to become something like a type of guidance you have to let go of it, or absorb it or, in other words, put it into a different kind of dynamic in terms of how it’s affecting you inside.
Well, for one thing, you’re going to be affected in terms of how it is that you sort things out, and how it is that you struggle in life. You’re going to be affected by it, whether you like it or not, and the degree to which it controls you and you don’t catch up with the full essence behind it, the degree to which you are more or less victimized by this – on that level of looking at it, it’s an archetypal energy.
When it’s like an archetypal energy, when you look at it in that motif, you’re looking at something that has a force, and a power, and a dictate that exceeds, in some capacity, control how it is that you evolve.
One could almost say that an aspect of that really just sitting there as an energetic that makes you different than someone else, the degree to which you find yourself evolving in terms of relating how it is that you choose to relate to life, you can even say it has a dharmic effect.
Because there is something about that latent energetic vibration that triggers thought processes, and mannerisms, because you’re having to respond to it, and relate to it, that end up shaping how it is that you choose to define yourself in relationship to life itself. And so you could say that that even has a dharmic effect.
The degree to which it has a world effect is not able to be properly reached until you can step aside from the mannerism in which it causes you to be swayed one way or another. In other words, this is all a matter of a kind of focus.
So this energetic that is all inside of you, at a depth inside of you, you have to relate to it in an ever gradual way to the point where you catch up with this energy as something that you’re able to handle and carry so that it doesn’t keep the reverb going.
When it reverbs and when it finds you constantly repeating and repeating, and going this way, and that way, and wherever you go, there is this whole sort of thing then, that’s like thinking, in other words, because this whole sort of thing, in its energetic, affects how you’re thinking works as well.
Because this is an energetic that is what is at the core of how it is that you tend to see yourself, and feel yourself, and so your thoughts even come off of this. And so you can go along and if you get into your thoughts, and you just let your thoughts run, and they reverb and reverb over and over and over again, the next thing you know is those thoughts take you outside of a greater motif of yourself and you are accentuating the pattern, a reverb pattern, that then will have you conducting yourself in a certain way in the outer.
If you don’t face the energy you will also find yourself reverbing back and forth and back and forth, anyway, over and over and over again in a particular way. And at some point in time you realize that you’re a prisoner of this kind of synaptic mannerism of yourself.
But eventually, or ultimately, you get to the point where you recognize that this energy that is flowing through you is something even more. In other words, the way your dream is now looked at is that this is the fount upon which the inner exists. And that is an innerness that flows into the outer, and it can’t flow in the outer when you are simply something that is noodled about, and manipulated about, and acting in some fashion as if you have no integrity whatsoever other than to be thrown around by this sort of thing.
And, in that regard, it also then colludes, or can be colluding, because it gets caught up in how you sense perceive, too, and then your sense perception gets caught up into the mind and now all of a sudden it’s all an aspect of your ego – in terms of whether you do it this way or that way in terms of how you see yourself for your own sense of well being.
So this is a very interesting dynamic that has all of these component parts, but the ability to take and look at all of these little parts is possible now simply because one’s at a threshold with this, a threshold in which the way that one is needing to appreciate it and to work with it is as a vehicle for shifting things in life – as the inner coming into the outer.
And to view that you have to get away from the personifications that is also part of how this energy normally is handled. You have to get beyond it, or otherwise that’s the reverb that you just keep seeing and it dissipates its force when it’s just an energy that reverbs through your senses, and your mind, and caught in your ego.
And then it’s all an aspect of the reflective, and then it’s an aspect of self image, and it’s an aspect then of the collective. You have to get beyond that. You have to still that, you have to quiet that, and then you come to own that energy – instead of it having its synaptic influence over you.
In other words, what’s really interesting about this energy is to look at the traits upon which you blink out, or blink in it, as opposed to own it. When something is going on in which the energetic in the environment is speeded up, or you suddenly get excited and feel that you need to say this, or do this, or respond in a particular way, the response you’re really coming from, that you think is important in terms of what there is to communicate, comes from this place.
It’s as if you want to communicate something. That’s why you’re doing it. Now, if you backed up and didn’t just unleash it like that, you would actually then take that energy and its sense of power, and emanate it instead. You would actually take that energy and fall back into, perhaps, the attunement that could even listen more to what it is actually trying to say, or do, on a deeper inner teaching and/or guidance level.
That is why, for example, it is said that when you’re in front of a teacher and as you’re listening you have these questions. If you can hold those questions inside of yourself, they’ll get answered. If you can’t hold those questions inside of yourself, then what you’re doing is you’re coming from this space, that question is coming from that space, the question has a doubt, that’s why it is venting in that way. It’s not held, it’s not owned. If it were held, if it were owned, you would have a greater awareness from what that vibration is all about in terms of what it has, and is able, in an intertwined way, to say to you.
So this energetic is at all of these different levels and the deepest level is a level in which you work at it not having a control. In other words, not being something in which you’re totally out of control in regards to it. Which means that you may think that those are your thoughts, but your actions and your conduct that just respond to it in this willy nilly, herky-jerky, over and over way that you drink up as being okay, this is what I’m about, is very selfish, and very defined, and a definition which you are embracing. And in the embracing you’re personifying it, and in the personifying of it, you’re establishing a kind of ego center.
You back away from this ego center. You quell this all the time. It’s not like this energy is going to go away. Like I say, at a deep, deep, deep level it’s like a thought of God or something. It’s something upon which you’re even, so to speak, under orders, or of which there is a guidance from within that can be reached in terms of it.
But you can’t find any of that if you’re responding with it in a way that just lives itself out reflectively in the outer motif through mind and senses. You have to go into the essence of it, which is a stillness and which is a quietness and from which, then, there is a language even tied into it . And then that language, and they even say dreams are like languages of the soul.
This is a dream that’s like that. I mean it is describing to you this quality. And at this level now it is describing to you how it is that you’re meant to be able to relate to it in order to utilize it in a capacity that is possible now – in terms of the greater whole.
But if viewed strictly as something that agitates you, throws you around, draws you magnetically to this, that, or the other and not able to quite sort that out, but continuously having something like that affecting you. Then what you’re doing is reverbing, and reverbing, and reverbing instead of taking this energy and holding it, and having it, as a means and a vehicle upon which some aspect of you is accentuated.
It’s almost like if you are able to hold this, maintain it in some fashion, into a state of quietness, it’s almost like you weaponized it, in terms of the power that can come through you, and touch and affect things. Otherwise it is just bled out all over the place in terms of you being something that is meshed into the outer, and this energetic that you have fits within the outer, but in a lower-octave way. You need to raise the reason why it’s always okay in terms of how it is that you function.
This is because it is designed that way, it’s just that you need to come into the higher octave of what that is about in terms of this inner being, this vibration, that is like a type of chase energy, being something that if you don’t stiff arm, or keep a distance from, is part of an owning of who it is, and what it is, that you’re really all about.
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