If we are part of a oneness, then we are responsible for what we create energetically – because it will ultimately affect the whole. So it is within us – we can’t ignore aspects and behaviors that have an effect on our lives. That’s not to say we have to resolve everything – no, life’s too short for that. But we do have to face the good and the bad in us with clarity so that the veils avoidance creates can be lifted. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
John: My meditation dream was kind of chaotic, in that it’s kind of setting the sequence to something that needs to unfold. Or unfold in terms of a greater whole, or at least there’s some part of that involvement that affects me in some way, in order to break something free, in order to gain a closer and deeper connectivity to myself – instead of something that’s suppressed.
And so the dream works off of kind of like a scenario, in which in Nevada the owner of a high-rise condo keeps paying for the same land over and over again, and that there is no equalization with the adjoining subdivision land parcels in the area.
And this phenomenon only exists for high rise residential usage. It is not unusual for this approach to cause the land to appear to be worth thirty times more than other properties, which are used for commercial instead of residential.
And the meaning of this kind of thing that was reverbing inside of me, is the dream is trying to communicate why this is a practice that is discriminatory. And so, to show how this is more discriminatory, I had the following dream image.
I know that this practice in Nevada is enabling the powers-to-be to use the residential to subsidize the taxes of the commercial. The significance of the dream is to see if I am able to hold a presence and not dissipate the power by being overly indulgent and righteous about what is occurring.
Had I been able to pull this off, I would have created a recording. In other words, a recording that would have been complete, in and of itself, that would have been more convincing in terms of exposing this imbalance. As it is, even though there are inequities in my mannerism, it could still probably be clipped and whatnot, and so that for all intents and purposes, the overall effect can still be made known in a convincing manner.
So this dream, of course, is about something much more than just that. That’s just the awkwardness to which I seem to be fumbling about and struggling in terms of meditating now, as opposed to actually dreaming where things are coming more alive and are deeper in the dreaming.
And that’s shown in that in this dream, I travel to a program that a teacher is holding. As I get there, I meet up with a number of friends. Prior to walking over to where the program is going to be held, I talk my friends into going with me to visit a building I own in the area.
It’s actually an abandoned building. It may have been like a house, but it’s kind of more like a shed or something. It doesn’t have an ordinary door. It had kind of a half-door that opens. And I had heard rumors that when you do not take care of that which you own, the place falls apart.
So, as I open the small doorway, I see a number of small mice. Now, more about this house. It had lost its viability as a place to live in long ago. And before it was permanently abandoned, it was used to store feed grain. So, I’m not surprised to see a few mice because maybe there’s some kernels of grain, or whatever, to get to.
But then, as I try to look further back, I suddenly see huge, bloated rats that are feeding in such a frenzy. In other words, all I could see is their heads are down and their bodies are up. They’re not paying any attention to me. My presence doesn’t seem to even disturb them. They’re wall-to-wall over this entire back area, hundreds of them. There isn’t a single open space. They’re everywhere.
This spot that I’m looking at back there must have been where the feed grain had gotten piled. And over time, the feed grain, from neglect, fermented and soured, and is now intoxicatingly feeding hundreds of delirious, ravenous rats. This is such an unusual sight, I challenge those that I am with to take a look, because seeing is believing. You know what happens when you don’t take responsibility.
So, the meaning is, and this is interesting this first statement: I feel in my body, as a precursor sensation to a disgusting image, what it is like to have abandoned a situation. I just feel it in my body and then I create this image, of seeing the rats. Or, as I put it, I create the following symbolic image, of which the net effect of not taking a responsibility for what I house, or have, is a disgusting unconsciousness.
The place being full of rats dramatizes the indulgent sensationalism. When conditions get to that degree, the human tendency is to shut the door and move my attention elsewhere. To do so, is to create an anesthetized suppression inside yourself or an amnesia. In other words, you’re veiling out unsettling images and thoughts, to seek out glorified conditions. Firstly, I’m at this program. It’s much nicer to go to the program.
Unless this approach, or as long as this approach veils and has abandoned conditions and defense mechanisms, I’m treated to life in a kind of abnormal distraction. Under this approach, the door is closed, the process stops, the idea that it is okay to leave the issue to someone else to contend, tends to then become the norm of this kind of avoidance. A norm in which only the surface is skinned, because then things veil in terms of the depth of being able to understand things, because you’re not facing them.
Because the norm that you’re taking on is an irresponsible, or an irresponsibility in which you don’t take responsibility for what was abandoned long ago. And so it’s going to take a lot, but the only way I am going to come out of a trance—as I said above, seeing was believing—as an affirmation of that which I feel in my body, is I have to flush out this precursor sensation that I carry, that has led to the disgusting image of rats all over the place, lost in their world and ambivalently drunken.
In other words, you carry a sense of something that’s haywire. And if you carry it and carry it long enough, and you don’t confront it, it creates a rat-like condition. And then they get like that because you’re putting your attention on something that looks better and seems better, and then that other just stays and festers.
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