Leaving No Traces

Roy Connelly
Roy Connelly

As described here, we can think of letting go as a process of cleaning out unnatural behaviors. That means cleansing ourselves of our attachments, our biases, our defense mechanisms – all the remnants of our personal ego. Of course that sounds difficult, but it is merely the process of making one more thing conscious in us, rather than unconscious. It takes a lifetime, of course, but if we’ve understood what’s really going on, there’s nothing else to do. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now this idea of contamination is an ancient, ancient principle and even the Catholic Church understands this if you go far enough back. It used to be believed, or is believed that… see, the Catholic Church has this practice where they do what is known as canonizing saints. And they discovered that if the person has become pure, or has totally let go, has totally purged in some fashion, that you can exhume the body after five, ten years, and it shouldn’t have decayed.

But if there is an imperfection, the body will be all rotted and decayed. And then, of course, out of that came this whole thinking of how to preserve the body, to slow down this process of decay. And so that’s where we developed the embalming practices and stuff like that.

And in the history of people who wanted to be viewed as having gotten somewhere, in some sort of sense of consciousness, they may have duped the system to a certain degree, and so it became known that if you dig the body up after ten years and it’s all decayed, well, I guess they weren’t quite what they were purporting themselves to be.

Which has caused one to then ponder, what is, where is the contaminant? Now I’ve been catching up with this idea of the contaminant as being something that’s synaptically correlated. In other words, it’s like you have maybe a mannerism or a defense side of your nature that, when a certain thing happens, a certain response will automatically come out. You might say that’s a synaptic nature.

Well, dropping the word “synapse,” lets go to the word “blood,” in the blood. And so in families you have things that are born that are patterns and characteristics, or karma or whatever you want to call it, that’s part of a lineage, or family tradition even. And so how do you get beyond that?

Let’s say you’re born and you’re just a baby and for the first three years you don’t know any better than to take and contend with the ups and downs of the vibration of the mother’s soul, and so you do that.

And so if she’s a little haywire and is drinking, or doing whatever she might be doing that’s a little off, you, somehow or another, have to take that as real, as your reality. And then as you come out of that, and you might say that’s a very, very subjective side of yourself, a very womb-like side of things, then you go through the phase of adolescence, and in adolescence you’re challenging everything.

Well, you’re not going to do a very good job of challenging it because you’ve already bought into a lot of it in the subjective phase that is contaminating the pure subjective of yourself. The subjective side of yourself is an ancient, old memory and it’s mired over by having to accept the malarky that is imposed upon it when you’re, let’s say up to three years old and coming off of the mother’s soul. And then as you are growing up to about the age of 12 or 13 you’re still having to learn off of the qualities and the principles, you’re having to be taught, is I guess is the way of saying it.

So now you’re adopting that. Some of it might be good, most of it is baloney because the parents don’t know, they just pretend to know. And then when you go through the adolescent phase you have kind of caught up with the fact that this a bunch of bullshit, but you don’t know what’s bullshit and what’s not – so you just rebel. You fight it all.

Because of blindsides that exist, the woman tends to adhere to the father because that’s the flip side chemistry of magnetism, and the guy, the masculine, tends to protect and honor the mother. And so women fight with their mother, guys do a tug-o-war with their father as a process of evolving, and that leads to developing scars and wounds and everything else. But because of the bloodline correlation, there is usually this bonded connection that rarely goes to a point where it gets to the point where it’s enemy, or total rejection.

There’s still a connection, and it’s almost as if this is a process that’s designed this way in order to help you to somehow or another learn to let go, learn to recognize that it’s not as it appears. And then, after adolescence, you go through the adult phase where you go out and you come with the best idea of whatever it is is your dharma or conceptualization of how you see yourself needing to be, as an expression, as a sum total.

And a lot of that has to do with the noodling of something into the fiber of your soul being that has a quickening, like a bubble effect type state that has to be experienced to be lived out in order to be completed. And so you go through that and then you hit, if you’re meant to hit it in we’ll say this lifetime, if you’re meant to hit it you reach a point where you realize none of that goes anywhere either. It only looks good, sounds good, but it doesn’t really go anywhere.

And so that then can start you on the way of letting go. So what is meditation? Meditation is a process of letting go. Meditation is not a process of sitting and concentrating on how to thread the needle differently.

Meditation is not a process of sitting there and listening to sound and following your breath, because you don’t know how to do that without trying to control, without trying to keep it in some motif, your conceptualization of what it is, and how it is that you need to drink up this essence, whatever this essence is, which you don’t even know.

Yet in the letting go somehow or another you fall into it. Now drop the word “letting go”: in the stillness. So what’s so fascinating is, if you can truly be in the stillness, and that’s why maybe it’s said that only those who have been through the Ring of Fire can do this work, when you’ve truly been in the stillness you can see what’s going to happen. You have these inflections.

In other words, there’s no time anymore. It’s like you’re in the sum total of it all, beginning and end is one and the same. But the problem is again it comes across as a thousandth of a second inflection that is not register-able by a world full of senses that operate in bifurcated motifs fashion.

And so, when something like that hits it quickly gets noodled into a redirecting to try to do something. And this is where the ideals come in, this is where the self-sacrifices come in, this is where the conceptualizations is that you’re getting closer to something.

This is where the idea of a process comes up, and where you see in the process that you’re polishing the heart, and that you’re getting closer and closer but still just subtler and subtler. And it’s rare to get to a point where you have this exasperation where this thousandths of a split second of something leads really to its full consummation, where you just totally let go.

And then when you totally let go, this leads to this dilemma: Wow! What about the story of manifestation? Manifestation is something that was created in God’s image. God loves it. It’s a place where he can come to see and hear himself, as opposed to it just being in the stillness of an all-knowingness. Yes, everything is known, but nothing is for sure, something like that…

And so man’s given freedom of choice and he goes off and this and that and the other happens, and by golly by gee, I mean you could take this into the negative, well okay, we’re on the verge of another crackup.

Or you can take it to the positive and you can say that we’re going to get to a point where there are going to be those who will be able to walk around invisibly with a freedom to knowing how to touch without leaving traces, leaving everything kind of as is, yet able to be here but not really here, also somewhere else simultaneously.

And that as long as a person has to identify with the reflective aspect of any kind of state, whatsoever, they’re not able to be both here and there. And what is there? There is the soul, the world soul of which your soul is just a piece of the whole, of that world soul.

And what is the world soul? The world soul is the soul that takes in the entire universe. So in answer to that little question, you put the heart of another in your heart. You put the world in your heart. Your heart is big enough to include the entire universe because you’re created out of all of the pieces of it all.

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