At the Crescendo

325quasara_1Humans live in motion and seek, through their life, the deep inner stillness. The stillness, from which all movement arises, seeks to connect to that movement through the human. We are the only creature refined enough to offer creation that service. We are part of its unfolding, not the other way around, which makes what each of us does with our lives of great importance to the whole. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The way this has been coming across is: beginning and end are one and the same, up and down, inner and outer, above and below, basically reflections of the same time.

There’s only a oneness. There are not two gods. There’s not this Satan and this other, and each religion tends to have maybe has evil another separate stream of evolution. Really what we consider evil is usually just ignorance.

That causes me to ponder maybe even what is considered evil is just a different octave of ignorance – which means it’s all God yet. It’s all a letting go, because in the process of redemption and awakening you’re having to go into the depths of yourself in order to scale to the heights of yourself.

And that whole sensation is a sensation of taking a journey of which there is no beginning and there is no end. You are always complete. At some point you realize that it’s all complete. The whole thing was done as part of an eyes and ears or something way of happening, and so it’s the journey that’s real.

But now I’m not so sure, because even in the end the journey has to end, or otherwise you’re continuously trying to make things subtler and subtler and subtler in a greater and greater more consciousness. And therein will lie a problem. And thus I’m sitting and seeing what might be meant when it says that no one group, or tariqa or whatever it is, can do this work.

If you took all of the answers, if there was a total of only 100 questions in the universe, and you took and were able to compare all of the notes and put it all together, you could get 100. You could include everything in it, and when you include everything in it you have an absolute total stillness.

Or otherwise you’re still going to have the greater jihad of this and you’re always going to have the battle of the sects. And yet the differentiation between them when you back up to the storyline seems pretty, pretty trite. And yet out of that has devolved a raging war over there.

This is an interesting paradigm to catch up with, and it caused me to ponder the whole quality that some people have that is a rebellion, that is a rebellion and a push off towards what they see everybody else going through.

And it’s almost as if they have a repugnance towards that and that repugnancy from that end, call that a direction or an end, is no different than the repugnancy of someone who thinks that they’ve got everything figured out, they’ve got the best wife, the best house, the best job, the best bank account, whatever it is that makes them feel all hunky-dory in that direction.

The other is a sense of security from a sense of knowing something somehow, someway, and maybe there’s a quality typically of a cynicism in both directions. You pull the plug on both of those and that inflects something so much more; so, so, so much more.

Thus you come to understand the meaning of forgiveness. And the forgiveness is part of the letting go that opens everything up. But if there’s still going to be the holding on, in some little context, maybe I’ll still keep a little piece of the action there just in case, just in case. It’ll give me a good jacket if the weather turns bad.

And then all of a sudden I went through the crackup, and the crackup was the shock of the stillness. That was my crackup, suddenly realizing that you weren’t always constantly trying to have spiritual solutions to everything, that there’s no such thing as that. There’s just the letting go.

The exposure is very, very important. In other words, you’ve got to be in the world, but not part of it, so to speak. You’ve got to have that exposure. You’ve got to walk through that door somehow, jumping off into that void. Unbelievably scary. Just the shock of that obliterates the dreaming on the inner dream level, just like the shock of the senses hitting when you open your eyes obliterate the dream level of the sleep.

And the same can be said in another way. Now that I am lucky enough to be able to meditate and have experiences in the meditation, that sets a particular octave. I don’t necessarily understand it. A part of that octave is the stillness, and then there’s the contamination in it.

And then when I go to sleep and have a regular sleep dream, then I get a reconstituting kind of attempt to align it. Then when I wake up and have pulled it out, then I have to put it into a context of “in the world, and out of the world” or otherwise it’s bookish. It doesn’t do anything then, either.

So this is more like the process. What we dream now, we dream for the future. And what was dreamt in the past we are living that now. Thus we are at this point where we’re at this crescendo of things coming together. And how is that going to be?

There always has to be something more. Who knows what it’s going to be. With my eyes open I don’t see the revelation everywhere. I only am seeing it in infinitesimal glimpses.

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